July 26, 1969 (Mother wants to revise with Satprem a few passages of her translation of 'Savitri.') But now I've come to notice that they cut these quotations, they leave out two lines in the middle - suddenly I'll say to myself, "But it doesn't hang together!" I'll ask, and F. tells me, "Yes, they left out one line, two lines ...." So what's to be done? It's absurd. Here, all this is ready. I don't need to see it again: it's for you to see it. It's my translation. What should I do? (Laughing) See if my translation is good! But Mother, listen ... why? No, because some things might be put in a better way. Yes, but I'm wary. You know, I have

June 25, 1969 (For some time Mother's health has been very upset. Most ofher recent meetings with Satprem were spent in silent contemplation.) ... Then there is little S.U. (do you know S.U.?), who isn't too happy with her work and asked me if I couldn't help her make some progress. So I told her, "Read Satprem's book ...." She started reading Satprem's book. She told me "If I don't understand something, what do I do?" I said, "If you can't understand, ask me." So yesterday, she quoted a bit of a sentence to me (you know how they do: they take a bit of a sentence and ask you, "Whatever does this mean?!"). I answered. It was a sentence in which it was said that there were two "p

December 10, 1969 (Mother first writes at one go a message for the start of the new school year.) One must have lived what one wants to teach. To speak of the new consciousness, let it penetrate you and reveal Page 465 its secrets to you. For only then will you be able to speak of it with competence. * To leap into the new consciousness, the first condition is a mental modesty sufficient to be convinced that all one thinks one knows is nothing in comparison with what remains to be learned. All that one has learned externally must be only a foothold enabling one to rise towards higher knowledge. ***

August 20, 1969 (The Vatican disciple has arrived in Pondicherry) I saw PL.... There are two things, first a personal one, then a moregeneral one. He said the last time he saw you, after leaving you he went to the Samadhi, and there he suddenly had an extremely sharp pain in the lower abdomen. But he said it was very strange because it didn't feel like an ordinary pain: it didn't stop him from walk ing about, but it remained centered there - a sharp pain. Page 295 As for me, I am afraid those people there may have cast a spell on him. You think it's that? ... I don't know; when he said that, I felt itwas one of the lower "centers" that was tou

December 27, 1969 Do you have anything to say? ... I am so immersed in so many practical or material things .... (Mother laughs) One feels a bit swallowed up in Matter ... no? These last few days, I've rather had the impression of being surrounded by a TOTAL incomprehension - but I'm used to that! But it had become so acute; I've received questions, reproaches, anyway, all kinds of things .... It was like a spirit of incomprehension rising up everywhere, and I felt it was rising deliberately because the time had come to do something .... "Why is this done? Why is that done? Why are things like this? ..." And most of the time, based on tendentious information or incorr

January 15, 1969 (After the visit of an "Acharya," or Jain master, who came surrounded with his disciples.) He tried every way to make me talk! I refused. I had never seen them, with their mouths covered [[Jain sadhus or monks cover their mouths with a patch of cloth so as not to swallow microbes. ]] - it doesn't stop them from talking! It seems he said yesterday (he came yesterday) that he hadn't yet begun his sadhana, that he was going round India and would begin his sadhana afterwards .... He asked me for a message; I didn't tell him anything, but inwardly I said to him, "Be sincere, be sincere ...." But I didn't speak. He even tried flattery, but it didn't w

December 3, 1969 Every day there are two girls (almost every day) who ask me questions, and I answer them. Some answers would be really interesting to have .... I don't know what I should do to get them. Naturally, they're personal questions, but I answer in a general way. It's beginning to rise. The effect of this new Consciousness (it's taken a year) is that things are beginning to rise. *** (Then, regarding the forthcoming "Notes on the Way" in whichMother speaks of her experience of the supramental Consciousness-the conversation of November 19.) What I said about the supramental consciousness, is it clear? I think it's very clear! Because whe

May 10, 1969 What's new? Nothing, Mother. Page 173 You know, it's like a stick stirring a pond: everything is coming up ... one thing after another, everywhere, in the whole country a rottenness. As if everything, but everything were exposed. (silence) People write to me ... Previously, all kinds of things were going on downstairs [in the Ashram's offices]; people would speak with Amrita and they would "sort it out"; now, they're writing to me! ... I've just heard a load of it, you know ... (gesture like a truckload being dumped). I did have a kind of sensation that things weren't right, but I'd never have thought they were like that. And how are You? Fine, Mot

October 1, 1969 Did F tell you what the healer said to her? ... They met yesterday or the day before, and he "confessed" to her. He told her he came to India in the hope of finding a place where he could be left alone for a few weeks or even a few months, because he has found the way of healing everything, except a hernia he has, and he would like to be left alone so as to find a way to cure his hernia. Then F told him, "But you can be left alone right here." He replied, "Oh, but if I am asked to cure, I can't refuse." So it might be better to stop sending him people ... but he would have to move to a new house and be alone somewhere. He should be asked if it's all right with him. Thi

May 24, 1969 It's difficult .... The English would say, it's not a joke .... Everything, everything is getting disorganized, everything is disorganized. It's easy to see that it's getting disorganized TOWARDS a higher organization, that is, a broadening, a liberation - that's true ... but nothing, nothing at all is working in the ordinary way any longer. So the body can no longer eat, can no longer ... Sleep, of course, for a long time there hasn't been any ordinary sleep (I don't regret it), but everything, just everything is like this (gesture of upheaval). (long silence) It's a very strange sensation: no relationship remains as it was before. Nothing: neither of the body with it