May 25, 1968 (Regarding an old Playground Talk of June 10, 1953.) What is it about? Page 147 Attacks by adverse forces and Asuras. Oh! ... (Laughing) That's a convenient way of putting the blame on others! Do you think we should publish it? Certainly. It's helpful. When now people tell me about attacks by adverse forces, I always feel like saying to them, "The adversity is within you!" I think it's a very convenient way to get impunity.... Because if you are perfect, they can't do anything against you. It's absolutely obvious. It's imperfections that give them power. So if we shift our standpoint as Sri Aurobindo did, we'll see, as he said, that the so-called ad

February 3, 1968 (Mother first reads out for All India Radio the text of her reminiscences" of her life in India: see conversation of January 27.) Then I've written something else.... They wanted to prepare a sort of brochure on Auroville to distribute to the press, the government, etc., on the 28th,[[February 28, Auroville's inauguration. ]] and before that, there is in Delhi in two or three days a conference of all nations ("all nations" is an exaggeration, but anyway they say "all nations"). Z is going there, and she wants to take with her all the papers on Auroville. They have prepared texts - always lengthy, interminable: speeches and more speeches. So then I asked, I co

July 6, 1968 (Mother is unwell. Still, she has recorded her "Message on India's Unity" for All India Radio.) What do you have to say? You're tired. No, oh ... it's a long affair. The last time you came, I had a cold; it didn't even last for a day: the following night, it was over. But it has hastened the movement of transformation, so it's become difficult. This whole area, here and here (Mother points to her throat, chest, etc.) was caught.... Generally it takes several days. And this morning, I don't know - I think I know why: it's because the body itself is closely connected to all those who call with a lot of force, and ignorant as it is, it suffers the consequenc

May 2, 1968 Your P.L. is coming back! What an avalanche of telegrams! And it's not over: here's onemore [Satprem reads Mother a telegram in which P. L. announces a mysterious "new fact" and implores to be allowed to stay with his friend J. for "grave reasons"]. Then let him stay with her! He suddenly got scared stiff over there. It's true that their occult power is very great and one has to be very strong to resist it. And he got scared stiff. That's what made him sick. My own feeling is that the other fellow, this Monsignor R., wanted to get rid of him.... Seriously, I think he smelled something fishy and said, "He'd better leave." He doesn't have the strength, obviously.

May 15, 1968 (There has been a rumor going about that Mother was "unwell," and indeed she has not seen anyone. When Satprem comes into her room, the lower part of Mother's face is very much swollen, apparently because of an "infection." She has been unable to eat anything.) Page 130 You see, it's the Vatican. I fought and fought, but ... there are too many lies around me. That's it, too many people tell lies all around. I was supposed to see P.L. tomorrow; I think it's better to wait for a few days. You could tell him - don't tell him why! Did it come through his atmosphere? Not particularly - directly. Naturally, it's because of that business, and specially

October 9, 1968 It's still worthless (Mother coughs). I can't even hear myself speak. And you, are you all right? Is it all over? Yes, yes, it's over![[It was going to last for some more time! ]] Do you have news from there? From Rome? Yes, some time ago, P.L. wrote me another letter turned to you. Would you be interested in another vision of V.'s? He saw something again?! ... But is he aware of this affair? Not at all! It so happens that a few months ago (he didn'tunderstand why), he chanced to see the Pope twice. He didn't at all know why. [[Let us note again that V. is Indian and not particularly interested in the papacy. ]] The first time, he found hims

April 27, 1968 Do you have news of P.L.? I heard he's ill. Yes, not a good letter.... I have two things: one letter from P.L.and one about him. Here is P.L.'s [Satprem reads a letter in which P. L. writes that he fell ill as soon as he came back to the Vatican, that he could not see the Pope, is in despair, incapable, etc.]. He doesn't have the strength. That's what I feared. The influence is too strong (gesture to show P.L. caught in a grip). And the other letter? It's a letter from Monsignor R., a friend of P.L. He is a billionaire, and it's P. L., in fact, who manages this Monsignor's billions. He wrote to J. [P.L.'s friend], saying this [Satprem reads a le

November 13, 1968 It's really an interminable work. It's this certain ... (what should I call it? We can hardly call it "mind"), this mind of the physical.... It seems it's being educated. But it's an interminable work. Page 317 For instance, its habit of building possibilities, or foreseeing (we can hardly call it "building" or "foreseeing" ... it's a sort of very dark thing deep down) possibilities and imagining events, with the whole pessimistic and dramatic side shown in all its ridiculousness. So then, I don't know, it's obviously to learn to control and direct that, but ... At first sight, it just has to be swept away, it's absolutely useless: you waste your time with i

May 22, 1968 Mother holds out the text of a note: "Through the widening of its consciousness, this body is more or less identified with those around it. "Every effort made towards the purification of one's physical consciousness is so much less work for this body." If everyone made an effort... (Mother nods her head) * * * I saw P.L. yesterday. He is still terribly nervous. He said he was much better, but the least thing makes his face tense up. And there's still around him ... So he must stay on to let all that be undone, cleared out, destroyed. It's interesting, interesting things are taking place. P.L. had an interesting dream. He noted it down so I coul

May 8, 1968 Did you see P.L.? How did you find him? He's nervously quite shaken, quite exhausted. Don't you think they did some magic on him? That's quite my impression. Ah, you too.... As for me, I very much feel they did magic so he wouldn't be able to speak to the Pope. For the moment, he's very exhausted. Page 127 Yes, they've drained him. It started with a mental attack - every possible doubt: Sri Aurobindo is "like Saint Augustine"; Mother is "like Virgin Mary," it's "the same thing." A mental attack, anyway. After that, he became unable to eat: every time he ate, he would vomit. Then he had fits of hysteria: convulsions, foaming at the mouth