October 30, 1972 (The last birthday) Ah, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday! ... (Mother gives some presents) These are pens.... And these are the chocolates! Page 303 (Mother holds Satprem's hands in hers) Mon petit.... (To Sujata:) Naturally the chocolates are for you! The biscuits for him. (Sujata gives Mother flowers) This is "Divine Grace"... and this is "Power of Truth in theSubconscient." (Mother gives Satprem Sujata's flowers) Yes, Mother, yes, Mother.... Happy birthday, happy new year. Page 304

April 19, 1972 And what about your "change" [of government]? It's going on! (silence) The conscious will seems to want to assume a larger role. It makes life ... much more efficient, obviously, but also more difficult. More difficult in what way? Well, usually we passively leave it up to Nature to set things right when something goes wrong - that's totally disappearing. Now it is a process of consciousness, and no longer.... You see, the mind (laughing: it's going on - the supramental is still sitting on it!), the mind has been worked upon for years, so that it doesn't meddle when it's none of its business and lets Nature take care of all the damage; but now Nature is

February 5, 1972 (Mother listens to the conclusion of the English translation of "Notes on the Way"; she looks weary and tired from the confu sion created by the translators. After they leave, she simply hands Satprem the text of a recent note, then plunges in.) To want what the Divine wants in all sincerity is the essential condition for peace and joy in life. Almost all human miseries come from the fact that human beings are almost always persuaded they know better than the Divine what they need and what life is supposed to bring them. The majority of human beings want other human beings to behave according to their own expectations and life circumstances to follow their own

April 4, 1972 (Meeting with S.S., the third member of the trio of rivals. He reports to Mother that some Aurovilians are rumored to be "American spies. ") (Mother speaks in English) Some people say that they are spies and are kept by the American Government, some others (some Americans) tell me that the Americans would never take such incapable spies! So myself I don't see the.... To tell the truth, I don't appreciate them very much, but I have nothing very positive against them. That's all. It's all like that. Page 129 I tried my best to push them out, that is to say, that they would WANT to go. But they ... it didn't happen, they really willed to remain. If we could h

July 19, 1972 How are you? Not so well. Why? I don't know. What's wrong? ... The head or the body? No, it's rather within. Ohh! That HAS to be all right. Within, we're the masters - we want to be well, we are well. It's only this (Mother points to her body) that doesn't quite obey. (long silence Mother holds Satprem's hand) The subconscient is a mass of defeatism. That's what keeps rising to the surface. As we ABSOLUTELY need to change that, the subconscient must be clarified so that the new race can come. We must clarify the subconscient. It's a mire. It's full of defeatism - defeatism, the first reaction is always defeatist. It's absolutely disgusting, mon petit,

April 2, 1972 (Sujata's vision the night of April 1) One Thousand Years (original English) We enter the courtyard of a building, Satprem and I. We see sad faced people. Head bent, solemn and silent. The Mother is dead. Everybody thinks that The Mother is dead. A few are scattered here and there, individuals or groups of three or four. But most go out from a side door to our left. Another door is to the left at the top of a stairway which mounts from the court yard below and ends in a sort of bridge or passage. I see one or two Page 123 persons going out from this bridge-door. Turning to the right, this passage leads straight to the Mother's room. We

January 17, 1973 We need a message for February 21, Mother. Do you have it? No! [laughter] Z proposes two texts from Sri Aurobindo, but I feel it would be better to have something from you. Yes. Do you have something? Well, no, Mother! Won't you rather say something yourself? (after a silence) Plus on avance, plus le besoin d'une presence divine devient imperieux et ... inevitable. [The more we advance, the more the need of a divine presence becomes imperative and ... inevitable.] "Inevitable" isn't the word, it's.... Page 348 "Indispensable"? Yes, that's it, indispensable. Is it all right ? Yes, Mother. (Mother writes the message in French)

March 30, 1972 (A conversation with R., an American disciple, then with Sujata) (Mother speaks in English) Since we have set aside all conventions, immediately everybody Page 117 thinks, "Ah, nice place to fulfil our desires!" And they almost all come with that intention. And because I made a maternity clinic for the children of those people that I was obliged to send away from the Ashram, so that they could have a place to have their child, people think that the maternity clinic is established for all children born in an illegal way! I don't care for legality, I don't care for law, I don't care for convention. But what I want is a more divine life, not an animal l

December 10, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata, who reads her a letter from Satprem.) December 10, 1972 Mother, For the past several nights, my body seems to havebeen physically tortured all night long. I keep tossing and turning in pain. Also I feel as if my stomach is being clawed. I am afraid that if this goes on, I am actually Page 323 going to fall ill. In the morning when I come out of it, I feel as if my body were full of poison. [[I now wonder whether I was not, in my own measure, beginning to learn the painful lesson of oneness, which starts with all the ambient ill-will. Now I understand fully well that there must be no more "person" in order

February 11, 1972 (A note from Mother) Supreme Lord, teach us to be silent, that in thissilence we may receive Your force and understand Your will. Page 62