February 24, 1965 Mother reverts to the events of February 11 Just a few days before the event, I wrote something (Mother looks for a note:) The human race tolerates and accepts superior beings only on condition that they are at its service.[[Italics indicate words spoken or written by Mother in English. ]] It was such a strong experience at the time of saying it (in English), and then a day or two later, the attack took place. *** (Regarding the experience of the Vibration of Truth in the physical world on the evening of February 11:) ... I could see the whole difference between this Vibration that had no contact with the formation of Falsehood and violence, and the

May 11, 1965 After having translated "the" line from "Savitri": One a day, that would be 365, and the way we are going, how many would it be? 104 a year. It doesn't matter, we're living in eternity. Previously, I used to translate three or four lines every day; sometimes less, sometimes more, and it used to go very fast. But now, mon petit, (laughing) I have no time left for anything! It's traditional or agreed upon that I "must" take something in the Page 93 afternoon to make a break between morning and evening - I never have the time! Those who are supposed to leave at 4 o'clock leave at 4:45. You would need a police force near you ... Yes. ... someone with

December 22, 1965 I have a lot of difficulties inwardly.... I don't know, I feel I am very inhuman, as if I were far, far, far away. And all human relationships tire me. I am far away. That doesn't matter. Do you think it's necessary to feel human? I don't know.... It's bad, isn't it? It's not really necessary to feel human. It's as if I were lending myself to a certain game, but it tires me more than anything. As if I were far away. So I am wondering if it's good or bad (!) I think all the experiences that are sent to us are sent because they are necessary. I am convinced of this. And fortunately, my body too is convinced of this, because ... If I looked at it from the

May 8, 1965 (Every time Mother receives Satprem, she translates one line from "Savitri" that has been copied for her in large characters. Today's line is from the debate between Death and Savitri's heart:) And never lose the white spiritual touch (Mother repeats) And never lose the white spiritual touch [[It can drink up the sea of All-Delight And never lose the white spiritual touch (X.III.655) ]] Sans jamais perdre le blanc contact de l'Esprit (silence) Yesterday, I read with H. Savitri's series of experiences when she begins with self-annulment: Annul thyself so that God alone exist (I no longer remember, but that's the idea).[[Annul thyself that only God may be. (Vll.

July 7, 1965 (About Mother's recent cold. After listening to the English translation of her last comments on the "Aphorisms" brought to her by Nolini, Mother starts speaking in English:) I don't know for others but for a very long time in life when there is an illness (some illness of any kind) automatically the cells forget everything, all their sadhana and everything, and it is only Page 161 slowly when you get out of the illness that the cells begin to remember. And then, my ambition was (I remember that, it was long ago, many years ago), my ambition was that the cells should remember when being ill - which is absurd because it would have been better to aspire to have no il

July 24, 1965 (Satprem had written to Mother to ask her the meaning of a dream he had had, in which his brother abruptly came in and announced his son's death. It was an extremely vivid dream. The shock of emotion woke Satprem up.) Page 190 I have got your letter.... I don't think it is premonitory. Do you have any news from there? If something had happened, he would have sent you a telegram. Not necessarily.... But what kind of construction or imagination is it, then? I will tell you. I had a similar experience three days earlier - similar, I will tell you in what. To begin with, last time I told you that this physical mind is being transformed; and three or four days

July 17, 1965 (Regarding the last conversation, in which Satprem complained about his bad nights.) But I just can't understand why it's always that side that I remember, always the sewers, the filth.... Because all the same there must be another side, mustn't there? (Mother laughs) The reason is simple: that side is very, very close to the ordinary consciousness, so you remember; the other ... there isn't a sufficient "connection," so when you wake up, you forget. That's the discouraging thing, besides, because one always remembers the bad side, not the rest! Maybe it's to see if we don't lose heart. Just this morning ...[[Mother looks "tired." ]] (silence) That must be

January 16, 1965 (From Mother to Satprem) Saturday evening Satprem, mon cher petit, Today at noon, I spoke to the doctor about you, and he explained your case to me and told me what has to be done. He has convinced me, and I think it is the swiftest way of being radically cured. Thus you will take that week [[That "week" in the Vellore hospital was to last more than a month. Mother's letter astounded Satprem, as he did not believe in medicine; he held quite a grudge against Mother, without understanding that She perhaps had other, "educational" intentions. But in reality, during that month in Vellore, Satprem kept fighting not against the so-called "illness," but agains

December 25, 1965 (About Satprem's mother, who has donated money to the Ashram:) Is it your money? No, she has given all her goods to her children and there is a part that was supposed to be for me, but it's hers, so it's just as well in your hands. She says she is "ventilating herself." But it's true, you know. It's a very spontaneously true feeling in the being: you feel increased by what you give. As long as I felt people were giving to me, as a person, there was a shrinking, but now there's an absolutely concrete sensation (Mother makes a circular motion going through her): it circulates, circulates.... So now, there is the joy of the thing, because it circulates, not

April 21, 1965 About the last conversation, a quotation from Sri Aurobindo came to mind. Which quotation? You were speaking of the first form of supramental life. On the earth. Page 74 Yes, in an "improved physical body." I wondered about that ... especially when you speak of "switching to a new body." What were you wondering? This, in particular: The difference between the present human body and the supramental creation is so considerable, the substance must be so different... Of course. ... that I am wondering to what extent even an improved physical body could be of use? Because the thing is going to be so different. Whether this body is old and bent or y