June 5, 1968 I have a question about P.L. There are two new facts. First, afew years ago, P. L. was in touch with an extremely rich Ameri can woman, whom he helped. That woman is very grateful to P. L. and would like to give him one million dollars for a charity. That would come in handy! Yes, but she's very Catholic. That was at a time when P.L. was in orders. Page 155 Is she Catholic? Yes, she's even very pious. A nice woman, it seems. So P. L. asksif he shouldn't try to explain to her what he's doing here, to send her a few of your books and see how it acts. It might make her turn to something more interesting? Isn't she a woman who wants "

June 29, 1968 Did you get any news from P.L.? I got a letter in which he said he'd arrived and was beingurgently summoned to the Vatican at 10 A M. the same day. He didn't say anything. There's been no letter since. Yes, in other words he hasn't told the result, he hasn't said anything about it. And as if by chance, Msgr. R. left for Spain the day P.L. arrived. He didn't meet him. I don't believe in chance. * * * Later It's a continuous experience, day and night, and so crowded, so intense that ... it's impossible to describe. It's as if I were making a discovery every minute. (long silence) Every minute a discovery. You know, an absolutely a

November 27, 1968 (Mother has a severe cold. In fact, she has been in the same painful curve since July.) What you said last time could perhaps be used for theFebruary Bulletin? It seems very important.... I don't remember at all. You touched the "central experience" of the transformation. Oh, that's right. It's going on.... The body has the impression that it's beginning to understand. For it, naturally, there are no thoughts at all - none at all; but it's states of consciousness. States of consciousness complementing one another, replacing one another.... To such a point that the body wonders how one can know with thought; for it, the only way of knowing, the o

January 6, 1968 I wanted to show you something, then I forgot. Maybe you've seen it? It's something I am supposed to have said to M. years ago, many years ago, about Savitri; he noted it down in French, and quite recently (that is, perhaps three or four weeks ago), he showed me what he had noted.... And as it happens, he showed it not only to me but to others (!). They've translated it into English and now they want me to read it aloud so they can play it at the Playground. I wanted to revise the French with you, but they want it in English. The English isn't too good, but that doesn't matter.... They are all enthusiastic and happy - as for me, I don't like it, because the form of it is

December 28, 1968 (After listening to the music composed by Sunil for the New Year.) Did you like it? It's very beautiful, very powerful. Isn't it! And it creates an atmosphere. Usually I play some music for him, and he composes from it, but this time I didn't play, so he took some old pieces of mine; with that he makes contact and composes. An American musician has come here, and I sent him to Sunil (he's a pianist). He said he'd heard some of Sunil's music there, in America, and at first people are a bit bewildered, but that when they've heard it several times, they become quite enthusiastic. As for me, I find it creates an atmosphere: it BRINGS DOWN an atmosphe

February 10, 1968 (Mother uses an English word for a French one.) Strangely, the English word now comes to me more easily than the French one. I know very well why: it's because in that part I am constantly in contact with Sri Aurobindo, so when I need a word, it's in his storehouse that I find it! Whereas with me, here (gesture to the forehead), it's becoming quite fine ... very fine! * * * (Regarding the crush in the Ashram and around Mother.) It's absolutely obvious, absolutely indisputable that all this, that is, all the circumstances of life, all that happens, has been willed, decided on, organized. And it's the best possible training for the body. It's to give it thr

July 31, 1968 Any news from Rome? Nothing important, but P.L. has sent me Msgr. R.'s photo. Oh, I'd like to see it. But I don't think it's a recent photo. (Mother looks) ... He's had to struggle with powerful instincts. Sensuality and ... Very intelligent indeed! Interesting. A strange man: he is amoral. That is to say, he may do extreme good or extreme evil just as easily. And a brilliant intelligence indeed. A politician of the first order.... You understand, he is good because that's good policy; but if the policy were to be bad, he would be bad. I wonder if they have many like that among the cardinals?... Sensation and thought. Sentiments: none - what one