June 5, 1968 I have a question about P.L. There are two new facts. First, afew years ago, P. L. was in touch with an extremely rich Ameri can woman, whom he helped. That woman is very grateful to P. L. and would like to give him one million dollars for a charity. That would come in handy! Yes, but she's very Catholic. That was at a time when P.L. was in orders. Page 155 Is she Catholic? Yes, she's even very pious. A nice woman, it seems. So P. L. asksif he shouldn't try to explain to her what he's doing here, to send her a few of your books and see how it acts. It might make her turn to something more interesting? Isn't she a woman who wants "

June 29, 1968 Did you get any news from P.L.? I got a letter in which he said he'd arrived and was beingurgently summoned to the Vatican at 10 A M. the same day. He didn't say anything. There's been no letter since. Yes, in other words he hasn't told the result, he hasn't said anything about it. And as if by chance, Msgr. R. left for Spain the day P.L. arrived. He didn't meet him. I don't believe in chance. * * * Later It's a continuous experience, day and night, and so crowded, so intense that ... it's impossible to describe. It's as if I were making a discovery every minute. (long silence) Every minute a discovery. You know, an absolutely a

November 27, 1968 (Mother has a severe cold. In fact, she has been in the same painful curve since July.) What you said last time could perhaps be used for theFebruary Bulletin? It seems very important.... I don't remember at all. You touched the "central experience" of the transformation. Oh, that's right. It's going on.... The body has the impression that it's beginning to understand. For it, naturally, there are no thoughts at all - none at all; but it's states of consciousness. States of consciousness complementing one another, replacing one another.... To such a point that the body wonders how one can know with thought; for it, the only way of knowing, the o

January 6, 1968 I wanted to show you something, then I forgot. Maybe you've seen it? It's something I am supposed to have said to M. years ago, many years ago, about Savitri; he noted it down in French, and quite recently (that is, perhaps three or four weeks ago), he showed me what he had noted.... And as it happens, he showed it not only to me but to others (!). They've translated it into English and now they want me to read it aloud so they can play it at the Playground. I wanted to revise the French with you, but they want it in English. The English isn't too good, but that doesn't matter.... They are all enthusiastic and happy - as for me, I don't like it, because the form of it is

December 28, 1968 (After listening to the music composed by Sunil for the New Year.) Did you like it? It's very beautiful, very powerful. Isn't it! And it creates an atmosphere. Usually I play some music for him, and he composes from it, but this time I didn't play, so he took some old pieces of mine; with that he makes contact and composes. An American musician has come here, and I sent him to Sunil (he's a pianist). He said he'd heard some of Sunil's music there, in America, and at first people are a bit bewildered, but that when they've heard it several times, they become quite enthusiastic. As for me, I find it creates an atmosphere: it BRINGS DOWN an atmosphe

February 10, 1968 (Mother uses an English word for a French one.) Strangely, the English word now comes to me more easily than the French one. I know very well why: it's because in that part I am constantly in contact with Sri Aurobindo, so when I need a word, it's in his storehouse that I find it! Whereas with me, here (gesture to the forehead), it's becoming quite fine ... very fine! * * * (Regarding the crush in the Ashram and around Mother.) It's absolutely obvious, absolutely indisputable that all this, that is, all the circumstances of life, all that happens, has been willed, decided on, organized. And it's the best possible training for the body. It's to give it thr

M u t t e r s . A g e n d a   Bd 11 - 21. März 1970 21. März 1970 (Der Anfang dieses Gesprächs fand in Anwesenheit von Nolini und auf englisch statt.) Hast du die Aphorismen von gestern erhalten?... Vielleicht kann dir Nolini etwas dazu sagen ... 407 - Ich bin kein Bhakta [einer, der dem Weg der Liebe zum Göttlichen folgt], denn ich habe der Welt nicht für Gott entsagt. Wie kann ich dem entsagen, was Er mir gewaltsam genommen und mir gegen meinen Willen zurückgegeben hat? Das ist zu schwer für mich. (Mutter lacht) Nun fragt mich T, was Sri Aurobindo damit sagen will. Und dann ist da noch ein anderer Aphorismus. 411 - Sobald ich wußte, daß Gott eine Frau war ... (Lachen) v

M u t t e r s . A g e n d a   Bd 11 - 14. Oktober 1970 14. Oktober 1970 Beim Ordnen von Papieren fand ich dies. Ich weiß nicht, was es ist. (Satprem liest) Meine Haare sind nicht gefärbt. Dies ist ihre natürliche Farbe außer einer leichten rötlichen Tönung, die von einer Lotion aus Panamaholz stammt, die ich beim Haarewaschen benutze. Wenn ich früher ausging, benetzte ich meine Lippen mit Rosenwasser, damit sie nicht aufspringen, und trug Sumo (Puder aus verbrannten Perlen) auf die Lider auf, damit Sonne und Staub sie nicht irritierten. Haut und Kopf zu pflegen ist genauso wenig eine künstliche Verstellung wie das Zähneputzen. Wenn eine "Sadhika" [Schülerin] Muße und Lust daz

M u t t e r s . A g e n d a   Bd 11 - 11. Februar 1970 11. Februar 1970 (Mutter hustet, ihre Stimme ist sehr schwach) Es geht nicht. Unmöglich zu sprechen. Hast du den Aphorismus erhalten? 325 - "Freiheit, Gleichheit, Brüderlichkeit" riefen die französischen Revolutionäre aus, aber in Wirklichkeit wurde nur die Freiheit sowie eine geringe Dosis an Gleichheit in die Tat umgesetzt; was die Brüderlichkeit betrifft, so hat sich nur die Brüderlichkeit Kains etabliert ... und die von Barabbas. Manchmal wird sie "Trust" oder "Kartell" oder gelegentlich "Europa-Rat" genannt. 326 - Die fortschrittlichen Denker Europas rufen aus: "Da die Freiheit gescheitert ist, versuchen wir es doch mit

M u t t e r s . A g e n d a   Bd 11 - 29. April 1970 29. April 1970 (Seit dem Darshan am 24. April hatte Mutter mehrere Herzanfälle. Am vorigen Samstag konnte Satprem sie nicht sehen.) Der Tag des Darshans wurde für die Übertragung des Herzens gewählt. Ich dachte, ich könnte nicht hinaus auf den Balkon gehen. Aber ich bin trotzdem gegangen. Und dann am nächsten Morgen ... (Mutter war sehr angegriffen) Und es ist noch nicht vorbei. Interessant. Nichts Erfreuliches zu berichten. Und du, hast du Fragen? Ich frage mich: Wenn diese Übertragung im einen oder anderen Teil des Wesens stattfindet, verändert sich dann nicht nur das Bewußtsein sondern auch etwas in der Substanz? Das vo