October 25, 1960 There is a black cloud over the ashram. It's origin is rather unique and very interesting. S has a nephew in Bombay, and one day towards the end of August or beginning September, he told me an extraordinary story about this nephew, who had disappeared (he showed me his photograph - he looks rather like a medium). He returned home two days later, I believe. He'd been found in a train in a hypnotic state; fortunately someone shook him and he suddenly woke up: 'Why am I here? What am I doing here?' (He had no intention of travelling, you see; he had simply left his house to visit a neighbor in Bombay.) So he returned home without knowing what had happened to him.

November 2, 1958 Last night, I thought, 'My god! If I have to ...' Individually, with this one or that one, by selecting the best, I could get somewhere, but this ... this mass.' Swami had told me so - he told me immediately after his first meditation (collective meditation at the Ashram playground), he told me, 'The stuff is not good!' (Mother laughs) I didn't press the matter. All this together constitutes one collective entity, and the individual is lost in it. If I had to deal with this person or that person individually, it would be different. But all together, taking them all together as a collective entity, well, it's not brilliant. Page 215 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

September 12, 1956 (During the Wednesday class) ... A supramental entity had entirely possessed me. Something a little taller than myself: its feet extended below my feet and its head went a little beyond my head. ... A solid block with a rectangular base - a rectangle with a square base - one single piece. 1. Note written by Mother in French. 2. Note written by Mother in English. 3. In fact, following the 'Supramental Manifestation' of February 29, 1956, all of Mother's physical difficulties increased, as though all the obscurities in the physical consciousness were surging forth beneath the pressure of the new light. The same observation applies to the disci

April 20, 1960 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, April 20, 1960 Sweet Mother, ... ... ... ... I was pained and shocked upon reaching X's place to see him in such a horrible house - a train station in miniature (and not as nice) with little pastries in garish yellow cement. Cement everywhere - they even cemented the patio and uprooted the beautiful tree that was there. O Mother, it's vandalism, it's barbaric! You cannot imagine! Really, M has committed a terrible sin. To compensate for that, however, I had the joy of finding your two letters. Yes, for some time I have been feeling your physical Presence more clearly. But then, why am I so blocked, where is the fl

October 19, 1960 (The day before 'Kali Puja,' the ritual festival devoted each year in India to the goddess Kali, the warrior aspect of the universal Mother) She has already been here for two days and ... Oh, yesterday especially, she was so ... in such a mood! - like a warrior. I said to her, 'But why not change them through ... through an excess of love?' So then she answered (I remember how she put it), 'First a good punch in the chest (she didn't say 'in the nose'!), a good punch in the chest, and then when they're down, gasping for air, they're ready.' That's one opinion! ** (Concerning a tantric) Those people deny the reality of all physical need

Undated 1958 When you are exteriorized during sleep and conscious in the vital world, you can live a vital life as conscious as the physical life. I have known people who had this capacity and who were so intensely interested in their experiences in the vital world that they returned only with regret to their bodies. If you are conscious and master of yourself in the vital world and if you possess a certain power there, the circumstances are marvelous, infinitely more varied and more beautiful than in the physical world. Page 223 Suppose, for example, that you are very tired and need to rest. If you know how to exteriorize yourself and consciously enter into the vital world, y

November 11, 1958 (Mother arrives with a new change in her message for January 1, 1959: instead of 'an almighty spring that cast me up forth with into a formless, limitless Vast, generator of the new world,' Mother puts 'a formless, limitless Vast vibrating with the seeds of a new world') The objectification of the experience came progressively, as always happens to me. When I have the experience, I am absolutely 'blank,' like a newborn baby to whom things come just 'like that.' I don't know what is happening, and I expect nothing. How much time it has taken me to learn this! There is no preliminary thought, preliminary knowledge, preliminary will: all thos

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   Undated_1958 Undated 1958 For me, the subtle physical is far more real than this distorted world, but to see it you have to be conscious there, whereas people want to get effects which give them the impression of the marvelous and the miraculous and they want the subtle physical to become visible in the material world IN SPITE OF the falsehood. What makes the great difference for the ordinary physical consciousness is this: it wants to come into contact with that in spite of the falsehood, whereas the universal law is, get out of the falsehood and that will become true for you. For me, this subtle world is far more real than the material world - much truer, much more tang

Undated Ô Divine Lumière, Réalité supramentale, avec cette nourriture, pénètre le corps totalement, entre dans toutes les cellules, installe-Toi dans tous les atomes; que tout devienne parfaitement sincère et réceptif, libre de tout ce qui fait obstacle à ta manifestation, en somme ouvre à Toi toutes les parties de mon corps qui ne sent pas déjà Toi-même. ** (translation) O Divine Light, Supramental Reality, with this food imbue the body fully, enter into all the cells, come into every atom; may all become perfectly sincere and receptive free from all that creates an obstacle to your manifestation in short open unto Yourself all the pa

February 15, 1958 Last night, I had the vision of what this supramental world could become if men were not sufficiently prepared. The confusion existing at present upon earth is nothing in comparison to what could take place. Imagine that every powerful will has the power to transform matter as it likes! If the sense of collective oneness did not grow in proportion to the development of power, the resulting conflict would be yet more acute and chaotic than our material conflicts. Page 147 ISBN 2-902776-33-0