October 7, 1970 I have received quotations from Sri Aurobindo. Read this. "To persevere in turning towards the Light is whatis most demanded. The Light is nearer to us than we think ... This is interesting! "... and at any time its hour may come." On Himself, 26.216 Page 338 It's from 1943. What he called "the Light" is the Consciousness that came in ... (Mother tries to remember), it came in 1969. Oh, the New Consciousness. And the other one? The other quotation is a mantra. OM Sri Aurobindo Mira Open my mind, my heart, my life to your Light, your Love, your Power. In all things may I see the Divine. 16 July 1938

October 31, 1970 (Mother tries to read with difficulty a few lines from Savitri specially written for her in large characters.) It's a curious phenomenon: it's F. who writes this, and she doesn't understand well: for her it's just words - and I can't read! Yes, I understand. It's the consciousness she put into it. *** (Then Mother listens to a few letters of Sri Aurobindo.) (Question:) X asked me if in the course of rebirths a womancan become a man, and a man a woman. He thought of certain feminine traits in him that could be explained thus. I would also like to know if there is in the psychic being itself something like sex? Page 360 (Answe

June 20, 1970 I'd like to tell you that for some time I've had troubles with my body.... Oh? A bit disorganized. What happened to it? I don't know. ... I feel something threatening me. Since when? About a month. But where does it hurt? A functioning is disorganized. I feel there's an obstruction or something, or ... well, I don't know what's wrong. (after a silence) Page 237 You see, the Force of transformation is working very, very strongly, and many people are like that: the functions are no longer "normal," as they are called, that is to say, the functionings are changing, and so the first impression is always that of a diso

May 27, 1970 I think it's the pressure of this Consciousness, but lots of people are quarreling in the Services, and particularly at the Press. So I wrote something: (Mother holds out a note) "You seem to forget that, by the very fact that youlive in the Ashram, you work neither for your selves nor for an employer, but for the Divine. Your life must be a consecration to the divine Work and cannot be governed by petty human considerations." Would you like to publish it, or have it posted up? Maybe it's a bit too public.... What we could do ... It's especially at the Press that things are like that, so it would be amusing to give it to them (laughing) and tell

October 14, 1970 While sorting papers, I found this. I don't know what it is. (Satprem reads) Page 345 "My hair is not dyed. It is its natural color, except for a slight reddish hue that comes from the soapbark lotion I use to wash my head. "When I used to go out, I had to put rose juice on my lips so they would not chap, and sumo (powder of burned pearl) on my eyelids to prevent irritation by sunlight and dust. "To take care of one's skin and hair is no more artificial than to take care of one's teeth. "If a sadhika [a female disciple] has spare time and the inclination to make up, I see no harm in that, provided she does not do it out of vanity or aff

November 28, 1970 (Satprem offers his pension to Mother and asks her if he could keep a little money to build a room for himself in the Nandanam gardens, on the outskirts of Pondicherry.) Yes, it will do you good. *** (Then Mother translates a few passages from Savitri, including this one:) It lends beauty to the terror of the gulfs And fascinating eyes to perilous Gods, Invests with grace the demon and the snake. II.II.106 It's charming! That's exactly the nature of the vital, what Theon called the "nervous world." *** Page 376 (Then Satprem reads the beginning of chapter 11 of Supermanhood; "The Change of Power.") It creates

January 21, 1970 (Mother listens to the English translation of the conversation of 13 December 1969, in which she spoke of a cure "without repres sion": "What causes the repression is the idea of good and evil.... The infirmity of our consciousness is what creates this division." Mother added that one has to "learn to disappear." Satprem had proposed the publication of a few extracts in the "Notes on the Way.") Is it the end? (To Nolini, in English:) You think it's all right? It won't create a great confusion?... I am not sure. They're going to feel quite lost. (silence) Page 57 (Satprem:) You go to the heart of the problem - to the heart o

December 3, 1970 From this day, Mother went through a long ordeal that lasted more than a month and a half. That will be the last turning point after those of 1962 and 1968. Satprem will see her again only on January 16. On December 31, her faithful cashier Satyakarma left his body, the last in the unhappy series that deprived Mother of her most reliable helpers. In the course of this ordeal, Mother was affected successively in the chest, the abdomen, then the legs and down to the feet. The first bedsores appeared on her back. Page 382

December 2, 1970 (Mother has a bloodshot left eye and a swollen cheek.) Are you all right? Yes, Mother, and you? Toothache ... Always something ... It doesn't matter. It's interesting simply because there isn't that spontaneous reaction everyone has (gesture turned in) of seeing and acting in relation with this (Mother points to her body). This [the body] is like this (gesture of abolition), it doesn't exist. Very strange - and spontaneously. It's not the result of a will or even a thought, a consciousness: it's a natural state. As if it did not exist. And I suppose that's why every little corner that isn't yet exactly as it should be goes wrong, and then ... Then it ha

September 6, 1970 (Sujata furtively goes and sees Mother.) You're sweet.... I am better. Page 310