July 6, 1963 Then? There are some texts from the Agenda. Again! But I didn't say a word! I said you should cut out everything. But some things should be kept. All right then. There is also the previous conversation: your experience of the pink clay boat....[[On June 29. ]] Ah! You know, the next day, I saw Sri Aurobindo again - it was Sri Aurobindo, he was with me, but a bit taller than the previous time, a bit slimmer, with his skin almost white, almost like mine (not the white of northern people but a kind of golden white). So I looked at him and smiled (because it had changed, you see!), I didn't say anything, but (laughing) he told me: Yes, to meet all tastes!

June 29, 1963 (Mother glances through a collection of Playground Talks and chances on the following question, which she answers immediately:) "Why isn't the universe a place of perfect bliss?"[[Questions and Answers, July 18, 1956. ]] Because it's progressive. There is no other reason. *** (Then Mother speaks of the new Pope, Paul VI, who was elected a few days earlier:) Sri Aurobindo seems to have taken interest in the Pope's successor ... because two nights ago (not in the night, at four in the morning), I was with him - I spent a half hour with him (a half hour of OUR time, which is very long), he had just returned from a "tour," in Italy especially. We didn't directly talk

April 20, 1963 D. was telling me just now that he is advised to meditate with his eyes open (I know, it keeps you active somewhere), and he said that if by mischance he closes his eyes, he can't move any more! He is conscious but completely paralyzed: he can't get up, can't move, can't even turn his head! It's dangerous. So I advised him to be sure to keep his eyes open: it maintains a certain activity. When you close your eyes, you plunge into trance (you are perfectly conscious, but you go into trance and the body is absolutely stilled). That's what Théon had taught me: you free Page 113 the body consciousness and train it in such a way that it can act on its own, so tha

March 16, 1963 (Regarding the conversation of March 9: "A few seconds' experience that gave me the sense that the most central problem was solved." That experience was what Mother called "the death of death.") Those things are strange.... You don't remember actively, that is, you can't find any thought whatsoever to express the experience; even the active sensation of the experience fades away. And yet you are no longer the same person - that's the remarkable thing! I experienced this phenomenon several times (I don't remember clearly enough to tell you exactly how many times), several times in my life, it was always the same thing: no longer the same person, you've become someone els

May 25, 1963 (Regarding a letter from a personal friend of Satprem at the Editions du Seuil, who hints that the second manuscript on Sri Aurobindo ["The Adventure of Consciousness"] will also be refused: "I do not know whether P.A.L. has read it yet, he hasn't told me, but as soon as I read the first pages, I felt that this manuscript would never be published by Le Seuil. It has some defects and clumsy passages - but that will not be the reason for its refusal....") Very well! (laughter) Let us wait and see what they say. Of course, I never thought even for a minute that those people would publish it - but others will. Once WE have published it, I am certain - certain - that there wi

October 26, 1963 (Pondicherry has just been hit by a cyclone and Satprem by a strange fever.) Did you feel anything during the cyclone? No, nothing particular? You always have a sense of something in a fury - and not too nice! (Laughing) Obviously! First it came from one direction, then a dead calm - it's always that way. You know how cyclones work? It's something that rotates, and at the center there's a dead calm; all around is a whirlwind, and it rotates as it advances. So the first part (what might be called the front of the cyclone) arrives from one direction, Page 364 then it goes on rotating, and the second part comes from the opposite direction. We have an A

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1963-08-13 August 13, 1963 and vital energy ... (hem!) is vital! Therefore to say that those who withdraw withdraw all their energies and consciousness into the psychic to attain Nirvana is nonsense! There is a nirvana behind the vital, a nirvana behind the psychic, a nirvana behind the mind; there is a nirvana on every level, even behind the physical - it's death. And those who withdraw, who try to attain Nirvana, NEVER go into the psychic - the psychic is something essentially linked to divine manifestation, not to divine nonintervention, not to Nirvana. All that is fit for the wastepaper basket! (Note from Mother to Satprem) (This note came apropos of an old "Pla

November 23, 1963 Kennedy has been assassinated, that means the possibility of war. He was one of the instruments for the establishment of peace - it's a setback for the entire political history of the earth. But probably, it means basically that things weren't ready: some parts would have been overlooked. But I had been told this a few weeks ago, last month, while I was conducting a general survey. I heard someone who said ("someone" is a manner of speaking, I know who it is): Kennedy won't be able to do it. I thought the instrument was too small, I didn't think of this. Page 389 And then five of our air force chiefs have been killed in a helicopter crash - helicopter

December 31, 1963 (Mother tests the organ: a little white figure swaying on her stool) There. You have recorded it, haven't you? ... And we'll play it tomorrow Page 430 [for the Ashram] - that way, I won't have any work to do! (Sujata:) Is it "work "? You always have fun. It gives me fun.... I don't know, I don't know what I play at all, at all, at all! I barely hear it. There is something having fun "over there." If I listen just a minute, it begins to disturb me! That's enough, no? (To Satprem:) What do you say, you there? Is that enough or do you want to hear more? It depends. If you're tired ... Oh (laughing), tiring, this! It doesn't tire anythin