April 4, 1972 (Meeting with S.S., the third member of the trio of rivals. He reports to Mother that some Aurovilians are rumored to be "American spies. ") (Mother speaks in English) Some people say that they are spies and are kept by the American Government, some others (some Americans) tell me that the Americans would never take such incapable spies! So myself I don't see the.... To tell the truth, I don't appreciate them very much, but I have nothing very positive against them. That's all. It's all like that. Page 129 I tried my best to push them out, that is to say, that they would WANT to go. But they ... it didn't happen, they really willed to remain. If we could h

July 19, 1972 How are you? Not so well. Why? I don't know. What's wrong? ... The head or the body? No, it's rather within. Ohh! That HAS to be all right. Within, we're the masters - we want to be well, we are well. It's only this (Mother points to her body) that doesn't quite obey. (long silence Mother holds Satprem's hand) The subconscient is a mass of defeatism. That's what keeps rising to the surface. As we ABSOLUTELY need to change that, the subconscient must be clarified so that the new race can come. We must clarify the subconscient. It's a mire. It's full of defeatism - defeatism, the first reaction is always defeatist. It's absolutely disgusting, mon petit,

April 2, 1972 (Sujata's vision the night of April 1) One Thousand Years (original English) We enter the courtyard of a building, Satprem and I. We see sad faced people. Head bent, solemn and silent. The Mother is dead. Everybody thinks that The Mother is dead. A few are scattered here and there, individuals or groups of three or four. But most go out from a side door to our left. Another door is to the left at the top of a stairway which mounts from the court yard below and ends in a sort of bridge or passage. I see one or two Page 123 persons going out from this bridge-door. Turning to the right, this passage leads straight to the Mother's room. We

January 17, 1973 We need a message for February 21, Mother. Do you have it? No! [laughter] Z proposes two texts from Sri Aurobindo, but I feel it would be better to have something from you. Yes. Do you have something? Well, no, Mother! Won't you rather say something yourself? (after a silence) Plus on avance, plus le besoin d'une presence divine devient imperieux et ... inevitable. [The more we advance, the more the need of a divine presence becomes imperative and ... inevitable.] "Inevitable" isn't the word, it's.... Page 348 "Indispensable"? Yes, that's it, indispensable. Is it all right ? Yes, Mother. (Mother writes the message in French)

March 30, 1972 (A conversation with R., an American disciple, then with Sujata) (Mother speaks in English) Since we have set aside all conventions, immediately everybody Page 117 thinks, "Ah, nice place to fulfil our desires!" And they almost all come with that intention. And because I made a maternity clinic for the children of those people that I was obliged to send away from the Ashram, so that they could have a place to have their child, people think that the maternity clinic is established for all children born in an illegal way! I don't care for legality, I don't care for law, I don't care for convention. But what I want is a more divine life, not an animal l

December 10, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata, who reads her a letter from Satprem.) December 10, 1972 Mother, For the past several nights, my body seems to havebeen physically tortured all night long. I keep tossing and turning in pain. Also I feel as if my stomach is being clawed. I am afraid that if this goes on, I am actually Page 323 going to fall ill. In the morning when I come out of it, I feel as if my body were full of poison. [[I now wonder whether I was not, in my own measure, beginning to learn the painful lesson of oneness, which starts with all the ambient ill-will. Now I understand fully well that there must be no more "person" in order

February 11, 1972 (A note from Mother) Supreme Lord, teach us to be silent, that in thissilence we may receive Your force and understand Your will. Page 62

January 26, 1972 What's new? Nothing. Nothing to say. How are you? I don't know. (silence) The doctor who took care of my leg and had gone to Delhi has returned. He looked at my leg today and said it was a miracle the way it healed. It's almost all better - not completely, but almost. (silence) Page 44 What I told you is continuing-but it's continuing with an improvement. I mean, it's taking a turn for the better. But speaking is still difficult - speaking and eating are the two most difficult things. Page 45

March 19, 1973 (A note from Mother) Here we have no religion. We replace religion with spiritual life, which is truer and both deeper and higher, that is to say, closer to the Divine. For the Divine is in all things, but we are not conscious of it. This is the immense progress that men must make. Page 379

April 2, 1972 (Meeting with Auroville's architect, N. and U. - N. is the Secretary of the Sri Aurobindo Society and U., his rival, the Secretary of Sri Aurobindo's Action. The architect gives Mother a flower.) What is it? I think it's "Supramental Clarity" or Vibration. (Mother speaks in English) I will tell you that we are preaching unity - unity of humanity - Page 124 and we are all quarreling - horrible quarrels, resentments and all sorts of urgings that we condemn in the others. We are giving a nice example, and people laugh! Voila. It has come to me from many quarters. Begin with yourself, they say, and they are right. Each one, all of