October 17, 1958 (Mother brings with her the continuation of the first seven Sutras written by Her, probably in 1957.') They are in two groups. The first group ends with a helping hand to those who have made the wrong choice (!): 7) But even in the event you have not made the irrevocable decision at the outset, should you have the good fortune to live during one of these unimaginable hours of universal history when the Grace is present, embodied upon earth, It will offer you, at certain exceptional moments, the renewed possibility of making a final choice that will lead you straight to the goal. That was the message of hope. And then it continues (Mother reads):

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   January_1959 January 1959 Ô seigneur, qu'il est doux d'avoir besoin de Toi! ... (translation) O Lord, how sweet it is to need You! ... Page 344 Home ISBN 2-902776-33-0

June 6, 1958 It's all the same thing, but the word realization can be reserved for something that is durable, that does not wear off. Because everything on earth fades away - everything fades away, nothing remains. In this sense, there has never been any realization, for everything fades away. Nothing is ever permanent. And I know for myself: I am doing the sadhana at a gallop, as it were; never are two experiences identical nor do they recur in the same way. As soon as something is established, the next thing begins immediately. It may appear to fade away, but it doesn't fade away; rather, it is the basis upon which the next thing is built. ** This morning while I was on the ba

July (?) 1958 Why, by what mechanism, do mental formulations dissipate an experience and make it lose the major part of its power of action on the consciousness? Suppose, for example, you want to undo a wrong movement and, as the result of a grace, the Force is sent for this purpose and begins acting upon the consciousness. Then if you pull it towards you, as it were, to try to formulate it, naturally you deconcentrate it, disperse and dissipate it. Page 184 But that's not all; the simple fact of speaking to another person automatically opens you to all that can come from that person. An exchange always takes place. His curiosity, his obscurity, his good or sometimes e

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   March_1959 March (?) 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, I recounted my dream of the titan to X and told him that this titan in the plane crash was not, or seemingly not, dead. He immediately replied, 'Yes, tomorrow he will be killed.' It is the last day of his Puja. I told X not to worry about the whole list of names, that you know them already, but that you had been intrigued by this reduced number of 7 people. He told me, 'They are the heads of departments.' ... ... ... .. . X (I forgot to tell you at the beginning of the letter) links the crashing of the titan to the fact that the globe of light has come back into your hands. P

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   March_1959 March (?) 1959 (Letter to Mother from Satprem concerning the  tantric initiation that Mother wished to see X  give to two other disciples at the Ashram) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, I spoke to X about the initiations. He told me that he also had seen only two people (when he said 'seen,' I do not think he meant physically). He said that many people would be very eager but rare were those in whom you could have full trust - and perhaps they have reached a stage where it would be difficult for them to submit to the discipline of initiation. I asked him his feeling about this morning's Darshan. He answered implying, 'I have already, in a few second

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   Undated_1956 Undated 1956  (f) (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry Sweet Mother, I feel it is good to tell you what happened within me yesterday evening during the distribution, if only to express my infinite gratitude. First of all, I began by feeling, perceiving in an absolutely obvious way, that it is you and you alone who has been doing my yoga, that you have been doing everything for me and that you have been there forever, guiding each one of my steps. I felt luminously that without you I would never have been able to go forward a single step and that, basically, all my efforts have served only to teach me the futility of my efforts, as it were, and to

October 28, 1956 (Letter to Mother from Satprem) Pondicherry, October 28, 1956 Sweet Mother, my birthday is the day after tomorrow, the 30th. I come to place my inner situation before you so that you may help me take a decision. I am facing the same difficulties as before my departure to Hyderabad, and I have made the same mistakes. The main reason for this state is that, on the one hand, words and ideas seem to have lost all power over me, and on the other, the vital elan which led me thus far is dead. So upon what shall my faith rest? I still have some faith, of course, but it has become totally ABSTRACT. The vital does not cooperate, so I feel all withered, suspended i

April 1954 (A few experiences of the body consciousness') With the same accuracy, one can say that all is divine or that nothing is divine. Everything depends upon the angle from which one looks at the problem. Likewise, it can be said that the divine is a perpetual becoming and yet also, that it is immutable for all eternity. To deny or affirm God's existence is equally true, but each is only partially true. It is by rising above both affirmation and negation that one may draw nearer the truth. It can further be said that whatever happens in the world is the result of divine will, but also that this will has to be expressed and manifested in a world that contradicts or defor

October 8, 1956 (At about 6 a.m., before Mother appeared on the balcony) 'Be always at the height of yourself, in all circumstances.' Then I wondered when and how I am at the height of myself. And this is what I saw: Two things which were parallel and concomitant - that is, they are always together: One - identity with the Origin, which imparts an absolute serenity and perfect detachment to the action. The other - identity with the supreme Grace, which obliterates and abolishes all errors committed in the action by whomsoever and whatsoever - and which annuls all the consequences of these errors. And the moment I perceived this, I saw that my third attitude