June 4, 1969 There's a letter from PL. He writes: " ... My work is the same, there are difficulties in acceptingmy ideas. I am regarded as a 'crank' (I think so, though no one has talked to me about it, for there is a force protecting me). Yet, things at the Vatican, at the center of the Church, are changing. The struggle of the new forces against the tra ditional ones is now very strong. If the Pope accepts (his entourage is against it) to go to Geneva on June 10 and take part in the Assembly of Protestant Churches, and asserts there that we are not 'the only ones to possess the truth,' I believe that will be a great step forward. But will he have the courage to

May 28, 1969 (Mother looks a little overburdened.) I have nothing to say. Do you have anything, any news? I don't have any news, but there's one thing here. They've foundin Pavitra's things the record of an experience he had three years ago, just when his cancer was beginning. Would you be inter ested to know the text of that experience? ... Is it interesting? ... As for me, I have nothing to say. I have nothing to say, things are going on .... It's difficult. Yes. But anyway ... Pavitra has remained here, not at all mingled; now and then, wholly conscious, otherwise very tranquil. It's good - not a hindrance, you understand .... Now and then, he

November 1, 1969 (The conversation begins with a record delay of an hour and a half) It's becoming a bit difficult .... What do you have to tell me? ... Your last meeting with A.R.? He didn't tell you anything? He remains as he is. He said, "Id rather get killed on the spotthan change my policy"! And in the same breath, he says, "I want to find, I want to find, and if I don't find, it means the Divine doesn't want me to." So he wants to find, but doesn't want to change .... I'll tell you something .... The last time he came, I had him sit down and I thought, "We'll see." I started the meditation as usual, it was very good and he received - the

March 1, 1969 (The conversation begins forty-five minutes late.) It's going well, very well, but ... No more clock, that no longer exists! What should take place at 8:30 takes place at 10 .... And every day I turn down people, you understand, I turn down lots of them, but they tell me, "You should ..." It's interesting. The Presence is growing constant, and the contact with people is quite interesting, quite outside ... Most of the time I don't know who the person is - all external things are becoming increasingly shallow and nonexistent-but the inner reactions are very interesting. I would have to speak for hours to explain all that takes place. But it's going well.

May 31, 1969 How are your nights? ... The same? Still the same? (Satprem grimaces) Two nights ago, I spent more than three hours with Sri Aurobindo, and I showed him all that was going to descend for Auroville. It was rather interesting. There were games, there was art, there was even cooking! But all that was very symbolic. I explained it to him as if on a table, in front of a large landscape; I explained the principle on whose basis physical exercises and games were going to be organized. It was very clear, very precise, I even did a demonstration, as if showing him on a very small scale: a representation on a very small scale of what was going to be done. I moved people, things ...

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   Vol. 10 - July 26, 1969 July 26, 1969 (Mother wants to revise with Satprem a few passages  of her translation of 'Savitri.') But now I've come to notice that they cut these quotations, they leave out two lines in the middle - suddenly I'll say to myself, "But it doesn't hang together!" I'll ask, and F. tells me, "Yes, they left out one line, two lines ...." So what's to be done? It's absurd. Here, all this is ready. I don't need to see it again: it's for you to see it. It's my translation. What should I do? (Laughing) See if my translation is good! But Mother, listen ... why? No, because some things might be put in a better way.

April 23, 1969 (Mother received Satprem at 11 instead of 10.) It's frightful, mon petit! ... Oh, there were lots of amusing things to tell you, but it's no fun, we're too hurried .... Oh, you know, Mother, I wanted to tell you one thing: the whole gossip in the Ashram is that you sent L. to Delhi with a message regarding the events in Bengal and telling the government that it should be strong - the whole Ashram knows it! (Mother laughs) ... They were VERY WELL received in Delhi. A. [a secretary to the government] came back and told me that Indira was in conversation for twenty or twenty-five minutes, and that she seemed quite happy. It was a complete s

April 2, 1969 (Since the previous year, Satprem had complained of headachesand eyeaches, which, strangely, would come during the night. Recently, Mother ordered him to stop reading and writing for a month.) How are your nights? All right. They're not better? Yes, they're better. Ah! ... Are you still suffering? If I do anything, I soon get a headache. But you shouldn't do anything! (Mother laughs) But often some people want to see me. As for me, I am not giving you any more work. That's too bad! It's not tiring, on the contrary. What tires me isseeing people. But is it necessary that you should see them? I wonder what I s