November 28, 1970 (Satprem offers his pension to Mother and asks her if he could keep a little money to build a room for himself in the Nandanam gardens, on the outskirts of Pondicherry.) Yes, it will do you good. *** (Then Mother translates a few passages from Savitri, including this one:) It lends beauty to the terror of the gulfs And fascinating eyes to perilous Gods, Invests with grace the demon and the snake. II.II.106 It's charming! That's exactly the nature of the vital, what Theon called the "nervous world." *** Page 376 (Then Satprem reads the beginning of chapter 11 of Supermanhood; "The Change of Power.") It creates

January 21, 1970 (Mother listens to the English translation of the conversation of 13 December 1969, in which she spoke of a cure "without repres sion": "What causes the repression is the idea of good and evil.... The infirmity of our consciousness is what creates this division." Mother added that one has to "learn to disappear." Satprem had proposed the publication of a few extracts in the "Notes on the Way.") Is it the end? (To Nolini, in English:) You think it's all right? It won't create a great confusion?... I am not sure. They're going to feel quite lost. (silence) Page 57 (Satprem:) You go to the heart of the problem - to the heart o

December 3, 1970 From this day, Mother went through a long ordeal that lasted more than a month and a half. That will be the last turning point after those of 1962 and 1968. Satprem will see her again only on January 16. On December 31, her faithful cashier Satyakarma left his body, the last in the unhappy series that deprived Mother of her most reliable helpers. In the course of this ordeal, Mother was affected successively in the chest, the abdomen, then the legs and down to the feet. The first bedsores appeared on her back. Page 382

December 2, 1970 (Mother has a bloodshot left eye and a swollen cheek.) Are you all right? Yes, Mother, and you? Toothache ... Always something ... It doesn't matter. It's interesting simply because there isn't that spontaneous reaction everyone has (gesture turned in) of seeing and acting in relation with this (Mother points to her body). This [the body] is like this (gesture of abolition), it doesn't exist. Very strange - and spontaneously. It's not the result of a will or even a thought, a consciousness: it's a natural state. As if it did not exist. And I suppose that's why every little corner that isn't yet exactly as it should be goes wrong, and then ... Then it ha

September 6, 1970 (Sujata furtively goes and sees Mother.) You're sweet.... I am better. Page 310

September 30, 1970 (Mother is a little late.) I don't know the days of the week, and I am not told the days, so I didn't know it was your day. That's why I am late. I don't know Page 331 the days at all. So I'll be seeing people, and suddenly I'll be told it's Wednesday, and ... I don't even know whether its Wednesday or Saturday. I live completely outside time, outside the small everyday reality. (silence) I saw G. yesterday, he isn't too well. (after a long silence) I feel he lives outside the atmosphere. Yet he says he is so constantly turned to you. There's something preventing the contact. (after a silence) His contact is mental. Physically

September 19, 1970 (Mother looked better the previous Wednesday.) Do you have something? Now Mother, nothing special.... Have you seen any changes? (Mother shakes her head negatively) (Long meditation, Mother pants for breath) Do you have any questions? (Mother shakes her head) But it's over now, isn't it? Oh yes, completely over. (meditation again with labored breathing) Do you have anything to ask? I saw a text by Sri Aurobindo that I found interesting.... Oh! Theresa question in fact. ...It's a letter [[In fact a conversation: see Talks with Sri Aurobindo by Nirodbaran, part I, p 179-180. ]] in which he refers to the firs

June 10, 1970 All the nerves are disorganized.... I'm not good for much, but if you like, we can translate Savitri. We can be quiet. ...It will do you good. I am very happy toremain like that. Have you received the latest Aphorisms? Yes, it's the end of the Aphorisms, and it ends well! (Satprem reads) 540 - Canst thou see God in thy torturer and slayereven in thy moment of death or thy hours of torture? Canst thou see Him in that which thou art slaying, see and love even while thou slayest? Thou hast thy hand on the supreme knowledge. How shall he attain to Krishna who has never worshipped Kali? You answer: "All is the Divine and the Divi

July 1, 1970 (Satprem reads out the conversation of June 27 - "a very slight shift of consciousness" - which Mother thought could be used for the "Notes on the Way.") Is that all? I said only this much?.... I thought I had said something interesting - it's not very interesting. Yes, it is! There are lots of things in it! There's always so much MORE than what can be read! I really felt I had said something, and now it seems like nothing at all! When I read it aloud, it's not so good, but when you read it foryourself and go within a little, you clearly feel... Yes, in YOUR case. But for one like you who reads like that, there are a thousand who read on the surfa

May 9, 1970 (These last few days, Mother's physical condition was serious.) Did you get yesterday's aphorism? No, they didn't give it to me. Oh?... It was like this ... (Mother tries to remember): "The strangest experience of the soul ..." I don't remember. Yes, it's this one: 507 - The strangest of the soul's experiences is this,that it finds, when it ceases to care for the image and threat of troubles, then the troubles themselves are nowhere to be found in one's neighbourhood. It is then that we hear from behind those unreal clouds God laughing at us. So then, yesterday I wrote (I forget the words), "But when You want to transform the IMAGE into