June 5, 1965 Mother shows the text of a letter she has sent in answer to a disciple: ... She speaks like a child, and it has the charm of the child. She told me, "Oh, I beg you, ask the Lord to be quick and sort things out!" (Mother laughs) So I answered: We are always free (laughing) to make our proposals to the Lord, but after all it is only His will that is realized. And the child's logical conclusion: "Oh, then I have to want what He wants" - that's the point. That's what I said some time ago: one must be in the "It pleases Him"; not only in what is objectified, but in That which objectifies. It's put in a childlike way, but it's so true and so simple! The more you see thin

January 9, 1965 ... You must get better, mon petit. All I can say is that there is a fierceness in the resistance to the descent of the Truth. This descent is totally concrete and evident, of course, and everything averse to it is resisting with terrible fierceness - it can't last. But we must bear up, that's the difficulty. For me, there is a struggle every minute with all that is most negative in life, in the terrestrial consciousness, with what REFUSES to admit the possibility of divinity. In other words, the materialistic concept in its most stubbornly dark aspect. However ... in the consciousness up above, even in the mental consciousness, there are no consequences (I

January 6, 1965 (About the music composed by Sunil for January 1, 1965:) It's odd, all that music of the past, European music, which I knew very well and admired, it seems to me almost void of substance, while here, there is a contact right up above: you plunge into it instantly. Yes, that's right. When I heard his music for the first time, something suddenly opened up and I was right in the middle of the place I know, from which true Harmony comes - suddenly. *** (A little later, regarding the serious operation Satprem has just undergone:) ... Don't let people eat you up. And I would like to be what you want me to be. Yes, mon petit. I want you to be peaceful,

September 16, 1965 A member of UNESCO has asked a stupid question, something to this effect: "There was a time when India represented the spiritual consciousness" (or "taught the spiritual consciousness," I don't remember now), "but now that she is engaged in such a war, who will play this role?"...[[Here is the exact text of the question: "If India, who held (till recently) the hope for humanity in the light of her spiritual leaders, can get involved in such a war, who would lead the world?" ]] So instead of replying to the question, because I might have told him a thing or two, I answered what you've just read. Of course! All those Europeans ... for fifty years they have been to

October 30, 1965 (Mother improvises on her organ for Satprem's birthday. The organ, long unused, gives a few creaks.) There. I hear at the same time. I don't hear what I play: I hear something else. So when suddenly something creaks, it no longer works! It's probably because it hasn't been played for a long time. I haven't played for nine months - the last time was ... In December. Ten months. After ten months, I play much better, because when I play often I remember what I have played before, so that's no longer it. It's not at all a question of practicing: it's a question of the hands not being afraid. That's all. As soon as the hands Page 280 become conscious, i

June 26, 1965 (Sujata shows Mother a sort of cyst that has developed in her neck. This banal incident is the starting point for a capital discovery: the "cellular spinning.") It's a tumor. Probably a hair that coiled up and the body covered it in a layer of skin, and then, out of habit, went on building skin around it: one layer, then another layer, then ... It's an idiotic goodwill. And that's how it is for almost all illnesses. *** Page 150 Soon afterwards I have a little problem I'd like to put to you. I would like you to give me an indication or ask Sri Aurobindo for an indication. It's about the translation into German of certain words: the word "mind" and the word "s

November 30, 1965 Mother takes up the translation of "Savitri": Imagining meanings in life's heavy drift, They trusted in the uncertain environment And waited for death to change their spirit's scene. (X.IV.641) Yes, those are the people who are hoping to go to a beatific heaven. The entire West is convinced, of course, that the earth has to be taken as it is and that it's a preparation for a life in another world, which according to your "faults" or "qualities" will be a heaven or a hell. But anyway, doing away with hell, all those who have goodwill will go to a beatific heaven. It's a weird invention, isn't it! Anyway ... But there is an accumulation, an

March 30, 1963 Last time, you said, "As that Security was taking root more and more, more and more firmly, and was spreading ..." Do you mean that Sri Aurobindo's very presence ... Yes. Yes. Yet, the world was in quite a turmoil? That's just what I mean: the world wasn't ready, and there was ... (what shall I say?) the paradox of a center of Security in total contradiction with the general world condition. He himself said it: "The world is not ready." So ... That's what I meant, his physical presence was the sign of Security taking root, but the world wasn't ready. So, as the effect Page 103 of his presence kept increasing, it brought about an increasing contradict

July 31, 1963 Mother seems quite shaken and tired, though smiling as always I've made a discovery - not positively a discovery, but a confirmation. A rather interesting observation. There was a sort of periodicity in the attacks - can I call them "physical "? ... They're not physical, although they're on the body. They didn't recur at exactly regular intervals, because the periods of time in between weren't always the same, but there was a sort of analogy, of similarity in the circumstances. And now I have come to a kind of certainty. The work consists, I could say, in ... either removing or transforming (I am not sure which of the two) all the body's cells that are or have been

December 25, 1963 (Mother looks tired) How are your nights? Not too conscious. That doesn't matter (!) If you get rest, that's all that is needed. Last night there was a perpetual harassment. (silence) There is at the moment an entire study going on in the subconscient on the cause of illnesses. I am not seeing very pleasant things.... There is a whole zone in the most material vital which penetrates, as it were, the subtle physical - that's where illnesses are formed. You see swarms of completely crooked formations - a lack of sincerity. And it expresses itself in images: I see all kinds of people and do all kinds of things in a special zone - the same people who