April 20, 1960 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, April 20, 1960 Sweet Mother, ... ... ... ... I was pained and shocked upon reaching X's place to see him in such a horrible house - a train station in miniature (and not as nice) with little pastries in garish yellow cement. Cement everywhere - they even cemented the patio and uprooted the beautiful tree that was there. O Mother, it's vandalism, it's barbaric! You cannot imagine! Really, M has committed a terrible sin. To compensate for that, however, I had the joy of finding your two letters. Yes, for some time I have been feeling your physical Presence more clearly. But then, why am I so blocked, where is the fl

October 19, 1960 (The day before 'Kali Puja,' the ritual festival devoted each year in India to the goddess Kali, the warrior aspect of the universal Mother) She has already been here for two days and ... Oh, yesterday especially, she was so ... in such a mood! - like a warrior. I said to her, 'But why not change them through ... through an excess of love?' So then she answered (I remember how she put it), 'First a good punch in the chest (she didn't say 'in the nose'!), a good punch in the chest, and then when they're down, gasping for air, they're ready.' That's one opinion! ** (Concerning a tantric) Those people deny the reality of all physical need

Undated 1958 When you are exteriorized during sleep and conscious in the vital world, you can live a vital life as conscious as the physical life. I have known people who had this capacity and who were so intensely interested in their experiences in the vital world that they returned only with regret to their bodies. If you are conscious and master of yourself in the vital world and if you possess a certain power there, the circumstances are marvelous, infinitely more varied and more beautiful than in the physical world. Page 223 Suppose, for example, that you are very tired and need to rest. If you know how to exteriorize yourself and consciously enter into the vital world, y

November 11, 1958 (Mother arrives with a new change in her message for January 1, 1959: instead of 'an almighty spring that cast me up forth with into a formless, limitless Vast, generator of the new world,' Mother puts 'a formless, limitless Vast vibrating with the seeds of a new world') The objectification of the experience came progressively, as always happens to me. When I have the experience, I am absolutely 'blank,' like a newborn baby to whom things come just 'like that.' I don't know what is happening, and I expect nothing. How much time it has taken me to learn this! There is no preliminary thought, preliminary knowledge, preliminary will: all thos

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   Undated_1958 Undated 1958 For me, the subtle physical is far more real than this distorted world, but to see it you have to be conscious there, whereas people want to get effects which give them the impression of the marvelous and the miraculous and they want the subtle physical to become visible in the material world IN SPITE OF the falsehood. What makes the great difference for the ordinary physical consciousness is this: it wants to come into contact with that in spite of the falsehood, whereas the universal law is, get out of the falsehood and that will become true for you. For me, this subtle world is far more real than the material world - much truer, much more tang

Undated Ô Divine Lumière, Réalité supramentale, avec cette nourriture, pénètre le corps totalement, entre dans toutes les cellules, installe-Toi dans tous les atomes; que tout devienne parfaitement sincère et réceptif, libre de tout ce qui fait obstacle à ta manifestation, en somme ouvre à Toi toutes les parties de mon corps qui ne sent pas déjà Toi-même. ** (translation) O Divine Light, Supramental Reality, with this food imbue the body fully, enter into all the cells, come into every atom; may all become perfectly sincere and receptive free from all that creates an obstacle to your manifestation in short open unto Yourself all the pa

February 15, 1958 Last night, I had the vision of what this supramental world could become if men were not sufficiently prepared. The confusion existing at present upon earth is nothing in comparison to what could take place. Imagine that every powerful will has the power to transform matter as it likes! If the sense of collective oneness did not grow in proportion to the development of power, the resulting conflict would be yet more acute and chaotic than our material conflicts. Page 147 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

August 7, 1958 It is very difficult to manage both at the same time: the transformation of the body and taking care of people. But what can I do? I told Sri Aurobindo I would do the work, and I am doing it - I cannot just abandon everything. When I think of the time the hatha yogis devote to the work on the body - they do nothing but that; they do nothing but that all the time, until they have attained a certain point. This is in fact the reason why Sri Aurobindo wanted none of it: he found that it took a lot of time for a rather meager result. ** Day and night, I am investigating all that has to be transformed ... I can assure you that there is plenty of work! Last night, I

March 14, 1952 Since the beginning of the earth wherever and whenever there was the possibility of manifesting a ray of consciousness, I was there.' Page 28 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

April 9, 1957 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, April 9, 1957 Mother, I would like to throw myself at your feet and open my heart to you - but I cannot. I cannot. For I SEE that, were I to give in now, I would be done for - there would be no alternative but to live out the rest of my days in the Ashram. But everything in me rebels at this idea. The idea of winding up as General Secretary of the Ashram, like Pavitra, makes my skin crawl. It is absurd, and I apologize for speaking this way, Mother, for I admire Pavitra - but I can't help it, I can't do it, I do not want to end up like that. Page 100 For more than a year now, I have been hypnotized by the idea