May 23, 1970 (Satprem hands over his pension to Mother. She goes on:) This is the time of discoveries ... everywhere!... Something seems to have exerted a pressure until things can no longer put on a pretense - all has to show itself as it is. So then (laughing), what discoveries! And naturally, if you hear both sides, it's an almost contradictory story, so ... you don't know where reality is. But it's not only here [at the Ashram]: it's in the whole country. And then, they tell me all the miseries and ask me to intervene (not outwardly, of course). It's such a mess.... (silence) Have you seen the latest Aphorisms of Sri Aurobindo?... He tells us to lose all our moral sens

January 31, 1970 Someone wrote to me from France that he had tried everything, that everything had failed, that he is quite desperate and ... So I answered this: It is when all appears to be lost that all can be saved. When one has lost trust in one's personal power, one must have faith in the Divine Grace. It's useful for many. It has been said I don't know how many times, but it always seems necessary to repeat it. (silence) So the old system of personal property is collapsing in the world. Only, as usual, it collapses in a disgusting manner.... Here, they've set up a spying system all over the country, a repugnant espionage

September 26, 1970 What's new? Here there's nothing (Mother shakes her head). Nothing interesting. It's all right (in an unconvinced tone). (Then Satprem reads the "Comments on the Aphorisms" and "Mother Answers" for the next Bulletin.") My impression now is that all this is written here (gesture just above the head) and that I have gone to my highest consciousness (gesture far above).... But that can't be expressed yet. It's not through words and ideas that it has to express itself. It's the means of expression that must be found. Ultimately, the big difference with man is that he invented language - language, and naturally, writing and so on. Well, a means of expression

September 23, 1970 (Mother appears very withdrawn.) I found some old papers again.... (Satprem reads) "When you stand in the light of the Supreme Consciousness you must not make a shadow." I told you the story.... [[See Agenda X of April 16 and May 3, 1969. ]] That's fine. (silence) What have you brought? There is the November Bulletin.... Is there anything new? No. (Then Satprem proposes to publish some fragments of the con versation of September 9 - the infernal Agenda - in the Bulletin.) Regarding Sri Aurobindo, [["The tortures he was subjected to." ]] we mustn't put it in the Bulletin.... That's impossible, it would cause a revolut

July 22, 1970 (The following conversation is a first and highly instructive outline of the phenomenon that gave birth to all the religions of the world, a phenomenon that will try to crystallize once again after Mother's departure.) I have something about this Tamil Swami who had that experience of the body's transformation.... You remember this Swami Ramalingam who had that vision of the "Grace-Light"? You made a few remarks, part of which I passed on to the person who had asked the question.... And I've raised a storm. Oh, why? Not with this good man [Ramalingam's Tamil disciple], not atall, but with A. [[An old disciple, author of several books about Sri A

March 25, 1970 Things continue to be very difficult. They're getting more and more complicated and difficult, and at the same time, the power Page 112 is growing greater and greater, it's even surprising. But, for people who like peace and quiet (laughing), it's troublesome! Do you have something? Have you brought something? Nothing to say? There's a letter from the marquis, that friend of mine. He isasking for your help.... What for? To change his life and get rid of all his material and financialproblems there. I thought he was very rich? But he wants to get rid of everything. Oh!... Let him give it to the Ashram! (Mother laughs) H

March 13, 1970 (Satprem had written Mother a rather cross letter because she had been told some malicious gossip about him, just as she had been told - to what end we do not know - that his friend, the Marquis B., was a "spy." Satprem understood nothing of those jealousies and was surprised that Mother could even listen to such tattle. In fact, Mother did not actually "listen" but worked on all the elements that came to her. That was her "sordid battle field," as she called it. Those sad incidents are only the sign that the atmosphere around Mother was becoming ... strange.) Satprem, my dear child, I do not believe what Udar tells me, nor what anyone whosoev

August 12, 1970 Can't speak ... (Mother points to her mouth and throat). (Meditation till the end) All this ... (Mother shakes her head) Page 299

January 10, 1970 (Despite its minor character, we publish the beginning of this conversation, as it reveals some of the difficulties Mother had to struggle with.) ... And this is a translation: someone who was here (he's gone now) translated it. Its probably not worth much, I don't know. I don't know whom I should give it to. When you have nothing to do ... Mother, the problem is that we can't get the translations published at the Press, things aren't moving. I have five books by Sri Aurobindo ready, and nothing is moving. They can't manage to do their work. Page 31 But then, they make promises and never manage to keep them. Oh, that's troublesome

January 14, 1970 I have a question to ask you for the Bulletin. It's about this notein which you said: "Why do men want to worship? It would be much better to become than to worship." (Mother laughs) Could we add to this the comment you made last time? Youadded, "It is out of laziness to change that people worship." It's true. But it's harsh! (Mother laughs) Do you think we should? Page 38 (silence) But then we should add: "One may not worship ONLY on condition that one changes." - Many want neither to change nor to worship! Page 39