September 30, 1970 (Mother is a little late.) I don't know the days of the week, and I am not told the days, so I didn't know it was your day. That's why I am late. I don't know Page 331 the days at all. So I'll be seeing people, and suddenly I'll be told it's Wednesday, and ... I don't even know whether its Wednesday or Saturday. I live completely outside time, outside the small everyday reality. (silence) I saw G. yesterday, he isn't too well. (after a long silence) I feel he lives outside the atmosphere. Yet he says he is so constantly turned to you. There's something preventing the contact. (after a silence) His contact is mental. Physically

September 19, 1970 (Mother looked better the previous Wednesday.) Do you have something? Now Mother, nothing special.... Have you seen any changes? (Mother shakes her head negatively) (Long meditation, Mother pants for breath) Do you have any questions? (Mother shakes her head) But it's over now, isn't it? Oh yes, completely over. (meditation again with labored breathing) Do you have anything to ask? I saw a text by Sri Aurobindo that I found interesting.... Oh! Theresa question in fact. ...It's a letter [[In fact a conversation: see Talks with Sri Aurobindo by Nirodbaran, part I, p 179-180. ]] in which he refers to the firs

June 10, 1970 All the nerves are disorganized.... I'm not good for much, but if you like, we can translate Savitri. We can be quiet. ...It will do you good. I am very happy toremain like that. Have you received the latest Aphorisms? Yes, it's the end of the Aphorisms, and it ends well! (Satprem reads) 540 - Canst thou see God in thy torturer and slayereven in thy moment of death or thy hours of torture? Canst thou see Him in that which thou art slaying, see and love even while thou slayest? Thou hast thy hand on the supreme knowledge. How shall he attain to Krishna who has never worshipped Kali? You answer: "All is the Divine and the Divi

July 1, 1970 (Satprem reads out the conversation of June 27 - "a very slight shift of consciousness" - which Mother thought could be used for the "Notes on the Way.") Is that all? I said only this much?.... I thought I had said something interesting - it's not very interesting. Yes, it is! There are lots of things in it! There's always so much MORE than what can be read! I really felt I had said something, and now it seems like nothing at all! When I read it aloud, it's not so good, but when you read it foryourself and go within a little, you clearly feel... Yes, in YOUR case. But for one like you who reads like that, there are a thousand who read on the surfa

May 9, 1970 (These last few days, Mother's physical condition was serious.) Did you get yesterday's aphorism? No, they didn't give it to me. Oh?... It was like this ... (Mother tries to remember): "The strangest experience of the soul ..." I don't remember. Yes, it's this one: 507 - The strangest of the soul's experiences is this,that it finds, when it ceases to care for the image and threat of troubles, then the troubles themselves are nowhere to be found in one's neighbourhood. It is then that we hear from behind those unreal clouds God laughing at us. So then, yesterday I wrote (I forget the words), "But when You want to transform the IMAGE into

April 4, 1970 It's sixty years since Sri Aurobindo arrived at Pondicherry.... (silence) Do you still get the Aphorisms?... I don't remember having read those things.... Clearly, he wanted to break rules and conventions at all costs. [[Exactly what aphorism Mother is referring to is not clear, perhaps this one: 446 - "Errors, falsehoods, stumblings!" they cry. How bright and beautiful are Thy errors, 0 Lord! Thy falsehoods save Truth alive; by Thy stumblings the world is perfected. ]] I strongly felt that was what resulted in the European attitude: that mixing of sex and yoga and all that.... That [sort of aphorism] must have been indispensable at the time, but now I feel we have

January 7, 1970 I found some old papers.... (Mother points to a few notes) But first, yesterday I received Aphorisms, two of them, and suddenly ... (gesture of descent) Sri Aurobindo came and wrote - in French. Afterwards, I didn't even remember what he had written. I only said (since it was he who had written) that I would like to have the text right away. They brought it to me yesterday evening so I could show you. (Mother holds out a sheet of paper) 271 - He who would win high spiritual degrees, must passendless tests and examinations. But most are anxious only to bribe the examiner. 272 - Fight, while thy hands are free, with thy hands andthy voice and t

February 25, 1970 It has become very interesting, but one can't speak ... (Mother coughs) and it's better not to speak. Very interesting. I spent the whole of last night with Sri Aurobindo, but with a WORLD of explanations. He made me understand lots of things, but quite ... well, extraordinary. And practical: on the present state of things.... Shouldn't speak, that's why I am coughing, it's on purpose (!) It's extraordinarily interesting. (silence) A demonstration in detail of the difference between the two consciousnesses. (silence) Among other things and in a quite practical and positive way, he explained to me that the cause of all illnesses, all disorders, all

August 1, 1970 (Mother gives Satprem the message for August 15:) "Even the body shall remember God." Savitri, XI.I.707 *** (Then she translates another quotation from Sri Aurobindo:) "Whatever sufferings come on the path, are nottoo high a price for the victory that has to be won and if they are taken in the right spirit, they become even a means towards the victory." Letters on Yoga, 24.1636 *** Soon afterwards We've made brochures, On India, and then five cards with quotations. (Mother gives Satprem the texts) I am told you said that the Chinese threat to India was "inescapable"? No, I didn't say that.... Who said that? It's

February 7, 1970 (We will never know how or why, but a perceptible change in Mother's condition can almost be dated from that day.) Someone has given me a fantastic cold, I cough and cough and cough. The whole day yesterday, I was unwell. I feel as if we are going through a storm. Oh!... Oh, it's worse than a storm. (silence) Ill wills, denunciations, the government is alarmed. I have been told to beware of someone you know ... a marquis. Oh, yes, I know. Page 69 Do you? Yes, they've been pursuing this man. For ten years, they preventedhim from entering India. He is blacklisted, suspected of ... Spying? No, no, smuggling. Oh