September 6, 1969 I told you that Indira was to come, but the President [Giri] is also coming, on the 14th .... It's strange, from every side people seem to be as if driven to come here .... Yes. *** Later There's a curious thing: most people are afraid of the invisible, to such a point that when someone is dead (someone they loved when he was alive), they don't want to see him after his death! I've had one more example today It's a woman who was murdered; I immediately took care of her psychic, it went away there. But a part of her vital stayed on, and she stayed on with them [the family]. I thought they would be happy - they were scared! ... It's a curi

October 15, 1969 (Heavy rain poured down on that day.) We've brought too many Europeans here, it changes the climate! Do you have anything to tell me? ... Me, I have nothing, except quarrels, stupidities, conflicts ... all sorts of stupid things ... [[Last night, Mother vomited every twenty minutes. Yet she worked as usual this morning. It feels as if the enemy is drawing closer to the center. ]] (there follows a long affair which will remain unsaid) I must say that anyone other than you would find it crushing tohave to deal with all this confusion. (Mother laughs) I find it hard to realize, that is, to understand or explain (it enters my consciousne

March 29, 1969 Have you received any news of P.L.? Yes. You know that he was supposed to arrive today. Then he sends this wire: "Impossible to leave. Letter follows. Situation difficult." Oho! ... I hope they haven't put him in jail. They can't. But they can put him on trial for heresy. Page 105 Yes .... "On trial for heresy"! ... (long silence) Was it you who told me that the Pope had invited a sadhu from India? Yes. But the Pope too is on trial for heresy! Since he told the sadhu that true spirituality is now found in India - so he too is a heretic! But the Pope is isolated. He told that sadhu that his task is very difficult in view

April 19, 1969 (Regarding the departure of Amrita, who looked after the Ashram's finances.) (Laughing) Here are soups! We're in a dreadful confusion, dreadful! For years there was a whole side of things, the side of money and all the arrangements, which I wasn't told about, and it was quite fine, I didn't look after it, didn't bother myself with it. Now, they suddenly tell me things (half tell me, and without telling me what used to be done before), and I realize ... Everything is in a dreadful confusion, dreadful! Because ... I can't understand what they do because I don't know the reason, I don't know how things are arranged. Now a weight has been lifted, but

February 8, 1969 (By some kindness of fate, the recording of the beginning of thisconversation was preserved, though Satprem normally erased all those exchanges or the little facts that did not seem to have "historical" interest. For amusement we reproduce here these fragments .... Today is soup day! Here. Chicken ... a whole lot! I only give you once a week. It's a lot! Page 50 This (to Sujata, showing a box) I must show her ... Would you like some work? (Sujata:) Yes, Mother. Here, I got this yesterday They're supposed to be special biscuits - of course, I can't eat, but if you think you can crush a few ... Yes, Mother. Then I'

July 2, 1969 (Satprem proposes to Mother a partial publication of the conversations of May 31 and June 4 on the glorified body.) Don't you think some people are going to imagine they have a divine body? ... Page 231

October 22, 1969 How old are you going to be? Forty-six. Oh, you're still a baby! Page 389 I have some white hairs. Really! ... Me, I haven't one! ... It's strange, not one. It's because of this (Mother points to the little goose on her table), I told you the story .... The mind doesn't work, so I don't get tired! I have a lot of work to do with my head, nonetheless. I no longer do any. Yes, but as for me, I have all the books to prepare! ... It's necessary. Of course. So it must be on purpose. Yes. But now, you see, people have made it a habit to ask me for a message on every occasion, and lots of people write to me, asking for

April 12, 1969 (Mother first reads a few fragments from "Savitri" which are to be set to music.) In Matter shall be lit the spirit's glow ... A few shall see what none yet understands; God shall grow up while the wise men talk and sleep; For man shall not know the coming till its hour And belief shall be not till the work is done. Page 128 This transfiguration is earth's due to heaven: A mutual debt binds man to the Supreme: His nature we must put on as he put ours; We are sons of God and must be even as he: His human portion, we must grow divine. Our life is a paradox with God for key. * But none learns whithe

November 22, 1969 (Satprem gives his pension to Mother) You give money just like that! But don't you need any? No, no, Mother! Here it's an abyss, money goes away like ... I have something for next February: I "received" certain things regarding money and what's going on there, in Delhi. [[Indira Gandhi has just been expelled from the Congress by the syndicate of financiers. ]] The government is shaky; so far, things are all right. Everything tends towards the dissolution of the Congress, but that was foreseen and willed. But then, the Congress president [[Nijalingappa. ]] is on one side and the prime minister is on the other, each looking at the other ... A

October 18, 1969 Today is Durga puja .... I have a lion under my feet, you know! (the cushion under Mother's feet) Pull it .... (Laughing) It's nice! It keeps still. So what are you bringing? ... Nothing. Today it's not very late! ... Page 378 Haven't you anything? ... Neither have I, except for news of A.R. He is in his hut and says he is very fine, but he's worrying a bit: "Wouldn't I be more useful if I saw people? ..." I had him answered that he himself had said he needed to be alone. He had two hernias and cured one (he told you all that), and deliberately didn't cure the second because he got it into his head that when he has the true consciousness, it will heal o