March 26, 1959 (Concerning Satprem's most recent peregrinations and his fundamental rebelliousness, which periodically makes him take to the road) Behind the Titan attacking us particularly now, there is something else. This Titan has been delegated by someone else. He has been there since my birth, was born with me. I felt him when I was very young, but only gradually, as I became conscious of myself, did I understand WHO he was and what was behind him. This Titan has been specially sent to attack this body, but he can't do it directly, so he uses people in my entourage. It is something fated: all those around me, who are close to me, and especially those capable of lov

July 10, 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem, once again in Pondicherry) Pondicherry, July 10, 1959 Mother, Please excuse me, but I cannot come to meet you. My heart is broken. I would not know how to speak to you. A moment ago I barely found the strength not to kill myself. Destiny has repeated itself once again, but this time it was not I who rejected her, as in past existences, it is she who rejected me: 'Too late.' For a moment, I thought I was going to go crazy too, so much pain did I have - then finally I said, 'May Thy Will be done,' (that of the Supreme Lord) and I kept repeating, 'Thy Grace is there, even in the greatest suffering.' But I am broken, rath

June 4, 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, June 4, 1959 Sweet Mother, ... ... ... ... Regarding X's predictions which I mentioned in yesterday's letter, X said something untranslatable which meant, 'Let us see Mother's reactions' - for I told him that I had written it all to you. Then he said, 'There are several other secret matters which I shall tell you.' And he added, by way of example, 'I shall tell WHERE the atomic bombs will be cropped.' So if these things interest you, or if you see or feel anything, perhaps it would be good to express your interest in a letter to me which I would translate for X. Spontaneously, I emphasized to X that it would undoubtedly

April 23, 1956 Mother takes a passage from Prayers and Meditations of September 23, 1914: The Lord hast willed, and Thou cost execute; A new Light shall break upon the earth. A new world shall be born. And the things that were promised shall be fulfilled. and rewrites it as follows in her own hand: 29 February - 29 March Lord, Thou hast willed, and I execute: A new light breaks upon the earth A new world is born. The things that were promised are fulfilled.' 1. Original English. Page 74 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   March_1959 March 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, Just now I have left X; he sent me away from his house a few minutes after my arrival: 'I do not like you to stay here NOW.' And he added, 'There is hard work.' He was doing a japa' when I arrived at 5 o'clock. X seems tired, and the child - who is very sensitive - does not seem well either. This morning, X told me, 'Last night I have been fighting like a lion.' And apparently it is not over, although he just told me, 'He [the titan] has "one.' I asked him if the titan was dead, and he told Page 286  me, 'Yes, yes, closed.' - But I think he told me this mainly to avoid my qu

May 1, 1958 These days I am having every possible experience in the body, one after the other. Yesterday and this morning ... oh, this morning! I saw there (center of the heart) the Master of the Yoga; he was no different from me, but nevertheless I saw him, and he even seemed slightly imbued with color. Well, he does everything, he decides everything, he organizes everything with an almost mathematical precision and in the smallest details - everything. To do the divine Will - I have been doing the sadhana for a long time, and I can say that not a day has passed that I have not done the Divine's Will. But I didn't know what it was! I was living in all the inner realms, from the

November 30, 1958 (Letter from Mother to Satprem) Sunday morning Satprem, Here is the wherewithal to go to Hyderabad. Whatever you may decide, I will always be with you, invariably, in the truth of your being. Signed: Mother Page 251 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

July 23, 1958 In the final analysis, seeing the world such as it is and seems meant to be irremediably, human intellect has decided that this universe must be an error of God and that the manifestation or creation is certainly the result of a desire, the desire to manifest, know oneself, enjoy oneself. So the only thing to do is to put an end to this error as soon as possible by refusing to cling to desire and its fatal consequences. But the Supreme Lord answers that the comedy is not entirely played out, and He adds: 'Wait for the last act; undoubtedly you will change your mind.' Page 184 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

June 1958 (?) We are preparing upon earth the connecting-point, that point of communication and junction between the mental and terrestrial human consciousness and the supramental and superhuman Consciousness. It is a whole intermediate world that is being worked out, a new creation manifesting and materializing. In order to be realized here upon earth, this creation must utilize the already existing material means and powers, but in a new way, adapted to the new needs. One of the most essential powers is the financial power. Page 171 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

September 15, 1955 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, September 15, 1955 Mother ... suddenly everything seems to have crystallized - all the little revolts, the little tensions, the ill will and petty vital demands - forming a single block of open, determined resistance. I have become conscious that from the beginning of my sadhana, the mind has led the game - with the psychic behind - and has 'held me in leash,' helped muzzle all contrary movements, but at no time, or only rarely, has the vital submitted or opened to the higher influence. The rare times when the vital participated, I felt a great progress. But now, I find myself in front of this solid mass that