January 13, 1973 (Mother receives Satprem and Sujata fifty-five minutes late.) Nothing to be said.... It's chaos! The Supermind has obviously nothing in common with our regular time. (silence) I feel I am being pulled in opposite directions by the old world and the new.... (Mother shakes her head and plunges in) Page 348

December 26, 1972 (Mother sees some teachers from the school. Towards the end of the meeting, Pranab enters Mother's room in his customary manner, heads straight for Mother, and launches into a violent diatribe against some French television reporters - whom Mother had received the day before - because they filmed Sri Aurobindo's tomb "in spite of his orders." Mother tries to calm him down.) When they [the reporters] cannot get something from one person, they go to somebody else - and it works. In any event, I won't see them anymore. (Pranab explodes:) If I meet them again, I'll smash their cameras. I don't want any violence or nasty scenes here. (Pranab r

October 14, 1972 So the 30th is your birthday? Well, yes! What's your birthday wish? Liberation. Good. How old will you be? Forty-nine. Page 296 Baah! ... (as if to say: still a child) (Mother plunges in, then she "looks") Did you see something in me? I find you are going well. There was Peace, a luminous Peace (enveloping gesture). I find you are going well. All is going well, it's good. Page 297

August 19, 1972 (Mother looks very pale. She has just seen 175 people.) What do you have to say? And you, Mother? Would you say something? I've just seen over a hundred people. Yes, you're a bit tired. Not tired, it's ... dazed, you know. Page 271 I am not saying anything. But if you have something to ask? You should rest a little, Mother. I'll rest. But go on and ask me if you have something. I have a feeling I am not making the right movement inwardly.I'm not going at it the right way. Ah! ... You're too active. If you could simply.... More and more I feel that unless one does this (Mother opens her hands upwards in a gesture of surrender), and lea

September 20, 1972 (Satprem's eyes are still in poor condition.) So, what about your eyes? And you, how are you? Me ... the consciousness is progressing. (Satprem rests his head on Mother's knees. She puts her left hand over his right eye.) If you could stop everything for ten days ... don't use your eyes to read or write - not look at anything, just use your eyes to see what's indispensable, to eat or move about. I don't know, there's a kind of automatic vision that isn't tiring. It's when you "look" at something that it tires you. I wish you had ten whole days of that automatic vision. You are now my eyes for the work, you understand, so you must keep them in

April 6, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata) I don't want to speak anymore. Yesterday, I told Satprem what I had to say. (silence) Page 147 Some people come and deluge me with their problems; others come and say nothing; in both cases, I am silent. I don't care what they say, even that I've become stupid, I don't care in the least. Oh, no!... People who can say such things are only showing their own colors. Yes. That's their own business, I have nothing to do with it. Up above, in the consciousness, I am with those who are there. And that's that. (Mother clasps Sujata's hands and sits gazing) Yes, this is good, this is good. You know I am with you! Do you know that?

February 12, 1972 I have a letter from P.L. [the friend in the Vatican]. Here's whathe says: "... Thanks to Mother's Protection, things around mehad calmed down a little, when suddenly the storm broke out again. To the former intrigues have now been added slander and ... a threat of expulsion (which in itself I would not mind, but they should not triumph!). This threat is in fact meant to upset me and force me to change my attitude. I feel the need to go back and see Mother - the sooner the better. But practically I cannot do it; furthermore, I am being watched; I am afraid that if they find out I am going to Pondicherry, they will try to set the Bishop agai

March 10, 1973 What do we do about the Bulletin, Mother ... the "Notes onthe Way"? Do you have something? Almost nothing, just two small pieces. Go ahead, read them. (Satprem reads) Is that all? ... Yes [laughter].... Obviously, you don't feel like talkinganymore. No. I can't talk, it doesn't come out clearly. But that's not true! It does! It comes out very well. If you have a question, we can try. I don't know, whenever I try to come into contact with thatConsciousness, I always sense a sort of luminous immensity, as you say.... Yes. But I feel it's stationary, you see; I am in it and could stay in itforever, but.... Exactly. That's my

December 2, 1972 (Mother has just spent an hour and fifteen minutes eating her "breakfast.") Do you have something? No, nothing in particular, Mother. Then I'll give you only ten minutes. Something strange is happening which I don't understand - and it's getting stronger and stronger: it took me more than an hour to eat my breakfast, yet when I started I told myself: I must finish this in twenty minutes. And I really thought I had finished in twenty minutes ! Time ... I have completely lost the sense of time. I was convinced I had finished in twenty minutes and it took me more than an hour - to eat nothing! I take a bite or a sip, and then ten minutes, twenty minut

July 26, 1972 (In an attempt to bring the book distribution in line, Mother, on Satprem's suggestion, asked a young teacher from the school to be in charge of the copyright department. Mother first speaks of this young teacher.) He's discovering skeletons! Poor M. [All India Press director], he was so upset! Naturally, for he isn't the real culprit in all this, you know, it's the other one behind, SABDA. Oh, that's.... And that's why he is hurt - because he's more receptive. Theother one is penned up in his falsehood... The other one is a NO! (Mother makes the gesture of something compact.) Anyway.... *** (Mother looks for something near her.)