March 15, 1969 (Mother listens to the English translation of "Notes on theWay" for the coming Bulletin, then remarks at the end:) It's absolutely as if I were wrapped in a layer of cotton wool! ... (Laughing) Maybe it's to give me some rest! (To Nolini:) Isn't it a deadly bore? It's useless, no? (Nolini, in English:) Oh, no! It's very nice. It's something morethan words. (Mother, in English:) No, truly, I am not fishing for compliments; I sincerely say that it's a bore, no? ... (Nolini:) No! They will say, "Mother is beginning to drivel." (Nolini laughs and goes out) What's new? (Satprem remains silent, contemplating Nolini's "very nice")

August 27, 1969 They've found a paper I wrote soon after Sri Aurobindo's departure. I already told you part of it, but this is the full paper. It's dated ... (Mother hands the paper to Satprem) January 26, 1951. But it's very private. (Satprem reads out the text) (This note is about a person physically close to Sri Aurobindo,who tried to destroy Mother and separate her from Sri Auro bindo. In fact, it is clear and understandable that the darkest shadow is right under the light, and that he or she who comes to do the divine work must take on himself or herself the whole burden of the Opposer. Thus is it near Sri Aurobindo and Mother that the greatest ad

March 26, 1969 (Regarding the French translation of two letters of SriAurobindo about the Ashram, which Mother wants to publish in the next Bulletin.) "If anybody in the Ashram tries to establish a supremacy or dominating influence over others, he is in the wrong. For it is bound to be a wrong vital influence and come in the way of the Mother's work. "All the work should be done under the Mother's sole authority. All must be arranged according to her free decision. She must be free to use the capacities of each separately or together according to what is best for the work and best for the worker. "None should regard or treat another member of the Ashram as his subordina

February 22, 1969 Your mother is fine .... She is very concentrated. Page 70 (Mother hands to Satprem the message she has given for February 21, her ninety-first birthday anniversary:) "It is only immutable peace that can make possible eternity of existence." Would you know when I wrote this? Yes, it was in '65, I think. [[It is adapted from the conversation of June 14, 1965. See Agenda VI, p. 127. ]] I don't remember when it was, but I remember that I wrote it after I had the experience that the immobility of the Inconscient, of the beginning of the creation, is (I can't say a "projection"), is a sort of inanimate or inconscient symbol of Eternity, of Immob

December 31, 1969 (Mother gives presents for the New Year and a few copies of"The Adventure of Consciousness" in Italian.) This is Italian .... I have several of them, do you want any? Oh, you know, Mother, I don't know many Italians .... You used to know Italian a little in the past, didn't you? Oh, I knew Italian very well in the past. I learned so much of it .... (Mother gives other presents ... a musical pen, which she plays!) Of course, it has a strange sound .... Do you want to play? In Italy, the book [The Adventure] is having a lot of success, a lot: Italians are coming in large numbers .... Page 491 You know Paolo, have you seen him? He's

September 10, 1969 I have nothing to say. My body is going through extraordinary experiences, but they can't be told .... It's as if it were shown how, in all sorts of circumstances - innumerable circumstances - how one goes towards death and how one goes towards life: with everything, everything, you understand, every part of the body, every organ, every activity, one after another - impossible to tell. One can't talk about it. It's interesting. But this body was built in a curious way, because every time it's in external contact with wickedness, that is, the will to hurt, the will to destroy, the will to cause harm, it doesn't understand, and that gives it ... you know, lik

September 17, 1969 I've written something for Auroville .... "The earth needs a place where people can live sheltered from all national rivalries, all social conventions, all contradictory moralities and antagonistic religions. A place where, freed from all those slaveries of the past, human beings will be able to wholly dedicate themselves to the discovery and practice of the Divine Consciousness that wants to manifest. "Auroville wants to be that place, and offers itself to all those who aspire to live tomorrow's truth." Now things are in the habit of coming like this (Mother brings down her two arms), and they keep pestering me until I've written! Once I write, it

June 4, 1969 There's a letter from PL. He writes: " ... My work is the same, there are difficulties in acceptingmy ideas. I am regarded as a 'crank' (I think so, though no one has talked to me about it, for there is a force protecting me). Yet, things at the Vatican, at the center of the Church, are changing. The struggle of the new forces against the tra ditional ones is now very strong. If the Pope accepts (his entourage is against it) to go to Geneva on June 10 and take part in the Assembly of Protestant Churches, and asserts there that we are not 'the only ones to possess the truth,' I believe that will be a great step forward. But will he have the courage to

May 28, 1969 (Mother looks a little overburdened.) I have nothing to say. Do you have anything, any news? I don't have any news, but there's one thing here. They've foundin Pavitra's things the record of an experience he had three years ago, just when his cancer was beginning. Would you be inter ested to know the text of that experience? ... Is it interesting? ... As for me, I have nothing to say. I have nothing to say, things are going on .... It's difficult. Yes. But anyway ... Pavitra has remained here, not at all mingled; now and then, wholly conscious, otherwise very tranquil. It's good - not a hindrance, you understand .... Now and then, he

November 1, 1969 (The conversation begins with a record delay of an hour and a half) It's becoming a bit difficult .... What do you have to tell me? ... Your last meeting with A.R.? He didn't tell you anything? He remains as he is. He said, "Id rather get killed on the spotthan change my policy"! And in the same breath, he says, "I want to find, I want to find, and if I don't find, it means the Divine doesn't want me to." So he wants to find, but doesn't want to change .... I'll tell you something .... The last time he came, I had him sit down and I thought, "We'll see." I started the meditation as usual, it was very good and he received - the