October 15, 1960 I see Z every day, yet he asked me, 'Why do you do nothing for me?'!! 'Each time you come here,' I told him, 'I am NECESSARILY doing something for you, it cannot be otherwise!' But since it's just a part of his work,' it doesn't count! Of course, I don't say, 'All right, now let's meditate! ...' So on his birthday I'll have to sit down and tell him, 'Now we are going to meditate' - that way he'll feel sure. What childishness! It's so funny - the thing in itself doesn't exist for people. What's important to them is their attitude towards the thing, what they think of it. How odd! Each thing carries within itself its own truth - its absolute truth, so luminous

January 27, 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, January 27, 1959 Sweet Mother, So X will to do a special work for you for eleven days, and if at the end of this period the suffering still persists, he will send me to Pondicherry to deliver something directly into your hands. I, too, would like very much to do something to alleviate your suffering. By a special grace, X gave me both stages of the tantric initiation at the same time, although they are normally separated by several years; then if all goes well, he will give me the full initiation in 6 months. I have thus received a mantra, along with the power of realizing it. X told me that a realization sho

November 13, 1957 Widen yourself as far as the extreme bounds of the universe - and beyond. Take upon yourself always all the necessities of progress and dissolve them in the ecstasy of Unity. Then you will be divine. Page 115 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

June 4, 1960 (The disciple complains of his bad nights) If you wake up tired in the morning, it is due to tamas, nothing else - a dreadful mass of tamas. I became aware of this when I started doing the yoga of the body. And it's inevitable as long as the body is not transformed. Myself, I go to bed very early, at eight o'clock. It's still quite noisy everywhere, but I don't mind; at least I'm sure of no longer being disturbed. First you must stretch out flat and relax all your muscles, all your nerves - you can learn this easily - become like a 'dishrag' on the bed, as I call it; there should be nothing left. And if you can also do that with the mind, you get rid of a lot of idiotic

April 26, 1960 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, April 26, 1960 Sweet Mother, There are days when everything is so simple, when I see and feel that all one needs is to let oneself be carried - and everything is light. I have really to be done with this 'me'. It will be a joy to be with you again and resume the work. Here, I am sparing as many hours as I can to correcting The Human Cycle ... I follow X perfectly in his inner life, unreservedly, but I have to force myself to follow him in his outer life. Mother, I am at your feet, with my love and my gratitude. Your child, Signed: Satprem Page 365 May 6, 1960 At times I sense there's an extrao

September 1958 (Fragment of a conversation concerning the translation into French of Sri Aurobindo's aphorism:' ... Knowledge is so much of the truth, seen in a distorted medium, as the mind arrives at by groping; Wisdom what the eye of divine vision sees in the spirit.' Page 190 Mother compares the Truth to a pure white light, then continues:) ... But this white, precisely, is composed of all the colors. So when you perceive a thing, instead of seeing it as white, there are a certain number of colors that completely elude your perception: you see red, green, yellow, blue or something else, but it does not make white because some colors are missing. This is a

November 5, 1960 These things from the past ... it's rather odd - now, once they come and I've spoken of them, they get erased. As if they were returning one last time to say goodbye before going for good. All these 'memories' (actually they're rather pictures) seem to be coming forward to show themselves with all the knowledge, truth and HELP they represent; they come to say, 'There! You see, this is the origin of that' - a whole curve. Then once I've seen it, it's gone. One day, as an experiment, I tried to remember something from the past, for I was interested in what it contained; I tried - impossible! It had been cleaned out, it was gone. So I understood that these things c

April 21, 1959 Above, beginning with the center between the eyebrows, the work has been done for a long time. There it is blank. For ages upon ages upon ages, the union with the Supreme has been realized and is constant. Below this center is the body. And this body has indeed the concrete sensation of the Divine in each of its cells; but it needs to become universalized. That's the work to be done, center by center. I understand now what Sri Aurobindo meant when he repeatedly insisted, 'Widen yourself.' All this must be universalized; it is the condition, the basis, for the Supramental to descend into the body. According to the ancient traditions, this universalization of the

January 1959 O mon doux Seigneur, Toi seul, Tu es grand, Toi seul, Tu vois grand, Toi seul peux me conduire là où je veux aller. (translation) O my sweet Lord, You alone, You vastly are, You alone, You vastly see, You alone can lead me there where I want to go. 1. Original English. Page 343 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

March (?) 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem concerning the tantric initiation that Mother wished to see X give to two other disciples at the Ashram) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, I spoke to X about the initiations. He told me that he also had seen only two people (when he said 'seen,' I do not think he meant physically). He said that many people would be very eager but rare were those in whom you could have full trust - and perhaps they have reached a stage where it would be difficult for them to submit to the discipline of initiation. I asked him his feeling about this morning's Darshan. He answered implying, 'I have already, in a few seconds, given my feeling to M