Undated 1958 (Concerning one of her commentaries on the Dhammapada, in the chapter 'The Thousand,' Mother remarks:) All this seems quite dogmatic. Each time, only ONE aspect of the question is considered, whereas to be truly accurate, EVERYTHING would have to be said. It should be emphasized that this is only ONE point of view and that there are also all the others. But people ... that swamps them! They don't like it, they are happier when they can cling to something solid. Page 153 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

February 3, 1958 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, February 3, 1958 Sweet Mother, What you told me today at noon has left me stunned. I had decided to have my own way, but now I pray to be true. I would like to tell you that 'I am staying,' very simply, for something in me wants this, but I am afraid to make a decision that I may not be able to keep. A force other than mine is needed. In short, you have to do the willing for me, to utter a word that would help me understand truly that I must stay here. Grant me the grace of helping and enlightening me. I would like to decide without preference, in obedience to the sole Truth and in accordance with my real possib

Undated June 1960 (Letter from Mother to Satprem) Monday morning My dear little child, I have something interesting to tell you that happened Friday night. It cannot be written down. I shall tell you tomorrow. But it seemed to me that you should feel a little better after that. Tomorrow at 10. My love watches over you. Signed: Mother Page 382 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

End March (?) 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, Your letter this morning touched me. I keep repeating now, several times a day, that it is an enemy, the enemy. I am your child, Sweet Mother, and I want this crisis to be THE LAST. With love. Signed: Satprem Page 291 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

October 15, 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Rameswaram, October 15, 1959 Sweet Mother, Here are two or three things that might interest you: 1) X spoke to me again of the war without my asking anything. He repeated, 'There will be war,' and he again spoke of an attack on India by China ... 2) X spoke to me of the Ashram's financial difficulties and said 'I shall tell you the secret why there are such difficulties.' I think he is going to speak to me today or tomorrow. In any case, he told me that he was working ('I am preparing' ... ) to change these conditions, and he asked me if there had been any improvement as yet. I replied that I did not believe the situa

November 22, 1958 Even at a very young age, I had a kind of intuition of my destiny. I felt that something in me had to be exhausted, or that I had to exhaust myself. I don't know, as though I had to descend into the depths of the night to find the thing. I thought it was the concen tration camps. Perhaps this was still not deep enough ... Do you see any meaning in all this? Page 240 It can hardly be formulated; these are merely impressions that follow one another. I know that when you thought of leaving with Swami,' I saw that a door was opening, that it was the truth, that this was IT. My immediate impression was that you were being put

August 10, 1956 My Lord, through me thou hast challenged the world and all the adverse forces have risen in protest.3 But Thy Grace is winning the victory. Page 85 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

July 29, 1956 O Thou who art always there - present in all I do, all I am - not for repose do I aspire, but for THY INTEGRAL VICTORY. Page 85 ISBN 2-902776-33-0

September 3, 1955 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, September 3, 1955 Mother, it seems that for weeks I have been knocking against myself at every turn, as though I were in a prison, and I cannot get out of it. Mother, I need your Space, your Light, to get out of this walled-in night that is suffocating me. No matter where I concentrate, in my heart, above my head, between my eyes, I bang everywhere into an unyielding wall; I no longer know which way to turn, what I must do, say, pray in order to be freed from all this at last. Mother, I know that I am not making all the effort I should, but help me to make this effort, I implore your grace. I need so much to find

February 1951 (Note written by hand two months after Sri Aurobindo's departure) The lack of the earth's receptivity and the behavior of Sri Aurobindo's disciples' are largely responsible for what happened to his body. But one thing is certain: the great misfortune that has just beset us in no way affects the truth of his teaching. All he said is perfectly true and remains so. Time and the course of events will make this abundantly clear. Page 27