April 19, 1969 (Regarding the departure of Amrita, who looked after the Ashram's finances.) (Laughing) Here are soups! We're in a dreadful confusion, dreadful! For years there was a whole side of things, the side of money and all the arrangements, which I wasn't told about, and it was quite fine, I didn't look after it, didn't bother myself with it. Now, they suddenly tell me things (half tell me, and without telling me what used to be done before), and I realize ... Everything is in a dreadful confusion, dreadful! Because ... I can't understand what they do because I don't know the reason, I don't know how things are arranged. Now a weight has been lifted, but

February 8, 1969 (By some kindness of fate, the recording of the beginning of thisconversation was preserved, though Satprem normally erased all those exchanges or the little facts that did not seem to have "historical" interest. For amusement we reproduce here these fragments .... Today is soup day! Here. Chicken ... a whole lot! I only give you once a week. It's a lot! Page 50 This (to Sujata, showing a box) I must show her ... Would you like some work? (Sujata:) Yes, Mother. Here, I got this yesterday They're supposed to be special biscuits - of course, I can't eat, but if you think you can crush a few ... Yes, Mother. Then I'

July 2, 1969 (Satprem proposes to Mother a partial publication of the conversations of May 31 and June 4 on the glorified body.) Don't you think some people are going to imagine they have a divine body? ... Page 231

October 22, 1969 How old are you going to be? Forty-six. Oh, you're still a baby! Page 389 I have some white hairs. Really! ... Me, I haven't one! ... It's strange, not one. It's because of this (Mother points to the little goose on her table), I told you the story .... The mind doesn't work, so I don't get tired! I have a lot of work to do with my head, nonetheless. I no longer do any. Yes, but as for me, I have all the books to prepare! ... It's necessary. Of course. So it must be on purpose. Yes. But now, you see, people have made it a habit to ask me for a message on every occasion, and lots of people write to me, asking for

April 12, 1969 (Mother first reads a few fragments from "Savitri" which are to be set to music.) In Matter shall be lit the spirit's glow ... A few shall see what none yet understands; God shall grow up while the wise men talk and sleep; For man shall not know the coming till its hour And belief shall be not till the work is done. Page 128 This transfiguration is earth's due to heaven: A mutual debt binds man to the Supreme: His nature we must put on as he put ours; We are sons of God and must be even as he: His human portion, we must grow divine. Our life is a paradox with God for key. * But none learns whithe

November 22, 1969 (Satprem gives his pension to Mother) You give money just like that! But don't you need any? No, no, Mother! Here it's an abyss, money goes away like ... I have something for next February: I "received" certain things regarding money and what's going on there, in Delhi. [[Indira Gandhi has just been expelled from the Congress by the syndicate of financiers. ]] The government is shaky; so far, things are all right. Everything tends towards the dissolution of the Congress, but that was foreseen and willed. But then, the Congress president [[Nijalingappa. ]] is on one side and the prime minister is on the other, each looking at the other ... A

October 18, 1969 Today is Durga puja .... I have a lion under my feet, you know! (the cushion under Mother's feet) Pull it .... (Laughing) It's nice! It keeps still. So what are you bringing? ... Nothing. Today it's not very late! ... Page 378 Haven't you anything? ... Neither have I, except for news of A.R. He is in his hut and says he is very fine, but he's worrying a bit: "Wouldn't I be more useful if I saw people? ..." I had him answered that he himself had said he needed to be alone. He had two hernias and cured one (he told you all that), and deliberately didn't cure the second because he got it into his head that when he has the true consciousness, it will heal o

July 5, 1969 There's some news of P.L. He is a bit discouraged. You know thathe had been excluded from the Pope's retinue just as the Pope was to make a speech in Geneva on "Christian unity" with the Protestants. So P.L. writes, "I started writing to you several times, but could not manage to end my letters. After the huge effort made to infuse the sentiments of openness that Mother had inspired me with, just as the Pope accepted to refrain from pro claiming himself as the 'Sole' possessor of the Truth and to put himself at the same level as the other creeds, Reaction had the upper hand and everything has remained as before .... That's it. " ... At the last

January 8, 1969 And this descent of the superman consciousness ... Did I tell you I had afterwards identified it? When you spoke last time, you had identified it. Yes, but I spoke of "supramental consciousness." Later, you said, "Maybe the superman?" Yes, that's it. It's the descent of the superman consciousness. I had the assurance of it afterwards. It was on the Is' of January after midnight. I woke up at 2 in the morning, surrounded by a consciousness, but so concrete, and NEW, in the sense that I had never experienced that. It lasted, quite concrete and present, for two or three hours, and then it spread out and went to find all those who could receive it. And

November 19, 1969 This morning about 8, I could have told you many things .... There was a day when many problems came up, following something that took place ... then this morning (at the end of the night) Page 432 I had the experience which was the explanation. And for two hours, I lived in an absolutely clear perception (not a thought, a clear perception) of ... the why and the how of the creation. It was so luminous, so clear! It was irrefutable. it lasted for at least four or five hours, then it settled; little by little the intensity and clarity of the experience diminished .... And also, I have just seen lots of people, so ... now it's hard to explain. But everythi