August 20, 1969 (The Vatican disciple has arrived in Pondicherry) I saw PL.... There are two things, first a personal one, then a moregeneral one. He said the last time he saw you, after leaving you he went to the Samadhi, and there he suddenly had an extremely sharp pain in the lower abdomen. But he said it was very strange because it didn't feel like an ordinary pain: it didn't stop him from walk ing about, but it remained centered there - a sharp pain. Page 295 As for me, I am afraid those people there may have cast a spell on him. You think it's that? ... I don't know; when he said that, I felt itwas one of the lower "centers" that was tou

December 27, 1969 Do you have anything to say? ... I am so immersed in so many practical or material things .... (Mother laughs) One feels a bit swallowed up in Matter ... no? These last few days, I've rather had the impression of being surrounded by a TOTAL incomprehension - but I'm used to that! But it had become so acute; I've received questions, reproaches, anyway, all kinds of things .... It was like a spirit of incomprehension rising up everywhere, and I felt it was rising deliberately because the time had come to do something .... "Why is this done? Why is that done? Why are things like this? ..." And most of the time, based on tendentious information or incorr

January 15, 1969 (After the visit of an "Acharya," or Jain master, who came surrounded with his disciples.) He tried every way to make me talk! I refused. I had never seen them, with their mouths covered [[Jain sadhus or monks cover their mouths with a patch of cloth so as not to swallow microbes. ]] - it doesn't stop them from talking! It seems he said yesterday (he came yesterday) that he hadn't yet begun his sadhana, that he was going round India and would begin his sadhana afterwards .... He asked me for a message; I didn't tell him anything, but inwardly I said to him, "Be sincere, be sincere ...." But I didn't speak. He even tried flattery, but it didn't w

December 3, 1969 Every day there are two girls (almost every day) who ask me questions, and I answer them. Some answers would be really interesting to have .... I don't know what I should do to get them. Naturally, they're personal questions, but I answer in a general way. It's beginning to rise. The effect of this new Consciousness (it's taken a year) is that things are beginning to rise. *** (Then, regarding the forthcoming "Notes on the Way" in whichMother speaks of her experience of the supramental Consciousness-the conversation of November 19.) What I said about the supramental consciousness, is it clear? I think it's very clear! Because whe

May 10, 1969 What's new? Nothing, Mother. Page 173 You know, it's like a stick stirring a pond: everything is coming up ... one thing after another, everywhere, in the whole country a rottenness. As if everything, but everything were exposed. (silence) People write to me ... Previously, all kinds of things were going on downstairs [in the Ashram's offices]; people would speak with Amrita and they would "sort it out"; now, they're writing to me! ... I've just heard a load of it, you know ... (gesture like a truckload being dumped). I did have a kind of sensation that things weren't right, but I'd never have thought they were like that. And how are You? Fine, Mot

October 1, 1969 Did F tell you what the healer said to her? ... They met yesterday or the day before, and he "confessed" to her. He told her he came to India in the hope of finding a place where he could be left alone for a few weeks or even a few months, because he has found the way of healing everything, except a hernia he has, and he would like to be left alone so as to find a way to cure his hernia. Then F told him, "But you can be left alone right here." He replied, "Oh, but if I am asked to cure, I can't refuse." So it might be better to stop sending him people ... but he would have to move to a new house and be alone somewhere. He should be asked if it's all right with him. Thi

May 24, 1969 It's difficult .... The English would say, it's not a joke .... Everything, everything is getting disorganized, everything is disorganized. It's easy to see that it's getting disorganized TOWARDS a higher organization, that is, a broadening, a liberation - that's true ... but nothing, nothing at all is working in the ordinary way any longer. So the body can no longer eat, can no longer ... Sleep, of course, for a long time there hasn't been any ordinary sleep (I don't regret it), but everything, just everything is like this (gesture of upheaval). (long silence) It's a very strange sensation: no relationship remains as it was before. Nothing: neither of the body with it

March 8, 1969 There's a note from Monsignor R. [[P.L.'s friend. P.L. is the disciple in the Roman Curia. ]] First he asks, "May I request you to ask Mother to assist me these next few weeks in a special way? ... Does he believe in it?! Yes, he does! Page 82 Bah! ... Do you have his photo? Not here. Did you show it to me already? ... Yes, then it's all right, it's useful to establish the contact. Then he sends another note. In Rome they had the visit of Swami Z, and our friend P.L. had lunch with him (because they took the Swami to see the Pope, he had an audience with the Pope), they had lunch together and, writes Msgr. R., "The Swami

May 7, 1969 (Mother remains in meditation for a long time) This Consciousness has started working in people's vital beings. Have you noticed? Some people had big vital difficulties - it's beginning to work in them. It's quite unexpected for me. You haven't noticed? Page 172 I have an impression that it's more easy, that difficulties are less violent-that one has a greater mastery, if you like. That's my impression. (Mother nods her head silence) And it's taken it into its head to compel me to concern myself with politics, and that bothers me. But if the time has come ... I have the impression that just as it has tried, not exactly to dissolve relig

March 19, 1969 (Mother listens to the English translation of the conversation of February 15 - "These cells, other cells, it was life everywhere, consciousness everywhere ..." - for "Notes on the Way," then remarks in English:) It's just like the bark of something! ... Too bad! *** Soon afterwards Oh, you know, it's really amusing! It [this Consciousness] has started telling me ... It's constantly giving lessons to the body - not mental lessons: how the body is beginning to live, see, understand .... It's odd. There had always been a question mark .... We can conceive that in the supermind, procreation will be unnecessary, because life on earth will