XXI I AM WITH YOU...     I am with you because I am you or you are I.     I am with you, that signifies a world of things because I am with you on all levels, in all planes, from the supreme consciousness down to the most physical. Here, at Pondicherry, you cannot breathe without breathing my consciousness. It saturates the atmosphere almost materially, in the subtle physical and extends to the Lake, 10 kilometers from here. Farther, my consciousness can be felt in the material vital, then on the mental plane and other higher planes, everywhere. When I came here for the first time,I felt the atmosphere of Sri Aurobindo, felt materially, at a distance of ten miles, ten nautical miles, n

XIX OUR DEBT AND HOMAGE     Thus more than forty long years of my contact came to a sudden end just when that contact was blossoming into a closer union 'through a long dim preparation'. As I have shown in my account, there have always been unhappy but seemingly unnecessary interruptions since 1950, severing the physical tie and throwing me for a time on reliance upon the inner support. But my personal loss counted for nothing before the tremendous void felt by the entire Ashram. The Mother made us forget Sri Aurobindo's most painful absence by her all - encompassing divine love and solicitude. But who is there to console us now? Who shall guide and protect us ? We have to seek for that c

XI MY FAMILY AND THE MOTHER'S GRACE By "my family", I mean my old mother, my sister and her children. Most unexpected was their arrival here, particularly of my sister; and most generous, I should say magnanimous, was the Mother in her acceptance of them all. My mother came first followed by my sister with her children, but they arrived in batches. When the last batch wanted to come, the Mother said, "Let us first see how these get on." After a year or so, all of them found shelter under her wide protective wings. She observed later on before Sri Aurobindo that they were a "success". I remember Amrita going about and looking for a house where the entire family could be lodged together. A n