May 29, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata. On this day, thirty-four years before, Sujata decided to stay with Mother. She was twelve and a half years old, the youngest disciple in the Ashram. She had made her first visit to Pondicherry when she was nine. She gives Mother a spray of "Service" flowers. This will be the last May 29th.) It's from your tree. (Mother holds the flowers for a long time, then gives them back to Sujata) I've put something there. For you and Satprem. Page 194

December 9, 1972 (Mother caresses the flowers Sujata has just brought her.) I still have my cold.... (Satprem:) But you look better, Mother. Yes. It isn't really a "cold." Page 322 Yes, I am sure.... I felt there was a cyclone ... a real cyclone within. (Mother laughs) There WAS a cyclone within. (silence) Obviously, everything is designed so that the only ... (I can't find the word in French) reliance, the only support is in the Divine. But I am not told what the "Divine" is - how do you like that! ... Everything else is collapsing, except the ... the ... the what? The Divine ... something - what? ... One feels it. It can't be described or defined in an

December 20, 1972 Do you have anything to ask? I had a question about Sri Aurobindo. I was wondering whatstage he had reached when he left - what stage in the transfor mation? For instance, what difference is there between the work you are doing now and what he was doing at the time? Page 326 He had accumulated a great deal of supramental force in his body, and as soon as he left he.... He was on his bed, you see, and I was standing beside him, and all the supramental force that was in him passed quite concretely from his body into mine - so concretely that I thought it was visible. I could feel the friction of the passage. It was extraordinary - extraordinary!

February 10, 1972 (A note from Mother) Human consciousness is so corrupt that peopleprefer the misery and ignorance of the ego to the luminous joy that comes from sincere surrender to the Divine. Their blindness is so great that they refuse even to attempt the experience and prefer to be subjected to the misery of their ego rather than make the necessary effort to free themselves from it. Their blindness is so total that they would nothesitate to make the Divine a slave to their ego, if such a thing were possible, just to avoid giving themselves to the Divine. Page 62

July 29, 1972 What I told you last time is not to be published - it's all right for the Agenda. I mean what I said about the people around me. Yes, Mother, of course, all that is strictly for "the Agenda. Everything personal is for the Agenda. Yes, yes, of course. (Mother unties a garland of flowers from her wrist) Do you like patience? I don't know if I like it, but it's useful! (Mother laughs and gives Satprem a garland) I have plenty! (two or three garlands around her wrist!) What do you have to tell me? Nothing. I feel the ... churning one is put through. Oh! ... Sometimes it feels as if something were ... raging ferociously. Yes, exactly. As if to

February 19, 1972 (Mother gazes at Satprem for a long time.) Do you see something? (Mother plunges in. Half an hour goes by) No inclination to speak unless you put questions.... [[This sentence was said in English. ]] Am I getting a little closer? Oh, you're doing very well, mon petit! That.... Page 67 (Mother takes Satprem's hands long silence) Last time, my impression was that the old man in you had awakened in order to be transformed. But only you can know.... I felt that because he was a totally different man from the one I know now. But only you can tell me if he has actually been transformed or if he has disappeared. I don't know. I think he's tryi

And Now Then the door was shut. She was to live for another six months, 182 days. Two days before the "end," she kept repeating, "I want to walk ... I want to walk...." Before my eyes, they drove twenty-five screws into her coffin. There was a ray of sun on the nape of her neck; her hands were tightly clasped together - there was such strength in those hands! Such power in that supposedly dead body. And then that fierce concentration. She wore a white silk dress and a small blouse with gold buttons. The long saga unfolds before my eyes - so many years with that young girl's laughter rippling through everything, and the silences of snow, the beating of wings through boundless spa

October 30, 1972 (The last birthday) Ah, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday! ... (Mother gives some presents) These are pens.... And these are the chocolates! Page 303 (Mother holds Satprem's hands in hers) Mon petit.... (To Sujata:) Naturally the chocolates are for you! The biscuits for him. (Sujata gives Mother flowers) This is "Divine Grace"... and this is "Power of Truth in theSubconscient." (Mother gives Satprem Sujata's flowers) Yes, Mother, yes, Mother.... Happy birthday, happy new year. Page 304

April 19, 1972 And what about your "change" [of government]? It's going on! (silence) The conscious will seems to want to assume a larger role. It makes life ... much more efficient, obviously, but also more difficult. More difficult in what way? Well, usually we passively leave it up to Nature to set things right when something goes wrong - that's totally disappearing. Now it is a process of consciousness, and no longer.... You see, the mind (laughing: it's going on - the supramental is still sitting on it!), the mind has been worked upon for years, so that it doesn't meddle when it's none of its business and lets Nature take care of all the damage; but now Nature is

February 5, 1972 (Mother listens to the conclusion of the English translation of "Notes on the Way"; she looks weary and tired from the confu sion created by the translators. After they leave, she simply hands Satprem the text of a recent note, then plunges in.) To want what the Divine wants in all sincerity is the essential condition for peace and joy in life. Almost all human miseries come from the fact that human beings are almost always persuaded they know better than the Divine what they need and what life is supposed to bring them. The majority of human beings want other human beings to behave according to their own expectations and life circumstances to follow their own