"I be in Her light peace and power;

To awaken every cell and atom of my body;

My love to Her and Her love to me be Immortal."

The flowers sent by Her signifies a lot and this is all Her grace.

I saw the theory of transformation over here.

But my aspiration is to have Her love and live for Her.

She knew this and she also knew that I would have served Her from my heart even personally if given chance from childhood.

I worked in the office and learnt some official things.

I enjoyed learning many things .e.g. cycling; swimming; exercise; drawing; painting etc. etc.

I aspired to learn more and more.

January. 5.67

I was always very frank with Her.

Sometimes I feel harrassed or nagged by

people - I wrote about it to Her.

She replied in Red Hand "Bonne annee". To, Dwijata, With love and blessings.

I at once understood that she wanted me to overlook that came from others

January. 9.67

Harmony; Protection; Sweet thoughts, Grace; Pink roses; White roses and red roses; Big white flowers; small brown & violet flowers.

My heart is overjoyed to have the flowers.

January. 10.67

Red Roses; Pink roses; Friendship with divine; Aspiration in the Physical; consciousness turned towards Divine; Endurance; Nobility.

I wrote to the Mother that make me your receptive child and I shall grow and do some exceptional work only for Her.

She replied with Blessings.

"Dwijata, My dear child, your

resolution are excellent and my force and blessings are with you to realise them."

With love (Mother)

January. 14.67

FLOWERS:

Roses; Pink roses and yellow roses; Endurance; Devotion; Joy of faithfulness; protection; purity.

To day I prayed to Her to make me worthy to unite with the Divine.

January. 15.67

Faithfulness; Protection; Purity.

My aspiration from childhood was to have the atmosphere of temple, i.e. to be with devotees praying and serving god

She knew my aspiration; Divine always fulfills the true aspiration.

January. 18.67

Pink rose; Yellow rose; Protection;

FLOWERS:

Immortality; Skill in work.

She sent beautiful card with "Love and Blessings" written on it.

I had sent a card on which I painted

Sri. Aurobindo's consciousness i.e. White lotus.

It is all Her love that She receives everything with love.

I always wished to learn new things.

In childhood, I liked to go for exercise, I enjoyed going here for exercise in the play ground.

Sometimes I had wished to know about office work. I worked in the office and learnt many things like accounts, typing, filing etc. etc.

Mother Herself encouraged me to learn French. She had arranged to learn from a teacher.

I wanted to know about the art of dancing. I started learning it and Mother herself encouraged me to learn this art. In my childhood it was not possible to learn this art because there was no facilities and in our caste it is not much encouraged so it became possible only here to learn it and I picked up from a teacher. This was again Her grace.

I saw the art of painting here. I started to practise drawing and the teacher was very happy that I could pick up painting also. I was a beginer and I was interested in fabric painting.

I learnt cycling and then joined to learn swimming in the sea . While learning to swim. I felt interesting thing . It so happened that. as usual, the guide lchaben was teaching me with tube : e .g .1 wore tube in the beginning as everybody does. As soon as I took out the tube to swim I used to start sinking . My teacher used to laugh . Then I thought of writing this to Mother and I did . To my Surprise the next day when I went to swim without tube . I did not s ink . I was very happy that I could swim . Then gradually I got confidence and e n joyed swimming in the sea : at times I used to go very far with Her.
This was all Her grace:.

JANUARY . 67

Energy : Mental honesty : Roses:

FLOWERS:

Protection; Aspiration in the physical peace in the cell.

I am happy to have lovely flowers from Her.

She is full of compassion, and took special care of me lo look alter me

She encouraged and loved whatever

little thing I did for Her. She had accepted everything so heartily that I cannot express in words.

I am always very happy when she sends me flowers and concentrates on my aspiration.

Sometimes suddenly I get aspiration and I write it down and send it to Her with flowers and she gets so much thrilled; I could feel that she already knew when I wrote it.

February. 67

When I went to Her once and showed Her the cards prepared by me She was happy.

But she was observing about the paper in which I had folded them; I took this paper and folded very carefully and kept it aside.

After she observed very patiently the way I folded she said,

"That's right". She was so particular to handle even a piece of paper.

At times suddenly or unexpectedly I feel like seeing Her.

It is always a joy to see Her and

when she pets I cannot express the inner Joy in words- It is inexpressible. When She pampers I forget the whole world.

February. 67

Grace; Roses; Friendship with Divine;

FLOWERS :

Endurance; Devotion; Sweet thoughts;

Plasticity; Consciousness turned towards the Divine.

I Prayed :

"Let each thought come to me like a fresh flower"

She blessed me. This is all Her immense grace.

February. 67

I tried to paint lotus in growing stages and prayed that I grow accordingly.

She sent me Her Blessings and Love on a green card in a heart shape; I understood at once that She has Blessed me from Her heart.

It is really Her grace that She attends to whatever I sent to Her.

February.21.67

FLOWERS :

White Lotus; Protection; Skill in work; Red & pink roses and Pretty little white flowers.

To day, it is Her birthday and the whole atmosphere is full of Joy & Peace.

Message: "The light will come in the body suddenly and the earth will Divinise."

February.27.67

Grace; Purity; Aspiration in the Physical ;

FLOWERS :

Skill in the work; Joy of faithfulness;

Consciousness turned towards Divine.

I remain very happy and joyful when she sends me flowers and Her love.

She does not see the faults or defects or mistakes. She sees only the aspiration and that I am Her little child and loves me that I remain peaceful and happy.

How great and kind she is !! It is difficult to express.

February.67

Her Love is such that gives life again and again.

Whenever I painted any aspiration, She observed it. She is all powerful, all merciful Mother.

I pray to remain at Her feet forever.

February. 67

I adored the Birthday card given to me. She is holding a baby in Her arms.

This card gives special joy to me. It is very precious for me because I always had this feelings within me that I am Her child in Her hands. She is earring me in Her arms. I could not put this in words, but this is what I felt from within.

March.5.67

FLOWERS :

Red roses; White roses; Pink roses; grace;

Nobility; aspiration in the physical; plasticity; Skill in work; Protection; Sweet thoughts; Bunch of transparency.

To day I sent a bunch of flowers

and a garland with painted card and written: "J" aime vous beaucouq : votre petite Dwijata"

She sent me the above flowers and a card with:

"Dwijata, Ma ch' ere entant. Jet' aim aussi beaucouq.

Benedictions. (M)

It is all delight all Joy to read this - from Her .It is all inexpressible. I have no words to thank the Gracious Mother.

March. 7.67

FLOWERS :

Grace; Receptivity; Friendship with the Divine: Protection;Mental

honesty; Consciousness turned towards Divine; Sweet thoughts; Joy of faithfulness; Quite mind; Purity.

Message sent by Her, "It is sincerity that has power to break all the walls in the way to the Divine.

March. 67

FLOWERS:

Grace; Skill of work; White roses;

Realisation; Consciousness turned towards the Divine. Nobility.

When I wrote that she is Divine and I believe and trust only Divine, I shall learn only from Divine.

She wrote, "The true wisdom is to be ready to learn from whatever Source the knowledge come....."

March.11.67

FLOWERS :

A Bunch of transparency; A bunch of obedience; Pink roses; Plasticity; grace; Aspiration in the physical.

To day I felt whenever I aspire, The presence of the Lord is more in nature, than in human beings.

"In human beings the Prana of the Lord is most often veiled by the mental activities, that is why you feel it more easy in nature

But the Lord is present everywhere (M)

March. 12.67

FLOWERS :

Plasticity; yellow roses: White roses; Red roses; Nobility; Joy of faithfulness; Purity; Consciousness turned towards Divine; Protection grace; Promise of Realisation.

To day I wrote to Her that The lord has created innumerable things in many

worlds and whatever I learn it is but a drop in an ocean. So how can I become the perfect instrument.

She replied, "Dwijata, my dear child, have sincere and lasting faith and you will become the instrument that you want to be"

Love and Blessings (M)

March. 67

FLOWERS :

A Bouque of Plasticity; Enthusiasm; Peace in cell; Endurance; Grace; Consciousness turned towards Divine; Red rose and peace.

She granted my prayers on a painting

with red hand "_Yes"

Love (M)

March. 67

FLOWERS:

Endurance; Sweet thoughts;

Consciousness turned towards Divine; Grace; Solicity; Rose; friendship with the Divine; Protection; Purity; Nobility;

I was too young to understand about Her timings and work etc. etc. But Her grace was such that she dealt with me always with deep love and unbelievable

patience.

It so happened that I got inspired to see Her before the beginning of the month and so wrote to see me on 2nd May.

She asked for the reason. But it was simply my inspiration to see Her in the beginning of the month. I thought that she may get angry with me because I asked the date without any reason- simply to see her.

I asked whether she was angry. She replied, "Dwijata, My dear child! Not at all angry."

March. 67

FLOWERS:

A bouque of flowers; Pink rose;

Psychological Perfection; Protection; Victory; Purity.

I feel she always deals with deep Love only. I pray to have full and eternal faith in Her..

March.25.67

FLOWERS :

Two bouques of flowers; Sweet thoughts;

Consciousness turned towards the Divine; Skill in work; Sincerity; Plasticity; Rose;

Purity; Victory; Protection; grace; enthusiasm.

(I had Painted a card 2 eyes closed and a flame of aspiration rising from forehead and crossing all the twelve worlds and reaching the lord.)

She sent me a beautiful card with Big Red Hand, "Love" (M)

First time She wrote in Big handwriting i.e. She granted my aspiration.

This is all Her inexpressible grace and compassion with me.

March.31.67

FLOWERS :

Purity; White roses.

I had painted Mother's feet and a devotee at Her feet. I sent this aspiration to Her.

She sent a beautiful card with Red hand "Love" (M)

She was very happy to see this.

Gracious Mother is always kind, kind and loving.

April.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; White roses; Aspiration in the physical; Red roses; Purity.

To day She wrote to me, "Dwijata, My dear child, you are not a coward and you will win the victory."

My love and Blessings are with you

(Mother)

April.67

FLOWERS :

Devotion; Consciousness turned towards the Divine; aspiration in the Physical; Victory; Sweet thoughts; Roses.

I painted a card in which a girl is sitting in meditation- above the light falls on Her.

I received a card with "Love" on it in Red.

April.67

FLOWERS :

Protection, aspiration; Sincerity; Roses; Psychological Perfection; Joy of faithfulness.

I feel like confining myself in solitary place to remember Her constantly.

She taught that it depends on sincerity and not on surroundings.

April. 11.67

FLOWERS :

Lotus; Psychological Perfection; Purity; Sincerety; Grace; Rose.

I am able to write to Her and put my problem even a minor problem which may sound like a problem of a baby but she pays attention and takes full notice to solve it.

It is all because of the love towards Her child.

April.67

FLOWERS :

Lotus; Endurance; Sweet thoughts;

transparency. Roses; Psychological Perfection; Consciousness turned towards the divine.

To day, I wrote a prayer to Her:

"My dear Mother, To day I pray to

you : Make my body a pure empty vessel where the Lord can pour the force, light, love, and true knowledge."

She Blessed with Red hand on the same prayer letter:

"Let it be"

Love (M)

I felt extremely happy and fortunate to have her blessings.

April.18.67

FLOWERS :

Roses; aspiration in the physical; Sweet thoughts; Red lotus.

As I aspired to see Her. She wrote:

"My dear child, I shall call you soon"

With all my love (M)

I adore the flowers which radiate Her love and Her blessings.

April. 19.67

Love; Purity; Aspiration in the physical;

FLOWERS :

peace in cell.

I had painted a small card with some inspiration i.e. a girl stretching her hands upwards to the light.

She sent me a small card with "Love and Blessings."

April.21.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; Joy of faithfulness; Divine love;

Victory; Peace.

I feel delighted to have the lovely flowers.

It is all Her grace and mercy.

April.24.67

FLOWERS ;

Integral Progress; Protection; Sincerity;

Purity; aspiration in the physical; (Peace); Devotion; Psychological perfection.

To day it is Darshan day. I sent a card with flowers (Love)

She sent me the message of 24/4/67 with Blessings.

We had balcony Darshan in the evening.

The atmosphere is very peaceful.

April.25.67

To day I am very happy that I am to go to Her for Her Darshan.

When I went I gave the bouque of flowers.

She said, "Keep patience. Everything will be alright. Don't be impatient whenever you feel impatient just say, "I live in eternity" everything will come in time to you. You are so young and you have to do many works for me. The whole life is there for you. So why you are impatient. The more you keep patience the thing will be quicker to you.

Then she explained "Go within your self from the forehead; go deep very deep into the heart and one day you shall see the light coming out."

Try to go within every day- only for five minutes not more. I am giving you this special blessings and whenever you feel lonely take this in hand and I am there. At last again she said, "keep one thing in mind-keep patience-lots of patience.

She gave a rose (i.e. peace)

After seeing Her I feel extremely peaceful-It is exceptional peace which makes one lost.

This is all Her grace, Her compassion which I have no words to express.

May.3.67

FLOWERS:

Protection; Joy of faithfulness;

Psychological perfection; (Rose-Yellow) white Roses; Sweet thoughts. Integral Progress.

I sent a Lotus to Her and my love to Her. I got tomorrow's message with blessings.

May .4.67

To day it is important date spiritually and she gave Darshan.

4-Manifestation

5-Power

6-New creation

7-Realisation.

It is very peaceful during Balcony Darshan.

May.20.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; Friendship with the Divine;

Purity; Consciousness turn towards Divine (Sun flower); Roses; Endurance.

I aspired that I want truth not by crucifying my body but by illuming it, and

prayed to grant my prayers.

She is very glad to read my prayers.

She sent lovely flowers with a card "Love and Blessings."

She is Divine Mother with new power every time. I pray to remain at Her feet always.

May.24.67

Bouque of Flowers :

For my spiritual Birthday:-Mental honesty;

Receptivity; intimacy with the Divine; Roses; New Creation; Sri Aurobindo's consciousness; Endurance; Realisation.

I am very happy as I went to Her for my spiritual Birthday. I feel new after Her Darshan.

When I went to Her, "Try, try to progress inwardly in consciousness; try to progress. This thing happened, it was, it will be like this and it is like that - all these will not bring inner happiness. Feel that Lord is protecting you and He is there. He is there only. You can be happy. Be calm and remain quite. She starred at me and then gave Blessing packet.

I did pranam and She blessed me.

I feel fortunate to be Blessed by Her.

May.26.67

FLOWERS :

Mental Honesty; Sweet thoughts; purity; Quite mind; Grace; Protection.

To day I sent some aspiration (Mother and soul) painted on a card to Her.

She sent lovely flowers with the message:

"Since god has made earth. earth must make in Her god, What hides within Her breast She must reveal."

With Love, (M)

May.31.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; Plasticity; Joy of faithfulness;

Purity; Aspiration in the physical; Rose.

I sent another aspiration painted on a card (meditating and light spreading thought the body.)

She sent me above flowers and a card with a lovely cat picture- with "Love" in red hand.

This is again Her immense grace.

June.67

Divine Mother is very particular that I learn dancing as I was interested to learn it. She was happy that I learn this art.

June.6.67

FLOWERS :

Realisation; Mental Honesty; Purity; Rose; Sincerely; Aspiration.

I had painted some aspiration which she blessed. She sent "Love and Blessings"

June.8.67

FLOWERS :

Plasticity in joy of faithfulness; Purity;

Protection; Realisation; Psychological Perfection.

I feel overjoyed to have pretty flowers from Her. I arrange them in vase and adore them. I love these flowers from my heart.

June.11.67

FLOWERS;

Sincerety; Mental sincerity; Sri Aurobindo's consciousness; Realisation; Purity; Harmony; Joy of faithfulness; Roses.

I had sent an aspiration drawn by me on a card.

White lotus and a small child in two opening hands i.e. the soul; and above the light.

She is very pleased to see the aspiration.

She pours Her grace on an aspiring child.

June.67

I read and I hear that spiritual experiences should not be told to anybody.

To some extend I understand the reason because when I feel "My life, my soul, my body belongs to Her, rarely anybody will understand it except Her.

June.17.67,

FLOWERS :

Purity; Realisation; Aspiration in the physical; Joy of faithfulness; Integral Progress; Sincerity; Devotion; Service.

To day I sent a prayer to Her that let complete silence establish in the whole being of mine and let all the elements become absolutely aware of the Divine only.

She sent a card with Her kind blessings. "Love and Blessings."

June.23.67

FLOWERS :

Joy of faithfulness; Rose; New creation; Sweet thoughts; Immortality.

I wrote about my learning of dancing and certainly she wanted me to continue from my teacher.

June.27.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; Aspiration in the physical rose;

Purity; Immortality; Joy of faithfulness.

With flowers she sent beautiful card with "Love and blessings."

June. 67

From childhood, I liked to be in nature. I wished to be with birds and animals and flowers.

She knows my aspiration.

July.4.67

FLOWERS :

Endurance; Service; Roses; Immortality; Devotion.

About seeing my own soul, She wrote: "The first condition to meet your soul is to be absolutely quiet..."

Love and Blessings (M.)

July. 13.67

FLOWERS :

Only a bunch of sincerity.

I recieved two cards also in which I felt about sincerity and a priere.

All one needs to do is to be sincere very sincere to Divine.

July. 18.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; Purity; White roses; Red roses; Mostly all white flowers.

To day I wrote a letter in French. I had made many mistakes as it was a trial. As usual She is always ready to help and She always makes me happy. She advised me to practise and improve and she had replied in French.

This is all Her grace. I have no words to thank Her enough.

July.20.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Psychological Perfection; Joy of faithfulness; Sweet thoughts; Red rose.

To day I prayed to Her:

"Let my body become a clean, holy temple of Divine."

She sent a pretty card with "Love and Blessings" in a green cover.

She granted my prayers, I feel I am fortunate to be at Her lotus feet.

July.67

She is very kind and affectionate to me. ,

I had accepted Her as my gracious goddess from my childhood.

She gave another birth to me.

Divine Mother is All powerful, All

merciful.

I remain at Her lotus feet.

July.67

Divine Mother foregives everything of human being.

My heart craves for Her Love and to be near Her, She knows it All the time I crave only for Her.

I want Her. I want Her Love. She knows everything.

July.27.67

FLOWERS:

Sincerity; A bunch of purity, Protection; Enthusian.

I had drawn some inspiration and sent to Her. She sent me pretty card, "To, Dwijata. Love and Blessings. (M)"

July.28.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Purity;

Message :

"Quel que sati le travail, sliest fait sincerementil dervint grand.

(Mother)

July .31.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Psychological perfection; Purity; Joy of faithfulness.

She is absolutely against suicide.

It is a temporary phase and it passes. Pray and pray to the Divine and such phase will pass.

August.3.67

FLOWERS :

Purity; Sincerity; Psychological perfection; Rose.

I pray and pray for peace. I pray to give deep peace.

It is only Divine who can bless and pour deep peace.

August. 5.67

FLOWERS :

Purity; Sincerity; psychological perfection.

She sent a card with Her Love and Blessings.

August.8.67

FLOWERS:

Purity; Sincerity; Peace in cells; Psychological perfection; Rose

I had painted on the heart shapped card a bird and a white flame (representing love towards Divine and the bird is soul)

She sent pretty loving flowers with Her Blessings.

August. 10.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity ;bunch of purity;

My dance teacher was very nice and she encouraged me to learn this art.

To day I sent a garland and lotus on behalf of the teacher.

Divine Mother accepted it and she sent me flowers and a card with Her love & Blessings.

August. 13.67

FLOWERS:

Purity; Sincerity;

To day I wrote to Her that whether I am conscious or not I am enveloped by Her protection and love. She sent a beautiful card of heart-shapped with Her

blessings and also a small lovely photo of Hers- Signifying realisation.

She blessed me from Her heart.

August.15.67

FLOWERS:

Psychological Perfection; Sincerity; Purity.

To day it is Darshan day. I sent a card (Painting of lotus) with my love.

She sent message of the Darshan day with special Blessings, and a bouque of flowers.

We had Balcony Darshan. The atmosphere is peaceful.

August. 18.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; grace;

I had sent a bouque of the flowers "Constant remembrance of Divine", and a card with my love.

She sent the message of 15th August. To be sincere is the first step which She teaches.

August. 19.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Purity; Grace.

Her flowers radiate Her Love Her peace. I feel happy throughout the day. Each flower sent by Her carries special Significance.

This is all Her inexpressible grace.

August. 21.67

Mother is my nearest and dearest.

I have no words to explain Her grace and Her love.

I remain at Her lotus feet forever.

August.22.67

FLOWERS:

Sincerity; Purity.

To day I wrote to Her that I am praying and aspiring: "awake-soul! Spread thy fire and lightened each cell, each atom of the being that every moment of this cell, this atom passes in the sincere dedication to Her to execute Her will of every moment."

She sent me a card shaped Red lotus: To, Dwijata, With love and Blessings. She sent Her photo-signifying

August. 19.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Purity; Grace.

Her flowers radiate Her Love Her peace. I feel happy throughout the day. Each flower sent by Her carries special Significance.

This is all Her inexpressible grace.

August.21.67

Mother is my nearest and dearest.

I have no words to explain Her grace and Her love.

I remain at Her lotus feet forever.

August.22.67

FLOWERS:

Sincerity; Purity.

To day I wrote to Her that I am praying and aspiring: "awake-soul! Spread thy fire and lightened each cell, each atom of the being that every moment of this cell, this atom passes in the sincere dedication to Her to execute Her will of every moment."

She sent me a card shaped Red lotus: To, Dwijata, With love and Blessings. She sent Her photo-signigying

meditation.

She Blessed me for Divine Consciousness. For this if I thank Her every moment of life it is not enough.

August.67

FLOWERS:

Purity; Sincerity.

To day I wrote to Her that whatever happens I am Her child and my Love belongs to Her only.

She sent a beautiful card, "To, Dwijata, With love and blessings (M)"

August.31.67

FLOWERS :

Grace; Purity; Sincerity; Roses.

She sent a nice card with peacock feather painted and with Her small photo attached inside. It was heart shaped and with "Love" (M).

It carries significance that She loves me from Her heart. I feel very fortunate for this.

September.5.67

FLOWERS :

Grace; Sincerity; Purity;

To day I wrote to Her that I feel the process of transformation is very slow and so it is impossible that my being will be transformed because it is absolutely in dark.

She replied, "It seems slow to your impatience but if you are patient you will feel it very rapid. "(Mother)

September.12.67

FLOWERS :

Protection; Joy of faithfulness; Purity; Red rose; Pink rose; White rose.

To day I wrote that I want Her love and patting and only Her company alone, and I shall not obey anybody.

She replied' To, Dwijata, All right -Love (M.)

I cannot explain in words the joy of my heart.

September. 16.67

FLOWERS :

Grace; Purity; Peace in cell.

At this time I feel I have become forgetful,! feel to be alone and remember

Her only.

She sent beautiful bunch of flowers of purity and a card in the Lotus shape with "To, Dwijata, Love and Blessings" (M)

I get what I want and wish. I aspire only for Her love and Her blessings. This is the only thing that makes life worth living Divine love and Divine Blessings.

September. 19.67

FLOWERS:

Protection; Whiterose; Sweet-thought; devotion; Joy of faithfulness; Solicity.

I am writing few prayers of mine to Her that nums in my heart.

She blessed me to write.

September.67

I am very grateful that I am at Her lotus feet.

I can only serve Her and Love Her

Human being is still unable to understand Her work of transformation.

I remain Her humble child and aspire to have knowledge, strength, and bhakti.

September.30.67

The greatest pleasure is not to question order. Her will and to execute Her

October. 1.67

FLOWERS:

Purity; Joy of faithfulness; Sincerety; Roses

"To, Dwijata,

Think only of the Divine;

Live only for the Divine;

Love only the Divine.

(Mother)

October. 5.67

FLOWERS:

Purity; Roses; grace; Psychological Perfection.

My prayer to Her :

To let me out of all the limitations -and to have Divine love, Joy and peace.

She sent a beautiful card with rose attached

"To, Dwijata,

With love and Blessings."

Mother

October.9.67

FLOWERS :

Grace; Sweet-thoughts; Purity; White roses; Pink roses

She wrote:

The first thing from which you must cure once forever is Fear. It is more dangerous than the worse disease.

With love and blessings (Mother)

October.11.67

As I am Her delicate child she cares so much for me. She takes extra care as she knows I am Her delicate child.

I feel I am very fortunate.

October. 13.67

FLOWERS:

Grace; Purity; Red roses; White rose.

I wrote Her today that I am committing many blunders in the Divine's reign shouldn't I fear that I may repent?

She replied "You forget the Divine's grace."

Love and Blessings (M)

October.17.67

FLOWERS:

Grace; A bouque of 16 white roses; Integral progress.

I wrote a prayer to Her :

"Remove all the ignorance. Raise the lamp and spread the light of knowledge in me.

She replied,

"Love and Blessings" (M)

Sri Aurobindo's message sent to me by the Divine Mother.

"To see Her was a summers to adore. To be near. Her drew a high communion's force.

I was lost for sometime to look at the white bouque of Flowers. It carried

special atmosphere. I loved this bouque from my heart.

October. 19.67

FLOWERS:

Purity; Sincerity; grace.

As I was fond of dancing, Mother encouraged me to learn this art.

It is Her grace that fulfills our wishes.

October.20.67

FLOWERS:

Joy of faithfulness; Grace; Red Roses; Sincerity; Purity.

I adore the flowers sent by Her. They stimulate me.

I am happy to learn dancing etc. I try to progress.

October.25.67

FLOWERS:

Grace; Aspirationinthe in the physical; protection; Roses.

Today I got up very early. I made a beautiful card for Her with white roses and sent it to Her with "Love" written on it.

She sent the same card with

"To-Dwijata,

Yes-Love (M)

October.28.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Purity; Aspiration Grace.

I wrote that I wish to go home. She replied, lovingly "Dwijata, My dear child I have only one thing to say : Depression is a bad adviser. My Love is always with you. Have faith and you will be alright. (Mother)

She tackles with Love as a Mother tackles her child.

October.30.67

She is Divine. Only she can see the inner flame of Aspiration.

November.4.67

FLOWERS :

Purity; Aspiration; Grace; Sincerity.

My heart is full of Joy to have Her flowers near me. I feel God is near me.

November.7.67

FLOWERS:

Victory; Grace; Red, yellow and pink roses, Purity; Enthusiasm.

I wrote : Sometimes my brain stops functioning in the right way and becomes whimsical; but I know my heart wants you and I cannot live without your Love, then can anything separate us ?

She replied, "No"

Love and Blessings (M)

November.9.67

FLOWERS:

Grace; Sweet thoughts; Victory; Joy of faithfulness; Victory.

I wrote a prayer: Let me deserve your Love more and more and let me be very close to you.

Her blessed reply : "My Love is always with you. Keep a steady faith and you will a ways be close to me. "(M)

November.13.67

I wrote:

I feel I am your blank

child.......

so better to go away from the world.

She replied, "It is in this world that you have to change and that the change is possible. If you run away from this world, you will have to come again probably in worse condition and you will have to do everything all over again.

It is much better not to be a coward, to face now the situation and to do the necessary effort to conquer. The help is always with you; you must learn to avail yourself of it.

"Love and Blessings" (M)

November. 17.67

FLOWERS :

White roses; Red roses; Grace; Solitute; .Sincerity.

Today I wrote :

I pray to you- Let me go through it quietly, at the end let me see the victory . :

She replied, "Be quiet, and you will see. "

With Love and Blessings.

November .20.67

FLOWERS :

Spiritual atmosphere; Rose; Grace; Purity.

I received the attractive flowers with beautiful card.

Love and Blessings. The whole day passes in Joy of Divine Love.

November .23.67

FLOWERS :

Psychological perfection; Grace; Spiritual atmosphere; Purity.

She sent flowers with the message of 24th Nov. of Sri. Aurobindo :-

There is always this critical hostile voice in everybody's nature, questioning, reasoning, denying the experience itself, suggesting doubt of oneself and doubt of this divine. One has recognise it as the voice of the adversary tryng to prevent the progress and refuse credence to it altogether.

Sri. Aurobindo.

November.26.67

I pray and pray to Her that : I am thirsty of Her love - Her Love alone.

November.27.67

FLOWERS:

Endurance; Power; Peace in cell; Sincerity; Purity; Grace.

Today I sent flowers and wrote :

"My dear, dear Mother, Here is lots of Love from your child Dwijata"

She replied in Red hand on the same letter.

"Here is my Love" (M).

November.67

I pray that Lremain Her docile child.

Every time I remember Her sincerely, I melt and I want one thing that my head remains touched at Her feet.

December. 1.67

I was asked by someone to write an article about my coming at Her Lotus feet.

Mother was very happy to read this article and she blessed it even for publication.

She blessed it with great force.

December.4.67

FLOWERS :

Endurance; Sincerity; White rose; Grace; Psychological perfection.

I feel extremely thrilled to have the flowers from Her. They are centre for attraction to me throughout the day.

I received a card of Lotus shape with

"To, Dwijata, With Love and

Blessings" (M).

Her grace is limitless and inexpressible.

December. 7.67

FLOWERS :

Sincerity; Grace; Protection; White roses; Red roses; Purity; Endurance.

She blessed me for Her Darshan on 25th,

I cannot grasp Her greatness. She is merciful, gracious Mother. I am always very grateful to Her for everything She has done for me.

December. 11.67

Today, I wrote to Her :

Under any circumstances and any condition I shall pray to the Lord Sri Aurobindo and I shall Love you alone. She replied on the same letter :

"Very good"

Love and Blessings (M).

She is very happy and I felt tremendous force in Her Blessings.

December.13.67

FLOWERS:

Plasticity; Energy; Grace; White roses; Red roses; Prayer; Aspiration in the physical.

Sometimes I felt like leaving everything.

She replied,

"Dwijata,

If truly you love the Divine, Prove it by remaining quiet and peaceful all that comes to each one in life comes from the Divine to teach us a lesson and if we take it in the right spirit we make rapid progress. Try to do so.

With Love and Blessings (M)."

She teaches patiently to Her child. This is all Her grace which one cannot imagine.

December.23.67

FLOWERS:

White rose; Purity; Grace; Energy; Victory.

She is always very happy to send me white rose.

December. 25.67

FLOWERS :

Life Energy; New creation; Receptivity; Victory; White roses; Red roses.

Today, I went to Her for Darshan. I celebrated as my birth- day. She received me with all Her Love and I went with all joy in my heart.

I showed some cards made by me; she said, "It is very good. Then she gave me a card and the flowers.

All the time she was laughing. She opened the card and said, "I am giving my Photo to you and I shall always be with you."

I said, "Merci, Mother she was patting me and I asked, "Mother, I cannot meditate."

She started laughing and then pointed to my heart and said, "Try to find me here; I am there."

Yes, She is in my heart and I felt so happy I cannot express in words.

I felt Her Presence and Her Laughter around me and the whole day my heart was full of joy. I felt new.

All this is nothing but Her grace. Even following days I remained cheerful and only thing I felt was -1 wanted to go again to Her.

December.28.67

FLOWERS :

White Rose; Victory; Sweet thoughts; Pink roses.

Today, I wrote to Her that everybody acts very wisely but every body is a fool before you; So everything sounds very commical !!

She sent me a card, "With all my Love" (M).

(Humility attached to the card.)

The reply was full of force. It meant "Yes" - I got loving vibrations from Her reply expressing positive answer.

She is so kind, so warm and all merciful.