February 25, 1958 (On suffering) These surface things are not dramatic. More and more, they seem to me like soap bubbles, especially since February 3. Some people come to see me in utter despair, in tears, in what they call terrible moral suffering; when I see them like that I slightly shift the needle in that part of my consciousness containing all of you, and when they leave, they are completely relieved. It is just like a compass needle - I slightly shift the needle in my consciousness, and it's over. Naturally, through habit, it returns later on. But these are mere soap bubbles. I too have known suffering, but there was always a part of me that knew how to hold itself ba

September 2, 1960 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, September 2, 1960 Sweet Mother, After leaving your room, X kept repeating, 'Very wonderful.' Then he explained to me that 'white rays' were 'vibrating everywhere' - along the whole length of the Kundalini, white, Page 414 yellow and blue, but especially white (he indicated the forehead in particular). He looked quite ecstatic while speaking of his experience. In conclusion, he said, 'Where is the Mother and where is X?' meaning, I suppose, that all separation had disappeared. With love. Signed: Satprem Page 415 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

March 3, 1960 Experiences are coming at a furious pace - fabulous experiences. If I were to speak now, it's certain that I would not at all speak as I used to. That's why we must date all these Questions and Answers, at least all which come before the [Supramental] Manifestation of February 1956, so that there will be a clear cut between those before and those after. Only a few days ago, on the morning of the 29th, I had one of those experiences that mark one's life. It happened upstairs in my room. I was doing my japa, walking up and down with my eyes wide open, when suddenly Krishna came - a gold Krishna, all golden, in a golden light that filled the whole room. I was walking, b

Undated 1958 (Concerning one of her commentaries on the Dhammapada, in the chapter 'The Thousand,' Mother remarks:) All this seems quite dogmatic. Each time, only ONE aspect of the question is considered, whereas to be truly accurate, EVERYTHING would have to be said. It should be emphasized that this is only ONE point of view and that there are also all the others. But people ... that swamps them! They don't like it, they are happier when they can cling to something solid. Page 153 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

February 3, 1958 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, February 3, 1958 Sweet Mother, What you told me today at noon has left me stunned. I had decided to have my own way, but now I pray to be true. I would like to tell you that 'I am staying,' very simply, for something in me wants this, but I am afraid to make a decision that I may not be able to keep. A force other than mine is needed. In short, you have to do the willing for me, to utter a word that would help me understand truly that I must stay here. Grant me the grace of helping and enlightening me. I would like to decide without preference, in obedience to the sole Truth and in accordance with my real possib

Undated June 1960 (Letter from Mother to Satprem) Monday morning My dear little child, I have something interesting to tell you that happened Friday night. It cannot be written down. I shall tell you tomorrow. But it seemed to me that you should feel a little better after that. Tomorrow at 10. My love watches over you. Signed: Mother Page 382 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

End March (?) 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, Your letter this morning touched me. I keep repeating now, several times a day, that it is an enemy, the enemy. I am your child, Sweet Mother, and I want this crisis to be THE LAST. With love. Signed: Satprem Page 291 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

October 15, 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, October 15, 1959 Sweet Mother, Here are two or three things that might interest you: 1) X spoke to me again of the war without my asking anything. He repeated, 'There will be war,' and he again spoke of an attack on India by China ... 2) X spoke to me of the Ashram's financial difficulties and said 'I shall tell you the secret why there are such difficulties.' I think he is going to speak to me today or tomorrow. In any case, he told me that he was working ('I am preparing' ... ) to change these conditions, and he asked me if there had been any improvement as yet. I replied that I did not believe the situa

November 22, 1958 Even at a very young age, I had a kind of intuition of my destiny. I felt that something in me had to be exhausted, or that I had to exhaust myself. I don't know, as though I had to descend into the depths of the night to find the thing. I thought it was the concen tration camps. Perhaps this was still not deep enough ... Do you see any meaning in all this? Page 240 It can hardly be formulated; these are merely impressions that follow one another. I know that when you thought of leaving with Swami,' I saw that a door was opening, that it was the truth, that this was IT. My immediate impression was that you were being put

August 10, 1956 My Lord, through me thou hast challenged the world and all the adverse forces have risen in protest.3 But Thy Grace is winning the victory. Page 85 ISBN 2-902776-33-0