May 4, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata) Strange feeling.... Since last night, a strange impression that the Divine has become ... (how to formulate it?) like a golden Force pressing down like this (gesture of pressure on the earth). They alone, who by their aspiration are able to pass through to the Divine Origin, will escape catastrophes. There was a catastrophe in Madras: one of our best cars was in a very serious accident. Only those who have an aspiration, a sincere and unconditional aspiration towards the Divine, only they will escape - they will stand in a golden glory. Extremely interesting. [[Noted from memory. ]] Page 175

February 7, 1972 (A note from Mother) In the depths of our being, in the silence of contemplation, a luminous force permeates our consciousness with a vast and luminous peace Page 54 which prevails over all petty reactions and pre pares us for union with the Divine, the meaning of individual existence. Thus, the purpose and goal of life is not suffering and struggle but an all-powerful and happy realization. All the rest is but a painful illusion. Page 55

February 7, 1973 (Regarding a text given by Mother for the next "Bulletin") There is only one solution for falsehood: It is to cure in ourselves all that contradicts in our consciousness the presence of the Divine. (December 31, 1972) I am very keen on this! It's very true - very true. It may not be easy to understand, but it's VERY PROFOUNDLY true. All in us that veils or distorts or prevents the manifestation of the Divine is the falsehood. It means a whole lot of work! That's what I am doing all the time - every day and all day long, whenever I don't ... even when I see people. It is the only thing worth living for. Page 360

September 30, 1972 I've found a very interesting quotation from Sri Aurobindo. What is it? This one: Page 288 "The principle of mechanical repetition is very strongin the material nature, so strong that it makes one easily think that it is incurable. That, however, is only a trick of the forces of this material inconscience; it is by creating this impression that they try to endure. If, on the contrary, you remain firm, refuse to be depressed or discouraged and, even in the moment of attack, affirm the certainty of eventual victory, the victory itself will come much more easily and sooner." (Letters on Yoga, XXIV.1336) Oh, this is very, very

October 21, 1972 Look how lovely! (Mother gives Satprem a white lotus) And you, Mother, how are you? (after a long silence) You see, I would either have to describe every single thing that keeps happening, or say nothing at all. When I say nothing and just stay like this (gesture, open hands) ... in an attitude of absolute surrender, things go on well. But if the SLIGHTEST thing pulls me out of it, I feel ... as if I were about to die. Extraordinary. When I am in that position, I get the feeling that ... life is eternal. (silence) And when I come out of it, there's a horrible discomfort. That's my condition. (silence) Well, what do you want? What

January 31, 1973 (Long silence, Mother shakes her head several times as if at a loss, she tries to speak and plunges in again.) Page 355 The same identical circumstances, occurring at the same time, can cause a marvelous bliss- marvelous, as I have never felt before - or sheer hell. The very same circumstances, and at the same time. For hours on end it's enough to drive you mad, and for a few ... (maybe hours, maybe minutes - the sense of time isn't the same, but anyway ... ) a wonder. A wonderful Presence. It doesn't really depend on circumstances: the circumstances are always the same, and yet.... And in this new consciousness, time has a completely different value:

June 28, 1972 (Mother first listens to some letters from Sri Aurobindo to Nirod, and in particular the following ones, which catch her attention and amuse her.) Why not write something about the Supermind which these people find so difficult to understand? What's the use? How much would anybodyunderstand? Besides the present business is to bring down and establish the Supermind, not to explain it. If it establishes itself, it will explain itself - if it does not, there is no use in explaining it. I have said some things about it in past writings, but without success in enlightening anybody. So why repeat the endeavor? (October 8, 1935) On Himself, XXVI

May 19, 1972 (Coincidentally, this conversation with Sujata took place exactly one year before Mother's last meeting with Satprem, on May 19, 1973. These last few days, transcriptions of some recordings made in Mother's room were on display in the showcase of SABDA, the book business. Sujata voices her surprise.) Page 187 How can this be, Mother? For so many years we have kept allyour recordings private and nobody knew anything, and now they are on public display - and in an incorrect transcription moreover. They don't listen to me. But, Mother, how did they get out of here? The Ashram no longer belongs to me. (Sujata, taken aback) I feet very distress

May 9, 1973 (Today Mother is very late, she has Satprem and Sujata called in before the other disciples. She immediately takes Satprem's hands. It is heartrending.) Something's wrong. Something's wrong. I see you.... Something's wrong. What's wrong, Mother? I feel like screaming.... But.... (silence) I am eating less and less, so I am constantly uncomfortable - and so weak! [[That day, I felt that the movement was going to accelerate and a time would come when a radically different way would have to be found-perhaps the supreme Pressure of death is necessary to release the "almighty powers shut in Nature's cells" that Sri Aurobindo mentions in Savitri? As though the

February 18, 1973 (Extracts from a meeting with the schoolteachers. One of them complains that the first signs of violence are showing up in the children.) Violence is necessary as long as men are ruled by their ego and its desires. But violence must be used only as a means of defense when you are attacked. The ideal towards which humanity is moving and which we want to realize is a state of luminous understanding in which each person's needs as well as the harmony of the whole are taken into account. The future will have no need of violence because it will be governed by the Divine Consciousness, in which all things are harmonized and complement each other. For the mom