July 30, 1969 (The "healer" referred to in this conversation will often recur inthis Agenda, and will play a decisive role in Satprem's life, in the sense that through a sort of reductio ad absurdum, he will make Satprem suddenly understand who Mother really is.) Have you heard of that healer? ... Someone has written from France, the son of a farmer (I think), anyhow not an intellectual in the least, who by accident became aware that his hands have a healing power. So he writes a very long letter narrating all he did, how he developed himself, and so on, until he came across your book; [[Sri Aurobindo or the Adventure of Consciousness. ]] and when he read your book, for him it

October 12, 1969 (From Satprem to Mother) (The full text of the following letter regrettably disappeared, onlythe last part of it was found. The healer told Satprem that what he found near Mother was "the same thing" as elsewhere, the same immutable, eternal, changeless "That." Satprem tried hard to make the healer feel that there was nevertheless something else near Mother-perhaps because it was the very question that troubled him - and in his letter he asked Mother if he did well to write thus to the healer.) "... your journey in India. I pray from the bottom of my heart that you may not pass it by. In your solitary retreat, I hope you will be able to o

July 19, 1969 (Mother was strongly shaken on Wednesday the 16th and could not see Satprem.) They have mixed me up (in Delhi and here) in all their political affairs ... "mixed me up," I mean they're asking for my help. Some people are discontented and without scruples, and there was some mischief (on Wednesday, when I couldn't see you). I realized it afterwards. But it's troublesome. I haven't told anyone what it was. It was an incredible affair ... with no cause, no reason, [[Violent vomiting, probably the result of some magic. ]] and when I looked, I saw where it came from. Anyway, I was in no condition to see anyone. That's troublesome. It's about their politi

February 12, 1969 (A note from Satprem to Mother) Sweet Mother, I would have like to under stand what your look was saying this morning .... With love S. (Mother's answer overleaf) I would rather not write it. M. Page 63

November 26, 1969 (The whole time is spent in meditation.) Nothing to say ... Every time I try to look at something, it goes away like this (gesture into the infinite). (Mother goes off into meditation again) Did you feel anything particular yesterday [at the darshan]? I felt it wasn't quite as usual, but I don't know what. In the morning, I had the experience of an awesome Force which came, weighing on all things. That's also what others felt the whole day long. A force ... most people told me, "A joyous force." But as Page 451 for me, when I went there [to the balcony], the difference was that the body was more conscious of ... its state of tran

April 9, 1969 How are you? Ah, it's better. Yes, since last time, I've felt an improvement. Oh, good. I think that's what was affecting me for the past year [i.e., those occult schemings]. Because it was always at night that those headaches and eyeaches used to come-always. At night ... it's disgusting! I think I could resume my work, couldn't I? No hurry. Do you have some news? There's a question Id like to tell you about. It's about the publication of Sri Aurobindo's books in France. You know that we sent The Synthesis of Yoga and The Human Cycle. [[Sent to Fayard publishers. ]] The woman who looks after those publications hasn't reacted very

February 15, 1969 Just one thing, this atmosphere, this [superman] Consciousness is very active, and active like a mentor, as I already told you. And it's going on. One of these last few mornings, for a few hours early in the morning, it was ... Never, never had the body been so happy! It was the complete Presence, absolute freedom, and a certitude: these cells, other cells (gesture here and there showing other bodies), it didn't matter, it was life everywhere, consciousness everywhere. Absolutely wonderful. It came effortlessly, and it left simply because ... I was too busy. It doesn't come at will - what comes at will is what we might call a "copy": it looks like it, but it's

July 26, 1969 (Mother wants to revise with Satprem a few passages of her translation of 'Savitri.') But now I've come to notice that they cut these quotations, they leave out two lines in the middle - suddenly I'll say to myself, "But it doesn't hang together!" I'll ask, and F. tells me, "Yes, they left out one line, two lines ...." So what's to be done? It's absurd. Here, all this is ready. I don't need to see it again: it's for you to see it. It's my translation. What should I do? (Laughing) See if my translation is good! But Mother, listen ... why? No, because some things might be put in a better way. Yes, but I'm wary. You know, I have

June 25, 1969 (For some time Mother's health has been very upset. Most ofher recent meetings with Satprem were spent in silent contemplation.) ... Then there is little S.U. (do you know S.U.?), who isn't too happy with her work and asked me if I couldn't help her make some progress. So I told her, "Read Satprem's book ...." She started reading Satprem's book. She told me "If I don't understand something, what do I do?" I said, "If you can't understand, ask me." So yesterday, she quoted a bit of a sentence to me (you know how they do: they take a bit of a sentence and ask you, "Whatever does this mean?!"). I answered. It was a sentence in which it was said that there were two "p

December 10, 1969 (Mother first writes at one go a message for the start of the new school year.) One must have lived what one wants to teach. To speak of the new consciousness, let it penetrate you and reveal Page 465 its secrets to you. For only then will you be able to speak of it with competence. * To leap into the new consciousness, the first condition is a mental modesty sufficient to be convinced that all one thinks one knows is nothing in comparison with what remains to be learned. All that one has learned externally must be only a foothold enabling one to rise towards higher knowledge. ***