November 25, 1970 (Satprem reads the second part of chapter 10, "The Harmony.") "... When the gaze changes, one can rebuild, the world." Page 374 (Mother opens her eyes wide and plunges in again till the end) It's extraordinary! There is a sort of ... a sort of EMOTION in it, which doesn't belong to this world. It puts you into contact with a certain ... I don't know what to call it, but it's like an emotion [[Mother does look moved. ]] which is beyond the mind - beyond everything, everything, not only the mind but the intellectual. Its a new emotion. I can't describe. It's strange. And every time it does the same thing, every time I say to myself, "I'll be

March 21, 1970 (The beginning of this conversation took place in Nolini's presence.) Have you received yesterday's Aphorisms?... Nolini might have something to say.... 407 - I am not a Bhakta [lover of the Divine], for I havenot renounced the world for God. How can I renounce what He took from me by force and gave back to me against my will? These things are too hard for me. (Mother laughs) So T. asks me what he means. Then, there is another. 411 - After I knew that God was a woman [laughter], I learned something from far-off about love; but it was only when I became a woman and served my Master and Paramour that I knew love utterly. What exactly do

January 17, 1970 What did you want to tell me? I had a visit from Paolo and N.... There are two things. But first,there is the plan for this Center - to be precise, of the outside of the Center. The outside, I didn't see anything. There is a sketch by L. I didn't see anything at all, I am open to all proposals. So then? He explained something I found very beautiful and would liketo submit to you.... As a matter of fact, when you spoke of that Center, you said, "I don't know whether the walls will have a slope or the roof." You seemed, to hesitate. Then Paolo said he re ceived a kind of inspiration and saw something very simple, like a big shell with on

February 28, 1970 (Mother is still coughing.) Page 87 The work in the body is going on at a quickened pace, but it's not easy... But very precise, very accurate. I told you that I spent a whole night with Sri Aurobindo, and he explained to me all that's going on for the body, in detail.... It's difficult. The state one used to find natural now so much feels like a state of perfect imbecility, so ... and everything one used to lean on now feels like nothing at all. So it's ... difficult. Things ... it's so interesting! We always think that certain things are dangerous (certain illnesses, for example, or certain disorders) and others are insignificant, and then it's shown

June 13, 1970 We have to complete our "program" for Auroville.... Auroville has come to prepare the coming of the new species. (Mother writes) Page 231 5. The whole earth must prepare for the advent of the new species, and Auroville wants to consciously work to hasten that advent. 6. What this new species is to be will be progressively revealed to us. In the meanwhile, the best way is to consecrate oneself entirely to the Divine. Enough!... To be continued!... *** (Mother has Vasudha, her attendant, called, and with Sujata's help starts sorting out old papers. She comes across a 1967 file containing her "Instructions in the event of a catalepti

October 21, 1970 I found some old papers. (Satprem reads) "I am told that you intend to distribute a reproduction of the portrait you did of me. It would be better not to introduce in this gathering anything personal that might suggest the atmosphere of a nascent religion." It was for Auroville and it was a portrait by Y, did you see it? You saw that portrait?! (Mother laughs) It was a polite way of telling her. Only, she didn't listen to me, she distributed it. *** (Then Mother listens to the English translation of an extract from the "infernal Agenda" of September 9, which Satprem intended to publish in the forthcoming "Notes on the Way." Nolini

March 28, 1970 (Mother holds a note out to Satprem) This is what I sent for the conferences of the New Age Association. [[An association of students from the Ashram. ]] They asked, "Is the aim of life to be happy?..." So I replied: "That is just putting things topsy-turvy."The aim of human life is to discover the Divine and to manifest it. Naturally, this discovery leads to happiness, but this happiness is a consequence, not an aim in itself. And it is this mistake of taking a mere consequence for the aim of life that has been the cause of most of the miseries afflicting humanity." What do they mean by "happiness"! Yes! Everyone thinks it's his o

November 14, 1970 So then, what's new? I have finished my book. Oh!... Good, that's good. How many chapters still to be read? We've readied half, I'm reading you the eighth. There are sixteen. It'll go on till January. Do you want to hear all of it? Yes, of course! (Mother laughs) (Satprem starts reading the end of the eighth chapter: "The Change of Vision." Afterwards, Mother remains long absorbed, as if deep in meditation.) I always go off - it's strange - into a ... like a new country. It happens to me every time. (silence) Do you think people will be able to translate this? (silence) It's calm (vast gesture), luminous - it's magnifice

September 9, 1970 The Hell (Mother seems very slightly better, though still quite exhausted.) I had something to tell you, but I don't remember at all.... Maybe it'll come back. (very long silence, then Mother gestures that she remembers and plunges in again) It's coming, but not yet precise enough. Do YOU have anything to ask? Was it related to "that night," when you were as if in hell? Yes, it was related to that. It was ... I'll try to explain. You know that OM is said to be the sound of the whole universe turned towards the Supreme, imploring the Supreme - and the result is OM. I had the impression that I was all the pain of the world - all the pain of

September 2, 1970 (Mother's first words for almost a month. Her left eye is very swollen, her voice husky. It is not over yet.) Forbidden to speak: it makes me cough terribly. (long meditation) Do you know a man with slightly red hair, or dark blond, and a beard? ??? No?... He was here (gesture next to Satprem). You don't know who it is?... He was sitting like that, on the ground. (Mother looks again) You have many disciples now, don't you? Who? [[Satprem heard "he has many disciples" and thought Mother was referring to this red-haired man. It never occurred to him he could have disciples! ]] (silence) Who? (silence) Not me?! (Mothe