Diary Surgery Day- Sept. 28, 1998-9 11:37 a.m. As I look back in remembrance of the manifold gifts you have given me - the birthday surprises so rich with the fullness of your love and your happy offering, I bathed in the light of your joyous wishes for days and weeks afterwards. I have treasured most, however, your quiet goodwill and aspiration for all that would be best for me. You have always sacrificed yourself for me, for Chali, for others, and in these last severe and painful days still were able to remind me

New Year's Eve – 1963 Anne and I, accompanied by John Herbie Nunnally, took the Staten Island Ferry after 11:00 p.m. and passed the lighted Statue of Liberty.  We returned on the same ferry and stepped onto Manhattan Island at the stroke of 12:00.   This evening is most significant because Anne and I have received a card from Divine Mother wishing us a Happy New Year and  Merry Christmas and sending us love and blessings. New Year's Day January 1, 1964, the three of us went to Old Tappan where I found a lovely card from Jyotipriya waiting for me and also

Nolini On My Birthday July 29, 1979 When I entered his room he broke into a smile of deep tenderness and said to me: "Richard". A few hours have now passed and I have had a little time to reflect on the love and sweetness he has bestowed on me , though, as I always felt with Mother, a lifetime would be needed to fully absorb such a force. His using my former name has made a profound impression. I felt something in it of the timeless friendship of an elder brother for a younger, for almost all my inner experiences except for Arindam,

Diary Surgery Day- Sept. 28, 1998-11 12:10 p.m. The doctor enters with a sadness and compassion that must be his nature's path, facing death so often each day. He apologizes that he has to bring me this news and tells me that the colon cancer involves many organs and is terminal. He has removed both ovaries which also were cancerous, disconnected the gall bladder and did by-passes to relieve the blockage. If nothing had been done he estimated my beloved would have lived only three more weeks, with the bypasses she could s

Diary Surgery Day- Sept. 28, 1998-7 11:20 a.m. I have placed your chain and the golden pendant of the symbols of Mother and Sri Aurobindo in my wallet on top of the blessings packet with the photo of Mother's feet which is so special to me. This and your wedding ring I will put on you at the first opportunity. You said that you would have worn all the jewels I had bought for you these years but they would have weighed you down too much in the hospital. However much you treasure them, they were only my falteringand ina

Savitri Diary December 13, 2001 Sleep is a sometime thing, fugitive and erratic. Digestion is poor with bloating and some discomfort of cramping. Blood pressure is on the high side. All points to the necessity of going deeper within, remaining undisturbed by the exigencies of the current situation with Mary Helen's cancer so that I may become a more receptive instrument. The repetition of the Name progresses in the heart and now much of the day and night it is present, reverberating in the being.

Gratitude November - March 2004 How grateful this soul for the privilege of these months in the concentrated force of the Ashram. I walk in humility through the streets, greeted by disciples, uplifted and blessed at each moment. The pruning of the Service Tree, always a darshan for me, has been completed and I feel its joy in the outburst of its green leaves, its healthy branches free of all stubs, all dead branches having been removed, and the first buds preparing for a glorious bloom which I will not see with these eyes but will flower in my heart.