June 17, 1972 (Mother gives Sujata and Satprem a garland of "Patience') One needs a lot, a lot, a whole lot of it. Yes! The signs are increasingly clear, but what PATIENCE one needs! Page 209 The slightest wrong movement immediately provokes a dreadful discomfort. The merest trifle. Life is tolerable only like this (Mother opens her hands upwards). The body - the body itself - feels like a little baby cradled in the arms of the Lord. But if it leaves this attitude only for a few seconds, it feels it's like death - instant dissolution. That's how it is. The shortest hours are at night, from 8:30 at night till 6 in the morning - I don't sleep, but ... (immense, sile

March 18, 1972 (No sooner has Satprem entered her room than Mother looks at him and declares categorically:) Things are better - aren't they? For me or for.... Yes, for you. Page 92 Well, I think so, I hope so. Yes, but I am telling you: things ARE better - I know! (Mother laughs) It's cleared up. It was pretty tough. (Mother signs the contract for the publication of the "Synthesis" in France - silence) Do you feel that things are also better in general, or ... Yes. ... or is it specific? Things are better. A dawning of joy in the body.... It's coming, it's coming. You remember, I told you everything was like this (gesture on the brink

April 7, 1973 (The last few days, Mother saw very few people. She remained absorbed within. The previous meeting, on April 4, was spent in complete silence. Mother gives me flowers, holds my hand in hers and remains silent for a while. She is so white ...) I seem to be gathering all the world's resistances.... They come to me one after another, and if I weren't.... If I stop calling the Divine for a single minute, intimately feeling his presence within me, the pain is unbearable, mon petit! To such a point that I now hesitate to speak of "transformation" to people, because if that's what it is, one really has to be a hero.... You see, there's something in the body that would a

May 17, 1972 How are you? How about you? You haven't been well lately? It's strange, luckily - luckily - one thing happens after another, one after another, but every single bodily function is changing ... (what's the right word?), I have it, "changing government." Functions that worked naturally - that is, in accord with the laws of Nature - all of a sudden, brrm, finished! They stop. Then ... something ... which I call the Divine - perhaps Sri Aurobindo called it the Supramental, I don't know; it's something like that, something that is plainly concerned with Matter, with this Manifestation, and which is tomorrow's realization (I don't know how to name it); so when everything is th

April 15, 1972 (Mother had some cardiac trouble the day before.) So? ... Do you have something? What about you? [Laughter] Me ... (laughing) it's all right. It's one difficult thing after another. Yesterday was what I call the "change of government" for the heart, so ... it's a difficult moment. But now it's all right. The other day, when I saw that little child playing (I still see it), on top of a HUGE mental head, kicking it - it's the supramental. But what are we going to call that being? ... We mustn't call it "superman," it isn't the superman: it's the supramental. Because, you see, the transition from animal to man is clear to us; the transition from man to supramental

January 22, 1972 (Two days earlier, as Pranab was leaving Mother's room late, he had remarked to Sujata, "Usual trouble. Heart, giddiness.") The work is going on with increasing clarity. But it's difficult.... On its own, the physical is terribly pessimistic. It is steeped in atavistic habits of helplessness, contradiction, and also catastrophe - it is terribly pessimistic. What a work it is.... Only gradually, by constantly turning to the Divine, can it start to hope things will improve a little. Can't eat, you know, not a morsel.... This physical world is terrible, terrible, terrible. It's the mind and vital that make it bearable and permit us to go on, but once they're go

April 5, 1972 (The first part of this conversation concerns the translators of "Notes on the Way." One of them wants to give up the work.) It's the ego demanding that things be done without forgetting its due respect - (laughing) Mister Ego wants to continue enjoying all due respect! ... It complains shrilly before departing. Oh, I have seen such fascinating things, mon petit! For hours I was a spectator - the consciousness witnessed an encounter between the Ego and the superman's consciousness ... (laughing) it was like a duel! The ego was arguing so glibly! It seemed to be saying, "See, if you send me off, the world will become hellish!" And it was showing the most frightful s

March 24, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata) For the first time, early this morning, I saw myself: my body. I don't know whether it's the supramental body or ... (what shall I say?) a transitional body, but I had a completely new body, in the sense that it was sexless: it was neither woman nor man. It was very white. But that could be because I have white skin, I don't know. It was very slender (gesture). Really lovely, a truly harmonious form. That's the first time. I hadn't the least idea, the faintest notion what it would look like, nothing, and I saw - I WAS like that, I had become like that. I thought Satprem should know, so he can note it down. I don't know if I'll remembe

October 25, 1972 (Satprem gives Mother a flower, and Mother gives it to Satprem.) It's "Power of Truth in the Subconscient. How are you? Physically I'm well, I think. The governor [of Pondicherry] is coming here to say good-bye, but he hasn't arrived yet. I've asked to be informed of his arrival; you'll just sit over there while I see him, and then you'll come back. (after a silence) All possible contradictions are accumulated in the subconscient. Yes. And it keeps coming up like this (gesture gushing out), all the time, all the time. And ... you feel you are completely stupid, unconscious, obdurate. All that is ... (same gesture rising from below). But

May 7, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata) The Force I spoke of yesterday is more and more active (gesture pressing down). The Action is becoming imperative. Crushing. Page 180