June June 2, 1962 (Mother refers to the previous conversation, in which she was looking for the reasons behind the passage from one room to another, from the room of pain to the true room: "I can't catch hold of what makes it happen. What's happening? What's going on?! ") I had an experience yesterday afternoon that might put us on the track. It was a very interesting experience - especially interesting for some people because I became aware of certain reincarnations. I was in a state that might be called a "state of knowledge," where I knew things with certainty, without any doubt. But what's striking - it's connected to what I was telling you the other day - is that I was

December December 4, 1962 (Mother speaks again of the direct experience of the Supreme she had when Sri Aurobindo left his body:) I don't quite understand. Didn't you have the experience of the Supreme before Sri Aurobindo's departure? Spiritually, you have that experience as soon as you come into contact with the Divine within; mentally, you have the experience as soon as the mind is purified; vitally, you have it as soon as you get out of the ego. But it's the consciousness of the BODY - the consciousness of the cells - which had the experience at that moment. Everything else had had it long before and was constantly aware of it, but the body.... It had been told about it an

July 25, 1962 (Mother listens to Satprem read a passage on mental silence from his manuscript on Sri Aurobindo.) It's very good. It's dull. Page 277 Is this the end of the chapter? What about the next one? That's just it, I don't know. You don't know yet? First I was planning to speak about consciousness, what consciousness is; then I realized it would be better to speak of the vital first.... Before anything can be achieved, the vital has to be quieted. Not necessarily. Personally, I think I would begin with consciousness and deal with the vital afterwards. But if I speak of consciousness it will lead me to speak of the ascent of consciousness, followed

October 16, 1962 Last time you said, "They are burned, or shut up in a box without air and light - fully conscious...." And it is hideously true. But what should be done then? Should people wait, or what? I have looked at this a great deal, but ... socially, conventionally, it's impossible - there's nothing else to do. The living take their stand with the living, naturally. So the only thing I've seen is that, as always, there must be a grace associated with that state, and probably people see ONLY what they are able to see without being upset. I know this because when the body became like that - it was more than three-quarters dead[[Last April. ]] - and people were taking

April 20, 1962 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) April 20, 1962 Sweet Mother, 1) I have received a letter from the publisher, who reiterates his requests for alterations. I am replying to him this very day that I will write another book. I have no idea how I am going to write the book! 2) I have finished the work you gave me. I will bring it to you when you wish, but there is no hurry at all - rest. Your child, Signed: Satprem Page 133

March 6, 1962 So, how are you? I don't know at all where I stand. You're neutral. Yes, I understand nothing at all. You're neutral - dull. That (laughing) makes it hard for you not to get irritated! Why? What has happened? Oh, nothing (Mother laughs), nothing in particular. Just the feeling that you'd jump if someone touched you! Really, I don't understand anything any more. I don't understand. I have absolute faith in Something Else - that's always been there, it doesn't waver. But ... there seems to be no progress. I see nothing ahead of me, nothing behind me, nothing. I don't know, I've already been here a good number of years and I don't feel I've made an inch of

July 11, 1962 (Referring back to the conversation of July 4: "One must die unto death to be born to Immortality.") When I said that, oh, you can't imagine, I had just been seeing it somewhere - somewhere in a dazzling light - and it was full of marvelous meaning. And of course when I uttered it I wondered why ... why it was no longer the same. It was absolutely wonderful, it explained ... not that it explained everything, but it was a revelation. There must have been some fault in the transcription. It all came back after you left. I looked and asked myself, "Why did I say it was so marvelous!" And I understood: when I saw it, I really SAW, saw those words, more dazzling than the most

January 15, 1962 You spoke last time of putting a body on a vital being. Is that being still alive? Who was it? I have spoken of this before. I told the story of the Chinese revolution, and how this being left me, saying.... It was just five years before the Chinese revolution. I've told the story. Page 43 I know I've told it - but it was never noted down. I used to dictate. Théon taught me to speak while in trance (that is, he had taught my BODY to express itself), and I would tell him everything I was doing while doing it. And he never noted any of it down - I suspect he did it on purpose: he wasn't interested in making revelations. So it's all lost. But had it

November 17, 1962 (Concerning the Sino-Indian conflict along the Himalayan border:) X wrote N. to announce - in precise and almost violent terms - that it was the beginning of a general upheaval, a catastrophic world war. Page 413 I know it's the will of that Asura I've mentioned to you several times, the Lord of Falsehood who was born the Lord of Truth, and who knows that his hour is at hand ("at hand" relative to that world there) and has declared he will cause as much havoc as he can before disappearing. Quite recently, just before the present conflict broke out, I went to a realm in the vital world which is right above the earth, like a platform (not a mountain top, bu

June 30, 1967 (About an Indian disciple from South Africa who has been jailed for a few months in Syria under the pretext that his banknotes were counterfeit.) ... They have no government to protect them. Before India's independence they had a British passport, but now the government of South Africa doesn't recognize them, the government of India doesn't look after them, so they're like that, neither fish nor fowl, and with no one to protect them. It's rather peculiar. There are a few here [in the Ashram] who still have a British passport, and they don't know what to do. They're neither this nor that, they're nothing I To those who are nice I say, "Never mind, you wil