August 23, 1969 Yesterday I saw Y. She told me what she wanted to do: her new method of education .... It was rather amusing! ... It seems there is in a box the miniature reproduction of as many things of the earth as can be represented: humans, animals, objects, houses, and so on. All that is mixed together in a big box, on a sort of table, and the big and small children are put there, all of them together, and given a fixed time (I think): they have to make something out of the objects on the table - absolutely free, they do what they like. And it seems that according to what they do, the way they use the objects and assemble them, you can tell their character ... As an illustration, s

September 24, 1969 So did you see this healer? Yes, I saw him. Page 345 Tell me. I am very much struck, I must say. First of all, to put thingsphysically, the first time I saw him, I remained with him for three and a half hours-he didn't stop talking .... Oh! But the extraordinary thing is that usually, when I am withpeople, after half an hour I am exhausted - after three and a half hours (I didn't budge, didn't stop looking at him), I was as fresh as a daisy! And so full of energy that I didn't sleep the whole night! And I spent three and a half hours listening to this man .... Yesterday evening (I was tired, Id had a rather hea

February 19, 1969 (The conversation begins an hour late.) We must take life as a grace, otherwise it's impossible to live. (silence) I had things to say, but ... I've just seen at least thirty people. (silence) I am entirely convinced that things are as they must be, and that it's simply the body that lacks suppleness, tranquillity, trust .... So Page 66 I can't even say that things grate (they don't grate at all), but ... You understand, the work consists in changing the conscious base of all the cells-but not all at once! Because that would be impossible; even little by little is very difficult: the moment when the conscious base is changed is ... The

July 30, 1969 (The "healer" referred to in this conversation will often recur inthis Agenda, and will play a decisive role in Satprem's life, in the sense that through a sort of reductio ad absurdum, he will make Satprem suddenly understand who Mother really is.) Have you heard of that healer? ... Someone has written from France, the son of a farmer (I think), anyhow not an intellectual in the least, who by accident became aware that his hands have a healing power. So he writes a very long letter narrating all he did, how he developed himself, and so on, until he came across your book; [[Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousness. ]] and when he read your book, for him it

October 12, 1969 (From Satprem to Mother) (The full text of the following letter regrettably disappeared, onlythe last part of it was found. The healer told Satprem that what he found near Mother was "the same thing" as elsewhere, the same immutable, eternal, changeless "That." Satprem tried hard to make the healer feel that there was nevertheless something else near Mother-perhaps because it was the very question that troubled him - and in his letter he asked Mother if he did well to write thus to the healer.) "... your journey in India. I pray from the bottom of my heart that you may not pass it by. In your solitary retreat, I hope you will be able to o

July 19, 1969 (Mother was strongly shaken on Wednesday the 16th and could not see Satprem.) They have mixed me up (in Delhi and here) in all their political affairs ... "mixed me up," I mean they're asking for my help. Some people are discontented and without scruples, and there was some mischief (on Wednesday, when I couldn't see you). I realized it afterwards. But it's troublesome. I haven't told anyone what it was. It was an incredible affair ... with no cause, no reason, [[Violent vomiting, probably the result of some magic. ]] and when I looked, I saw where it came from. Anyway, I was in no condition to see anyone. That's troublesome. It's about their politi

February 12, 1969 (A note from Satprem to Mother) Sweet Mother, I would have like to under stand what your look was saying this morning .... With love S. (Mother's answer overleaf) I would rather not write it. M. Page 63

November 26, 1969 (The whole time is spent in meditation.) Nothing to say ... Every time I try to look at something, it goes away like this (gesture into the infinite). (Mother goes off into meditation again) Did you feel anything particular yesterday [at the darshan]? I felt it wasn't quite as usual, but I don't know what. In the morning, I had the experience of an awesome Force which came, weighing on all things. That's also what others felt the whole day long. A force ... most people told me, "A joyous force." But as Page 451 for me, when I went there [to the balcony], the difference was that the body was more conscious of ... its state of tran

April 9, 1969 How are you? Ah, it's better. Yes, since last time, I've felt an improvement. Oh, good. I think that's what was affecting me for the past year [i.e., those occult schemings]. Because it was always at night that those headaches and eyeaches used to come-always. At night ... it's disgusting! I think I could resume my work, couldn't I? No hurry. Do you have some news? There's a question Id like to tell you about. It's about the publication of Sri Aurobindo's books in France. You know that we sent The Synthesis of Yoga and The Human Cycle. [[Sent to Fayard publishers. ]] The woman who looks after those publications hasn't reacted very

February 15, 1969 Just one thing, this atmosphere, this [superman] Consciousness is very active, and active like a mentor, as I already told you. And it's going on. One of these last few mornings, for a few hours early in the morning, it was ... Never, never had the body been so happy! It was the complete Presence, absolute freedom, and a certitude: these cells, other cells (gesture here and there showing other bodies), it didn't matter, it was life everywhere, consciousness everywhere. Absolutely wonderful. It came effortlessly, and it left simply because ... I was too busy. It doesn't come at will - what comes at will is what we might call a "copy": it looks like it, but it's