May 19, 1972 (Coincidentally, this conversation with Sujata took place exactly one year before Mother's last meeting with Satprem, on May 19, 1973. These last few days, transcriptions of some recordings made in Mother's room were on display in the showcase of SABDA, the book business. Sujata voices her surprise.) Page 187 How can this be, Mother? For so many years we have kept allyour recordings private and nobody knew anything, and now they are on public display - and in an incorrect transcription moreover. They don't listen to me. But, Mother, how did they get out of here? The Ashram no longer belongs to me. (Sujata, taken aback) I feet very distress

May 9, 1973 (Today Mother is very late, she has Satprem and Sujata called in before the other disciples. She immediately takes Satprem's hands. It is heartrending.) Something's wrong. Something's wrong. I see you.... Something's wrong. What's wrong, Mother? I feel like screaming.... But.... (silence) I am eating less and less, so I am constantly uncomfortable - and so weak! [[That day, I felt that the movement was going to accelerate and a time would come when a radically different way would have to be found-perhaps the supreme Pressure of death is necessary to release the "almighty powers shut in Nature's cells" that Sri Aurobindo mentions in Savitri? As though the

February 18, 1973 (Extracts from a meeting with the schoolteachers. One of them complains that the first signs of violence are showing up in the children.) Violence is necessary as long as men are ruled by their ego and its desires. But violence must be used only as a means of defense when you are attacked. The ideal towards which humanity is moving and which we want to realize is a state of luminous understanding in which each person's needs as well as the harmony of the whole are taken into account. The future will have no need of violence because it will be governed by the Divine Consciousness, in which all things are harmonized and complement each other. For the mom

January 19, 1972 Last time I told you I was looking for the twelve attributes (Mother takes out a sheet of paper). Here they are, someone found this. Sincerity Humility Gratitude Perseverance Aspiration Receptivity Progress Courage Goodness Generosity Equanimity Peace The first eight concern the attitude towards the Divine, and the last four towards humanity. And we also found a text from Sri Aurobindo (with a colored chart of the twelve petals): Centre and four powers, white. The twelve all of different color in three groups: top group red, passing to orange towards yel

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1972-03-29 March 29, 1972 (That same day, after Malraux, the conversation took a com pletely different turn, which is why we publish it separately,  although under the same date.) Page 109 I had a feeling I had something to give you.... Did they give you a tape-recording? ... I had said something to R. and to Sujata. Is it good? Yes, Mother, yes, it was good! We could perhaps publish it? It  was about the vision you had of your own transitional body. I simply wanted to make sure you had received it. [[Actually, Satprem was only given the recording with Sujata, not the other one. ]] Yes, Mother, it's extremely interesting.... Did you see anything

May 15, 1973 KRISHNA IN GOLD (A vision of Sujata's on the afternoon of May 15) (original English) A place similar to the Playground. A few people, here and there, are talking or going about. I am standing somewhere in the middle of the ground, in front of Mother's door. From the main gate enters a vehicle - half-cart half-cab - drawn by two bullocks. It comes to a stop a few feet away from me. The driver makes the bullocks kneel down. Out steps a gentleman. The cart is driven away. The gentleman is dressed in white, Indian-fashion (dhoti, punjabi). He is round-faced and fair-skinned. Reminds me of a Zamindar [landlord] from the North. In fact he is

May 6, 1972 (Mother sits "looking") What do you see? (silence) I think I already told you, there's a kind of golden Force pressing down (gesture); it has no material substantiality, and yet it feels terribly heavy.... Yes, yes. ... It presses down on Matter, to force it, to compel it to turn INWARDLY to the Divine - not an external flight (pointing above) Page 175 but inwardly turning to the Divine. And the apparent outcome seems to be inevitable catastrophes. But along with this sense of inevitable catastrophe, there come solutions to situations or events that look simply miraculous. As if both extremes were becoming more extreme: the good getting better and the

February 3, 1973 Time is no longer the same.... And I can't eat anymore. Well.... What's going to happen, I don't know. Very good things! (Mother laughs and takes Satprem's hands) You're sweet. But I'm sure, Mother! Of course! So am I! (laughter) (Mother shuts her eyes, and feels with her hand the flowers near her) What is this one? "Grace," Mother.... Then it's for you. Oh, that.... (Mother opens her hands upwards and plunges in) I can't speak. Can't speak anymore, can't eat anymore.... And time goes by like lightning. (Mother plunges in again) Page 359

April 10, 1973 Pranab declares to P.B., one of the Ashram's trustees, "Get readyfor Mother's departure." P.B. has Satprem asked what it means. Page 398

December 27, 1972 (Champaklal hands Satprem the French and English texts of the Christmas message so Mother can put it in her own handwriting.) (Satprem.:) You've put: We want to show to the world that man can become a true servitor of the Divine. Who will collaborate in all sincerity ? (Champaklal, in English:) Mother, shall I give you paper?Mother will write now? To send to Press? (Satprem:) Is it necessary? But I can't write.... (Champaklal is upset) Page 331 ... I'd better write it. (Mother spends twenty minutes copying the message by hand, then she holds out her hands to Satprem and plunges in) Page 332