December 15, 1958 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, Monday 12.15.58 Sweet Mother, I have only now received your first letter which you had sent to Hyderabad. It arrived in time to do me some good, for I am living through critical moments. Swami received me warmly and is doing all he can with all his heart. I am following his instructions to the letter for I believe that your grace is acting through him. Furthermore, he is totally devoted to you and spoke of you as no one ever has - he understands many things. I was unfair in my reactions towards him. At the new moon, when I felt very down, he gave me the first tantric mantra - a mantra to Durga. For a per

October 18, 1957 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, October 18, 1957 Sweet Mother, This evening, you spoke of the possibility of shortening the path of realization to a few months, days or hours. And yesterday, when you talked to me about 'the freedom of the body,' you spoke of the experience of the Kundalini, of this 'breaking of the lid' that makes you emerge once and for all, above difficulties, into the light. I need a practical method corresponding to my present possibilities and to results of which I am presently capable. I feel that my efforts are dispersed by concentrating sometimes here, sometimes there - a feeling of not knowing exactly what to do

May 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, May 1959 Sweet Mother, You have rid me of my headache in a spectacular way, not to mention the beginning of an infection in a wisdom tooth. So I am writing you. ... ... ... ... I was prompted to speak to X about the financial difficulties of the Ashram and I took the opportunity to tell him about the subtle 'détente' that has occurred. I told him that you had wondered whether he had not done something (I am putting all this very succinctly). He replied that as soon as he returned to Rameswaram, he made a special puja of gratitude to you for three days and prayed to his divinity to repay you a hundredfold (these are my w

November 8, 1958 I found my message for the 1st of January ... It was quite unforeseen. Yesterday morning, I thought, 'All the same, I have to find my message, but what?' I was absolutely ... like that, neutral, nothing. Then yesterday evening at the class (of Friday, November 7) I noticed that these children who had had a whole week to prepare their questions on the text had not found a single one! A terrible lethargy! A total lack of interest. And when I had finished speaking, I thought to myself, 'But what IS there in these people who are interested in nothing but their personal little affairs?' So I began descending into their mental atmosphere, in search of the little light,

March 20, 1956 (Upon awakening) The control over the movements of the vertebrae, lost a long time ago (which resulted in a kind of insensitivity and incapacity to move them at will) has returned to a great extent: the consciousness is once again able to express itself and the back can straighten up very visibly. ** (The same day on the balcony2) Almost a total straightening, along with a very clear perception of the new force and power in the cells of the body. Page 70 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

August 29, 1958 (Note written by Mother after an experience She had during a playground meditation when Swami J.J. was present. It was this swami with whom Satprem journeyed in the Himalayas to receive tantric initiation.') The mantra written upon each of the souvenirs2 from the Himalayas has a strong power of evoking the Supreme Mother. At the Thursday evening meditation, he appeared as the 'Guru of Tantric Initiation,' magnified and seated upon a symbolic representation of the forces and riches of material Nature (in the middle of the playground, to my left), and he put into my hand something sufficiently material for me to feel the vibrations physically, and it h

October 3, 1958 Et le corps dit au Seigneur Suprême: 'Ce que Tu veux que je sois, je le serai, ce que Tu veux que je sache, je le saurai, ce que Tu veux que je fasse, je le ferai.' (translation) And the body says to the Supreme Lord: 'What You want me to be, I shall be, What You want me to know, I shall know, What you want me to do, I shall do.' Page 339 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

January 14, 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, January 14, 1959 Sweet Mother, This morning, X told me that he would be most happy to continue his action upon you if it would help your work; he has continued it anyway, even after knowing that the malefic influence was expelled from the Ashram. By the way, X told me that this evil spirit is continuing to circle around the Ashram, but beyond its 'borders.' Therefore, if you agree, it would be necessary for him to come to Pondicherry one of these days to come to grips directly with the 'evil one' and finish him off in such a way that he can no longer come to disturb the sadhaks, or your work, upon the slightest

December 21, 1957 The other day you told me that in order to know things, you plug into the subtle plane, and there it all unrolls as on a tape recorder. How does this work, exactly? There is a whole gradation of planes of consciousness, from the physical consciousness to my radiant consciousness at the very highest level, that which knows the Will of the Supreme. I keep all these planes of consciousness in front of me, working simultaneously, coordinatedly, and I am acting on each plane, gathering the information proper to each plane, so as to have the integral truth of things. Thus, when I have a decision to make in regard to one of you, I plug into you directly from that level o

Undated 1951 (This note, originally written in English, was meant for the officials who had wanted to present Mother with the Nobel Peace Prize proposed for Sri Aurobindo in 1951) I am only realizing what He has conceived. I am only the protagonist and the continuator of His work. 1. In an 'official' version, Mother had omitted 'and the behavior of Sri Aurobindo's disciples.' Page 27