September September 4, 1963 An avalanche of letters! Someone disappears, people ask me where he is, whether he's dead or alive. Someone else has worries: he wants to see me. Someone ... People I don't know at all! A stack of letters! They ask me for success in their business, for good health, for a child (a boy!), a good job.... Anyway everything that people are capable of wanting, they write and ask me. Oh, there are also those who ask me to tell their fortune! Many ask me, but I answer them bluntly, "I am not a fortuneteller, I don't read tea leaves"! (Mother scribbles a note) Here is an answer I'll have sent to all those people whom I don't know and who ask me for thing

August 13, 1963 and vital energy ... (hem!) is vital! Therefore to say that those who withdraw withdraw all their energies and consciousness into the psychic to attain Nirvana is nonsense! There is a nirvana behind the vital, a nirvana behind the psychic, a nirvana behind the mind; there is a nirvana on every level, even behind the physical - it's death. And those who withdraw, who try to attain Nirvana, NEVER go into the psychic - the psychic is something essentially linked to divine manifestation, not to divine nonintervention, not to Nirvana. All that is fit for the wastepaper basket! (Note from Mother to Satprem) (This note came apropos of an old "Playground Talk," of D

October 19, 1963 I am coming to the conclusion that there must be a great power (a transforming power, probably) in the extreme tension of circumstances. Let me explain myself: The Help is ever present, in the sense that you unquestionably feel that the Force acts (the "Force," that is, the supreme Consciousness and supreme Knowledge), the Force acts with a sort of pressure on all people and all circumstances, in a favorable direction so that what happens may truly be the best - and the best hierarchically; in other words, the highest and purest (you know my definition of "pure") is a sort of center in relation to which things get organized; they get organized hierarchically, eac

May 15, 1963 88 - This world was built by Death that he might live. Wilt thou abolish death? Then life too will perish. Thou canst not abolish death, but thou mayst transform it into a greater living. 89-This world was built by Cruelty that she might love. Wilt thou abolish cruelty? Then love too will perish. Thou canst not abolish cruelty, but thou mayst transfigure it into its opposite, into a fierce Love and Delightfulness. 90-This world was built by Ignorance and Error that they might know. Wilt thou abolish ignorance and error? Page 139 Then knowledge too will perish. Thou canst not abolish ignorance and error, but thou mayst transmute them into the utter and effulgent

April April 6, 1963 There is progress in the impersonalization of the physical, bodily consciousness, with consequences that are probably interesting, but impossible to explain to people who don't understand. For instance ... (silence) I am conscious of the body, but it isn't the consciousness of this body (Mother touches her body): it's the consciousness of THE Body - it may be anyone's body. I am conscious, for instance, of vibrations of disorder (most often they come in the form of suggestions of disorder) in order to see whether they are accepted and have an effect. Let's take the example of a suggestion of hemorrhage, or some such suggestion (I mention hemorrhage because it

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1963-12-25 December 25, 1963 (Mother looks tired) How are your nights? Not too conscious. That doesn't matter (!) If you get rest, that's all that is needed. Last night there was a perpetual harassment. (silence) There is at the moment an entire study going on in the subconscient on the cause of illnesses. I am not seeing very pleasant things.... There is a whole zone in the most material vital which penetrates, as it were, the subtle physical - that's where illnesses are formed. You see swarms of completely crooked formations - a lack of sincerity. And it expresses itself in images: I see all kinds of people and do all kinds of things in a special zone - th

November 27, 1963 I spent the whole night with Sri Aurobindo, all night long, it was really very interesting.... But I don't remember now. It stays, but not as a mental memory, not at all: as the feeling of an atmosphere - very interesting. There was something about China, something about America, something about ... all the time, everywhere, everywhere. As though he had realized a certain thing through my experience on earth; and there is an action which he does accordingly, and then the result everywhere. A mass of things - very interesting. Page 393 (silence) People want me to talk about Kennedy's death - I refused. There was a poor Negro here, very n

May 11, 1963 (The beginning of this conversation was noted from memory.) ... If I could only have the "Word," as the Rishis said, the true mantra, I would keep at it, I'd do hours of japa if necessary, but I would go right to the end. It's as if I were told, "See this plot of land, there are ten million cubic feet of earth to dig, and at the end of it is freedom." Well, I'd set to it, whatever the time needed, because I'd know there is an end. But for that you need a pickax. Nobody can give you the true mantra. It's not something that is given: it's something that wells up from within. It must spring from within all of a sudden, spontaneously, like a profound, intense need of your be

June 8, 1963 It was yesterday, I think, in the night (not last night, the night before, the 6th of June, that is), for more than three hours without stop, there was no consciousness of anything any more - not a thought, not a will, not an action, not an observation, nothing. Everything was at a standstill. For instance, all that happens when you have experiences and you work in the subconscient - all that, Page 162 everything, everything was at a standstill. It was like the action of a Force. Without any thought or idea, only the sensation and a sort of perception (awareness is the right word) of a Force, but a stupendous Force, you know, like the Force of the earth - all the combin

February February 15, 1963 (Regarding a passage in "Savitri" in which Sri Aurobindo describes the universe as a play between He and She. "This whole wide world is only he and she," He, the Supreme in love with her, her servitor; She, the creative Force.) As one too great for him he worships her; He adores her as his regent of desire, He yields to her as the mover of his will, He burns the incense of his nights and days Offering his life, a splendour of sacrifice.... In a thousand ways he serves her royal needs; He makes the hours pivot around her will, Makes all reflect her whims; all is their play: This whole wide world is only he and she. (I.