November 12, 1957 The integral yoga is made up of an uninterrupted series of tests that you must pass through without any advance notice, thereby forcing you to be always vigilant and attentive. Three groups of examiners conduct these tests. Apparently they have nothing in common and their methods are so different, at times even so seemingly contradictory, that they do not appear to work towards the same goal, and yet they complete one another, they work together for a common aim and each is indispensable for the integral result. These three categories of tests are: those conducted by the forces of Nature, those conducted by the spiritual and divine forces, and those conducted

December 4, 1958 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Hyderabad, December 1958 Sweet Mother, I had come to Hyderabad intending to prepare for a trip to Africa, but when it came to actually doing it, I simply could not. It is stronger than I; I cannot leave India, I cannot live without my soul. Until these last days, I still thought I could count on some outer solution to resolve my problem, but now I am up against a wall; Page 253 I see that nothing can be DONE and the only solution is what you said one day: 'Consent no longer to be.' Mother, I have made many mistakes, I have often been rebellious and fallen into many holes. Help me to pick myself up, give me no

Undated 1958 When the hostile forces want to attack those around me but do not succeed in making them overtly hostile to Sri Aurobindo's work or in making them turn against me personally, they always use the same tactic, with the same argument: 'You may have all the inner realizations you want,' they say, 'the most beautiful experiences possible inside your four Ashram walls, but as far as the outer world is concerned, your life is wasted, lost. There is an abyss you will never bridge between your inner experience and a concrete realization in the world.' This is the number one argument of the hostile forces. I know it well - for millions of years I have been hearing them say the

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   June_1958 June 1958 (?) We are preparing upon earth the connecting-point, that point of communication and junction between the mental and terrestrial human consciousness and the supramental and superhuman Consciousness. It is a whole intermediate world that is being worked out, a new creation manifesting and materializing. In order to be realized here upon earth, this creation must utilize the already existing material means and powers, but in a new way, adapted to the new needs. One of the most essential powers is the financial power. Page 171 Home ISBN 2-902776-33-0

October 30, 1960 (After a meditation with Mother on the occasion of the disci ple's birthday. At the outset of the conversation, Mother had given the disciple a small leather wallet with an Egyptian fresco depicted on it.) Let me see the wallet (Mother looks at it) ... Ah, so that has nothing to do with it! As soon as the meditation began, I started seeing quite familiar scenes from ancient Egypt. And you, you looked a little different, but quite similar all the same ... The first thing I saw was their god with a head like this (gesture of a muzzle), with a sun above his head. A dark animal head with ... I know it VERY WELL, but I don't remember exactly which an

October 19, 1955 The three images of total self-giving to the Divine: 1) To prostrate oneself at His feet in a surrender of all pride, with a perfect HUMILITY. 2) To unfold one's being before Him, to open entirely one's body from head to toe, as one opens a book, spreading open one's centers so as to make all their movements visible in a total SINCERITY that allows nothing to remain hidden. 3) To nestle in His arms, to melt in Him in a tender and absolute CONFIDENCE. These movements may be accompanied by three formulas, or any one of them, depending upon the case: 1) May Your Will be done and not mine. 2) As You will, as You will ... 3) I am Yours for eternity

Undated 1958 (Concerning Finances') Money is a force and should not be an individual possession, no more than air, water or fire. To begin with, the abolishment of inheritance. ** Financial power is the materialization of a vital force turned into one of the greatest powers of action: the power to attract acquire, and utilize. Like all the other powers, it must be put at the service of the Divine. Page 206 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

July 21, 1958 Human beings don't know how to keep energy. When something happens - an accident or an illness, for example - and they ask for help, a double or a triple dose of energy is sent. If they happen to be receptive, they receive it. This energy is given for two reasons: to restore order out of the disorder caused by the accident or illness, and to impart a transformative force to repair or change the source of the illness or accident. But instead of using the energy in this way, they immediately throw it out. They start stirring about, reacting, working, speaking ... They feel full of energy and they throw it all out! They can't keep anything. So naturally, since the energ

October 9, 1959 ( Durga ) Tu es ma Lumière, ma Puissance et ma Joie Tu es ma Réalisation souveraine. (translation) You are my Light, my Force and my Joy You are my sovereign Realization. ** Ô Seigneur, Tu es ma paix, ma puissance et ma joie, Tu es ma réalisation souveraine. (translation) O Lord, You are my peace, my force and my joy, You are my sovereign realization. ** Page 344 Om Seigneur Suprême, Tu es ma Lumière, ma Puissance et ma Joie Tu es ma Réalisation souveraine. (translation) Om Supreme Lord, You are my Light, my Force and my Joy You are my sovereign Realization. Page 3

July 18, 1957 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, July 18, 1957 Sweet Mother, I have just received a letter from my friends in charge of the French Archaeological Expedition to Afghanistan. They need someone to assist them on their next field excavations (August 15 December 15) and have offered to take me if I wish to join them. If I must have some new experience outside, this one has the advantage of being short-termed and not far away from India, and it is also in an interesting milieu. The only disadvantage is that I would have to pay for the trip as far as Kabul. But I don't want to do anything that displeases you or of which you do not really approve. In the