January 9, 1963 ... How people love to bustle about How they need to bustle about in order to feel alive! Isn't that so? *** (Mother refers to the "Bulletin" and in particular to the Talk of July 3, 1957, in which she narrated her symbolic vision of the "Big Hotel" in perpetual demolition [[See Agenda 1, p. 104. ]]:) But all this seems to me on the outside. I understand it may interest people, but it's still one of the things that make me smile. That's how I see it. Even this vision. I have three or four of them every night, great visions, with all the complications, [[The yoga's collective difficulties. ]] all the symbols, all the explanations. And I meet people ... who are

July 24, 1963 (Mother first reads in English an unpublished letter of Sri Aurobindo's:) "About the present civilisation, it is not this which has to be saved; it is the world that has to be saved and that will surely be done, though it may not be so easily or so soon as some wish or imagine or in the way that they imagine. The present must surely change, but whether by a destruction or a new construction on the basis of a greater Truth, is the issue. The Mother has left ... (Mother laughs) this question hanging and I can only do the same." (September 1945) It's marvelous! (Mother laughs) Marvelous. And it was written in '45, that is to say during the war - the war hadn't ended ye

May May 3, 1963 Did X tell you something about world events, about war? He said what he always says, that there is going to be war. That war is certain. War is always there, it seems! Do you see new things on that level? You know, I live from day to day. With only the feeling of "that" moving on very fast. By "that," I mean a large number of things. It's very hard to say, really. It's the perception of a terrestrial movement more than anything else. So the details are unimportant in themselves, but they are symptomatic of the whole. I mean that difficulties, obstacles, battles, victories, advances are in themselves nothing but indications of a general movement: at times

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1963-06-26 June 26, 1963 (Letter to Mother from Sujata) Wednesday Little Mother, I had a dream this afternoon. I told it to Satprem, who said I should write to you about it. I was on a staircase that looked like the one leading to the meditation room. Two Ashram girls, about sixteen or seventeen years old, were there, waiting to go upstairs to see "mother." When I heard that, I was seized by a sense of great danger. Because I KNEW that You weren't there. So I began to give instructions to the two girls, whom I knew, in fact, one especially. I don't remember what I told them but it was a matter of will - of life and death. The girl who knew me well promised she would

August 31, 1963 (Mother looks at Satprem for a long time) I saw a new thing in front of you. Page 292 You were in a sort of golden light, rather solid, and then from here (the throat) down to here (the solar plexus), there were all the Tantric colors, you know, all the shades. I don't know if you have ever seen them: the Tantrics have an atmosphere with all the colors, not mixed together but side by side. It's a kind of "chart of powers," and according to the color they select and pick out, or use, it serves one purpose or another: one is for health, another for progress, another for understanding, and so forth. That chart was with you, and I saw your hand moving as if you wer

September 7, 1963 (The beginning of this conversation was to disappear, but Satprem chanced on it on a second track of the tape-recording. He found it charming and inserted it back here. Quite often he deleted these beginnings of conversations.... Here the subject was his health, Sujata having written to Mother that it was deteriorating" and proposed that a supplementary diet be given him.) Page 304 So, let me contemplate you! (laughter) How are you, mon petit? There is some improvement. A little better.... And that food, is it all right? Yes, it seems to be helping. Here ... (Mother gives a white hibiscus): it's the "will one with the Divine Will" - when they'

January 18, 1963 (Satprem suggests to Mother to publish in the next "Bulletin," of February, her entire talk on "God's laughter," and in particular the whole passage in which she said: "It's dreadful to take life seriously! Those who have given me the most difficulties have always been the people who take life seriously.") Oh, no! It's charming, though. I don't think it would be wise to put this in the Bulletin. There are so many people, in fact, who don't care a whit about anything, who don't take life seriously, but in the wrong way: they don't take seriously what they have to do, they don't take their progress seriously, they take nothing seriously - they go to the movie

September 28, 1963 Do you remember Savitri's debate with Death ["The Debate of Love and Death"]? ... According to it, Sri Aurobindo seems to be saying that Disorder arose when Life entered Matter. (Mother leafs through her thick translation notebook [[We are giving here directly the original English of those passages and not Mother's translation into French. ]]) Page 326 Although God made the world for his delight, An ignorant Power took charge and seemed his Will In other words, that Power assumed the appearance of God's Will. And Death's deep falsity has mastered Life. All grew a play of Chance simulating Fate. (X.III.629) And before, Sri Aurobindo wri

May 29, 1963 I would like a clarification on a passage from a previous conversation [of May 3], in which you said: "Something tries to draw less and less the attention and concentration of others...." And you added: "That is, to lessen the SENSE OF INTERMEDIARY necessary for forces and thoughts to spread...." What is this "sense of intermediary"? Do you mean your "role of intermediary" in the diffusion of forces? Do you want to lessen that role - to withdraw? It isn't "role"! The role is a fact, a sort of ineluctable fact, Page 153 absolutely independent of the individual will and consciousness - I am more and more convinced of it, fantastically so. The Work is done through a ce

December 29, 1963 (Note from Mother to Satprem) Satprem, mon cher petit, On the 31st I will see you in the music room, and I would like Sujata too to come at 10 A.M., because I want to try different key boards of the organ, and she will help me arrange them. My tenderness is ever with you signed: Mother Page 430