January 24, 1968 (Satprem prepares to leave Mother at the usual time, around 11:30.) It's going to be a hard month... Oh! ... The days you come are the only ones in the week when I can eat at noon. The other days, I am so late that if I take my lunch, I can't have a bath, so I skip lunch. [[Mother usually has a bath around 2:30 P.M. ]] So lunch is ... But in reality, I am very happy. No, a whole internal reorganization is going on.... We'll see. We're still in a period of transition. A sort of mechanical fixity is probably going to disappear, that's my belief; it's the first thing that will change, a sort of mechanical fixity that was necessary to ... You understand

April 6, 1968 I didn't want to make rules for Auroville, but I am going to be forced to start formulating certain things, because ... there happens to be difficulties. I don't know what to do. What I wanted to say came; it's very simple (Mother takes a written note), simply like this (it's about very small things): "One must choose between getting drunk and living in Auroville, the two are incompatible." It's not an innocent drunkenness, I mean it results in acts of violence, it verges on madness. So of course, if we start along this road, we may also say this (Mother takes another note): "One must choose between living in falsehood and living in Auroville, the two a

July 13, 1968 (Mother looks very tired.) What else? I'd have liked to ask you a question on that vision of the subtle Page 199 physical - that material vision which you have with open eyes. I'd like to know what it corresponds to: does it correspond to a supramental vision, or is it the vision a skilled clairvoyant, for instance, might have? I don't think so. (long silence) As soon as I speak about something, it goes away. So when I speak too early, I don't get the full experience. (Then Mother goes into a long contemplation, and emerges only when time is up.) It's difficult.... Difficult. Page 200

January 10, 1968 For an hour in the morning, I arrange flowers in my bathroom over there; all the flowers are kept there so I select them (I make a distribution every morning). And it's so beautiful! It's wonderful. All the flowers speak, like that, they have a life - they FEEL. And as I am very fond of them, they vibrate and vibrate. Then, as some have closed up in the night, I take them, look at them, tell them they are pretty - and they open up. Really a pleasant sight. Just look at this! (Mother holds out a rose) * * Soon afterwards Now, there has come a message for February 29 [third anniversary of the supramental manifestation]. The message for the 21st is a jest, and th

March 23, 1968 (Satprem read Mother the end of the Playground Talk of June 3, 1953, about Karma: "In all religions, when people said tha [the consequences of Karma were strict] and gave such abso lute rules, as for me, I think it was to take the place of Nature and pull people's strings.... So then they panic, they get terri fied ... - they should just go to the next floor up. What should be given them is the key to open the door. The staircase has a door, and it needs a key. The key is a sufficiently sincere aspiration or a sufficiently intense prayer.... In both there is a Page 87 magic power, one must know how to use it.... Some detest prayer (if the

September 25, 1968 (Mother gives Satprem a flower called "Transformation.") I give you the right one. Why the "right one"? I say that because there is confusion in many people's minds. When, from the standpoint of progress, for instance, I speak of progress, I mean "going from the mental consciousness to a higher consciousness," but people generally understand "to make progress materially or mentally or ..." So when they are told of transformation, all kinds of queer things come to their minds.... As for us, when we speak of transformation, we mean the supramental transformation. That's why. * * * Soon afterwards I have found some old papers (I can't read anymore

September 14, 1968 (Almost the entire time is spent in contemplation. Towards the end, Mother asks:) Nothing to ask? I have a strong impression of Sri Aurobindo. Ah! ... He is constantly there. Page 255 (Mother goes into a contemplation again) So, till Wednesday. Will the translation of the "Notes" be ready?... If it's not on Wednesday, it will be for Saturday. I've got into the habit of long silences. (long silence) A sort of sense of the uselessness of speech. Page 256

November 2, 1968 Anything? I got a letter from P.L. But it's not complete. How do you mean? I'd written to him and told him V.'s vision, with the descriptionof the person doing magic at the Vatican, and I'd asked him, "Look silently and see if it corresponds to someone." He writes, "Yes! I know who it is." Oh, he said yes. Yes, he says, "I know who it is and I'll send you his photo." Iam waiting for the photo.... Here's what he writes: "V.'s vision has come to show me the accuracy of the person's description: it is Msgr. Z, archbishop in the Holy See's State Secretariat, an intimate friend of the Holy Father's and his private collabo rator.... Oh

March 27, 1968 On April 1st, the sports season opens, and I've given an ... appropriate message. I started with a paradox: "The first condition for acquiring power is to be obedient. Page 88 "The body must learn to obey before it can manifest power; and physical education is the most thorough discipline for the body. "So be eager and sincere in your effort for physical education and you will acquire a powerful body." It's logical. That's all. * * * Soon afterwards Everybody is quarreling.... Oh, quarrels about absolutely nothing - everybody gets angry, everybody quarrels. It's been like that for the past three days. Astrologers say it depends o

August 3, 1968 (Mother remains very tired. She nevertheless listens to a long paper on Auroville, which she rejects, and prepares with Satprem a note summing up the ideal of this future city:) " For millennia, we have been developing outer means, outer instruments, outer techniques of living - and finally those means and techniques are crushing us. The sign of the new humanity is a reversal in the standpoint, and the understanding that inner knowledge and inner technique can change the world and master it without crushing it. "Auroville is the place where this new way of living is being worked out, it is a center of accelerated evolution where man must begin to change his world