March 30, 1972 (A conversation with R., an American disciple, then with Sujata) (Mother speaks in English) Since we have set aside all conventions, immediately everybody Page 117 thinks, "Ah, nice place to fulfil our desires!" And they almost all come with that intention. And because I made a maternity clinic for the children of those people that I was obliged to send away from the Ashram, so that they could have a place to have their child, people think that the maternity clinic is established for all children born in an illegal way! I don't care for legality, I don't care for law, I don't care for convention. But what I want is a more divine life, not an animal l

December 10, 1972 (Mother sees Sujata, who reads her a letter from Satprem.) December 10, 1972 Mother, For the past several nights, my body seems to havebeen physically tortured all night long. I keep tossing and turning in pain. Also I feel as if my stomach is being clawed. I am afraid that if this goes on, I am actually Page 323 going to fall ill. In the morning when I come out of it, I feel as if my body were full of poison. [[I now wonder whether I was not, in my own measure, beginning to learn the painful lesson of oneness, which starts with all the ambient ill-will. Now I understand fully well that there must be no more "person" in order

February 11, 1972 (A note from Mother) Supreme Lord, teach us to be silent, that in thissilence we may receive Your force and understand Your will. Page 62

January 26, 1972 What's new? Nothing. Nothing to say. How are you? I don't know. (silence) The doctor who took care of my leg and had gone to Delhi has returned. He looked at my leg today and said it was a miracle the way it healed. It's almost all better - not completely, but almost. (silence) Page 44 What I told you is continuing-but it's continuing with an improvement. I mean, it's taking a turn for the better. But speaking is still difficult - speaking and eating are the two most difficult things. Page 45

March 19, 1973 (A note from Mother) Here we have no religion. We replace religion with spiritual life, which is truer and both deeper and higher, that is to say, closer to the Divine. For the Divine is in all things, but we are not conscious of it. This is the immense progress that men must make. Page 379

April 2, 1972 (Meeting with Auroville's architect, N. and U. - N. is the Secretary of the Sri Aurobindo Society and U., his rival, the Secretary of Sri Aurobindo's Action. The architect gives Mother a flower.) What is it? I think it's "Supramental Clarity" or Vibration. (Mother speaks in English) I will tell you that we are preaching unity - unity of humanity - Page 124 and we are all quarreling - horrible quarrels, resentments and all sorts of urgings that we condemn in the others. We are giving a nice example, and people laugh! Voila. It has come to me from many quarters. Begin with yourself, they say, and they are right. Each one, all of

January 13, 1973 (Mother receives Satprem and Sujata fifty-five minutes late.) Nothing to be said.... It's chaos! The Supermind has obviously nothing in common with our regular time. (silence) I feel I am being pulled in opposite directions by the old world and the new.... (Mother shakes her head and plunges in) Page 348

December 26, 1972 (Mother sees some teachers from the school. Towards the end of the meeting, Pranab enters Mother's room in his customary manner, heads straight for Mother, and launches into a violent diatribe against some French television reporters - whom Mother had received the day before - because they filmed Sri Aurobindo's tomb "in spite of his orders." Mother tries to calm him down.) When they [the reporters] cannot get something from one person, they go to somebody else - and it works. In any event, I won't see them anymore. (Pranab explodes:) If I meet them again, I'll smash their cameras. I don't want any violence or nasty scenes here. (Pranab r

October 14, 1972 So the 30th is your birthday? Well, yes! What's your birthday wish? Liberation. Good. How old will you be? Forty-nine. Page 296 Baah! ... (as if to say: still a child) (Mother plunges in, then she "looks") Did you see something in me? I find you are going well. There was Peace, a luminous Peace (enveloping gesture). I find you are going well. All is going well, it's good. Page 297

August 19, 1972 (Mother looks very pale. She has just seen 175 people.) What do you have to say? And you, Mother? Would you say something? I've just seen over a hundred people. Yes, you're a bit tired. Not tired, it's ... dazed, you know. Page 271 I am not saying anything. But if you have something to ask? You should rest a little, Mother. I'll rest. But go on and ask me if you have something. I have a feeling I am not making the right movement inwardly.I'm not going at it the right way. Ah! ... You're too active. If you could simply.... More and more I feel that unless one does this (Mother opens her hands upwards in a gesture of surrender), and lea