M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1962-10-27 October 27, 1962 (An unfortunate series of power cuts prevented the recording of most of this conversation, except for a few passages. Satprem noted down the missing parts from memory, and Mother then supplemented his notes with a number of comments and additions.) We're going to build a little room on the terrace for the harmonium. I feel like making some experiments.... There used to be a bad attitude in the body, which always hampered my playing, and now that it has gone, I would like to see what happens. It was something in the subconscient standing in the way: everything you learn when you study music, that you can't play this note with that note and so

September 8, 1962 (Mother looks unwell. She seems to have been having some fainting spells, but this is not clear.) Are you tired? A little bit, yes. For three days it's been battle, battle, battle. (long silence) It's hard to know if it's a coincidence.... I don't believe in coincidences. Yes, I was wondering if it might coincide with X's arrival. He came yesterday. The meditation was good in that it was very concentrated and silent, and he had an ascent like this (gesture of an upright triangle), with a point that was supreme (for him) and a descent of light. Very calm, very silent. Page 338 The doctor says he has the flu - maybe he gave it to me ... I do

October 20, 1962 I was wondering.... Concerning whether people should be burned or buried, you said, "A week ago, I would unhesitatingly have said 'buried'.... Now, because of 'this,' I can't say any more." Which experience are you referring to? Page 384 It's because of what I am beginning to be aware of. Do you mean that what you are learning tends to show you that it's not necessarily best to be buried? Yes. It depends on the case, on the country, on all kinds of things. There are people in Europe who ask to be burned because they're afraid of being buried alive. Here, when people are convinced that a person is conscious, he's buried instead of burned. Actually,

May 13, 1962 (This is the first conversation with Mother in two months. She is still reclining on her chaise longue. She looks quite pale and fragile, almost translucent. She enlarges upon the experience she had a month earlier, on April 13. The following text was not taped but noted down from memory and then read out to Mother.) Page 137 I was at the Origin - I WAS the Origin. For more than two hours, consciously, here on this bed, I was the Origin. And it was like gusts - like great gusts ending in explosions. And each one of these gusts was a span of the universe. It was Love in its supreme essence - which has nothing to do with what people normally understand by that word.

May 27, 1962 (Concerning the "wave movement" in the experience of April 13.) ... What I say there is quite true. When I don't observe, formulate or explain, the state is absolutely tranquil, peaceful, contented, sufficient unto itself. And out of it, I can see that something will definitely emerge. But as soon as I try to make it emerge, it all fades away - meaning it isn't ripe yet. It's a very impersonal sort of state in which that whole habit of reacting to outside things, the things around me, has completely vanished. But nothing has come to replace it. It is ... an undulation. That's all. When will it change into something else? I don't know. You can't, you just can'

April April 3, 1962 (Since March 16, Mother has been going through a grave ordeal that threatened her physical existence. Even so, she went down to the balcony on the 18th and 20th of March, which were to be the last times. She has not left her room since then. All her conversations with Satprem will henceforth take place in her upstairs room. The latest attack occurred the previous night, April 2-3, and took the form of a total cardiac arrest. Despite her condition, this morning Mother has found the strength to speak. She speaks in English. Her words have been noted down from memory.) Just between eleven and twelve [last night] I had an experience by which I discovered that there i

October 6, 1962 78 - When knowledge is fresh in us, then it is invincible; when it is old, it loses its virtue. This is because God moves always forward. So, what's your question? The knowledge referred to here is intellectual or spiritual, but for the supramental yoga, knowledge is... what kind of knowledge is it? A knowledge in the body, a physical knowledge? Sri Aurobindo is speaking here of knowledge through inspiration or revelation. In other words, when something suddenly descends and illuminates your understanding: all of a sudden, you feel you know a certain thing for the very first time, because it comes to you directly from the domain of Light, the domain of true know

August 25, 1962 (Satprem complains that he finds it difficult to write his book. Mother concentrates for about fifteen minutes, then says:) All right. He came and put all sorts of things around you for you to write. All sorts of golden things. So they must be written. You can tell me about it on Tuesday. And again he repeated, "No worry, no worry.... Take it easy, take it easy. " And it was as if he wanted to sit you down by a running river, as if you could see the water flowing, flowing, flowing, flowing so naturally along. As if you were sitting in a lovely flower-strewn meadow by a flowing stream.... And he was saying, "Don't worry, take it easy, take it easy." He was put

January 27, 1962 I'd like to ask you a question about those lines from Savitri I showed you the other day. I don't know if you remember - the passage about the "white gods." What did you want to ask? What was it that "the white gods had missed"? But Sri Aurobindo has written it all down in full, right here in the Aphorisms. He has mentioned everything, taken up one thing after another: "Without this, there would not have been that; without this, there would not have been that ..." and so on.[[88 - This world was built by Death that he might live. Wilt thou abolish death? Then life too will perish. Thou canst not abolish death, but thou mayst transform it into a greater living. 89 -

June 20, 1962 Pavitra was telling me the other day that, according to the latest scientific discoveries, matter in its present state can be immortal. There's no reason that it couldn't change (for it changes all the time) enough to avoid decay. Nothing in matter's composition stands in the way of its immortality - immortality of form, I Page 215 mean. If science simply follows its own course (and does not suddenly find itself confronted with something beyond its grasp), there's no reason it should not provide people who don't have a mystical or occult turn of mind with a way to use the present substance in imperishable forms, without recourse to anything from other realms. This