Diary Surgery Day- Sept. 28, 1998-6 11:04 a.m. Some hours ago I placed your wedding ring over the tip of my small finger, forcing it down to barely cover the nail so that it would seat firmly, perhaps throb a little so that my lips, in synchronicity to my pulse's rhythm might repeat the japa of Mother's name. How shall I measure the magnitude of my love for thee? Sun and stars are but footsteps away when I compare the vastness of my love for thee. In thy state of Gra

Tehmi and Plants and Animals 2005 On this day in 1961 I arrived in Pondicherry for the first time and was welcomed taken in by Dayabhai at the old Parc a Charbon guest house. On the morning of the 24th I had my first darshan of the Mother. I have spent the last two hours with Tehmiben, reading Savitri and speaking of our lives in the Ashram. She told me all about her childhood in Bhopal, her father who was a fair tennis player and the chief surgeon of the area, in charge of a large hospital for many years, and of her mother who never left her children alone and would often tell them the same. She spoke of her years in school in Bombay and how

Prayer to the Lord Jan 30, 2002 We pray, not to the One who is far from us, because He is ever close and seated behind the heart, but because we aspire to keep present in the outer consciousness the unity and identification that is fully alive within. In prayer we build the bridge between our secret self, ever awake, and the dimly conscious mind and life-force. Opening slowly and late to the radiant Presence within, around, above, beneath and within, we are given glimpses of a Sun of Truth too powerful to be

A Conversation with Bharati Reddy and Sunanda July 2004 Bharati told me about a lady who had made a garment for Mother. It is on display at Srismriti, the collection of Mother's personal items cared for by Sunanda. Bharati remembered Mother saying to keep this very carefully as the person took Her name with each stitch. I spoke also with Sunanda who told me that this lady always wanted to give things to Mother and Sri Aurobindo and had sent a fine dhoti to Sri Aurobindo but it was not nicely wrapped so she took two ribbons and wove them with the gold threads from the bott

Bharati Reddy Diary 2004 Bharati is such a loving sister. We first met during the last years Tehmi was with us. She had been Tehmi's close friend for forty years. We often play Scrabble together with Jagruti and I was frequently invited to breakfast or lunch or dinner for delicious meals prepared by her and Lavonia. The other night when I was ill she came to my room expressing deep concern for me and such sincere love for Mother. She would often tell me about Mother and how She guided her fin all things from her youth. I felt her love for

Attachment and Order Diary 5/13/03 I dreamt last night. In the early morning I awoke from a dream in which I was sobbing uncontrollably asking my father, who was standing there, did he not know how much I loved him? And then Mother gave me the insight and the realization of attachment that has shadowed me all these years, first with my father and others, now with Mary Helen. In that moment I solemnly vowed to Mother that I would break all attachments except to the Divine, enabling me to move forward on the path. "Do not cling to the past" She said, and this I must