January 31, 1966 (Satprem's letters to Mother having disappeared, he does not remember what caused the "sadness" Mother refers to here, probably certain ways of being in life that he found hard to accept, or perhaps his own incapacity to tolerate life in the world as is it and his tendency to dart off to the heights - unless it was the abyss. Satprem then asked Mother if he should not start writing a new book, "The Sannyasin," in which he would attempt to exorcize a certain refusal of life as it is.) Tell me, why do you feel sad? Because ... if you have realized that there is a progress to be made, there's no need to feel sad anymore. It's when one has a progress to make and does

April 20, 1966 Early this morning, that is, around four, I was called "somewhere," and for a long time they had been trying to establish very important communications to connect certain things, but they had never succeeded, it was always a confusion. So, last night, they Page 88 called me. I arrived there and there were roads - it was so lovely! - roads (Mother draws miniature strips) with small borders of grass and plants all along, it was so lovely, so neat, there was nothing, no disorder anywhere. Three roads converged and went farther on. "Ah!" I said, "Here's some neat work." And they answered me, "Yes, but it was made easier by the government's consent." I found the refle

March 9, 1966 There's a question I'd like to ask you. It's in fact the question I wanted to ask you last time.... When one is in that eternal Consciousness, to be with or without a body makes little difference, but when one is "dead," as it is called, I'd like to know if the perception of the material world remains clear and precise, or if it becomes as vague and imprecise as might be the consciousness one has of the other worlds when one is on this side, in this world? Sri Aurobindo speaks of a play of hide and seek, but the play of hide and seek is interesting if one state of being doesn't deprive of the consciousness of the other states? Yesterday or the day before, the whole day fr

September 21, 1966 (This conversation came about following a personal question of Satprem's, who asked Mother if he should not refuse an amount of money offered to him by the French government: a war pension. Satprem's intention was to refuse that pension, not wanting to feel tied to any government and any country for any amount of money. Mother advised him to accept that money for the divine Work.) I had a revelation, in the sense that it was more on the order of a vision. For external reasons, I was looking at the sorry state in which all countries find themselves, the truly painful and dangerous conditions of the earth, and there was a sort of all-embracing vision Page

November 12, 1966 Yesterday was Kali puja,[[ Kali represents the warrior aspect of the universal Mother. Ceremonies in honor of her take place every year around this time. ]] and in English I would say, She has been outspoken. In the afternoon, she expressed ... (laughing) her "view of things." She was displeased? (Mother nods her head) And it was amusing, because it wasn't just here, it wasn't just the earth, but it was a displeasure even at the way of acting of Nature's forces.... See this irony: yesterday morning I got a telegram - an S.O.S. from Bihar, telling me that they have no drinking water, they are in a dreadful condition of drought and deprivation, and calling for he

September 28, 1966 (The secretaries have left Mother an hour late, so that the conversation begins at the time it should have ended.) That beats all the records! And I started early - yet the work isn't done. It's insoluble. Because I try everything in my power: I start earlier, I hurry in the morning, I do the work with as much order as possible - nothing doing. And I let them know a quarter of an hour in advance: "Time is up" - nothing doing. But little by little everything is eaten up, there's no time left! No, there isn't. But at night, I sometimes work till 10:30 now, and it was agreed that I was supposed to retire before nine.... There's no time left. And in my c

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1966-12-07 December 7, 1966 (Mother hands Satprem a flower called "Grace," then a second "Grace.") Would you like a second Grace?... There's never too much of it! Oh, the other day someone asked me a question on the message for November 24,[["There are these three powers [governing life on earth]: (1) The Cosmic Law, of Karma or what else; (2) the Divine Compassion acting on as many as it can reach through the nets of the Law and giving them their chance; (3) the Divine Grace which acts more incalculably but also more irresistibly than the others." (Sri Aurobindo) ]] and Sri Aurobindo replied. It was so interesting! I saw something all of a sudden. While he was speaking it

June 11, 1966 (The conversation begins with the book Satprem is writing, which Mother "dictates" at night, but which Satprem has difficulty receiving.) Mon petit, I keep on writing! It's incredible! It has never happened to me. Fantastic things ... But is it coming along? Not much, not fast at all. Do you write in sequence or did you begin with the end? No, no, I always write in sequence.... It's not coming easily, it's not coming smoothly at all. I wonder where the blockage is. Page 132 It's because when one starts writing, one enters the mental atmosphere, the human mental atmosphere. And the passage is almost imperceptible, there's such a habit of thinking, of e

M o t h e r's   A g e n d a   1966-11-26 November 26, 1966 (Mother looks very tired. This morning she did not eat anything nor did she receive anyone. When Satprem comes in, she gives him flowers and soup packets received from Israel:) But you are the one who doesn't eat! I didn't feel like it. Yet these soups are about the only thing I Page 276  take.... But you understand, I don't do any exercise, the whole day long I stay without moving, so I really shouldn't overeat! But the body still needs to be nourished, doesn't it? I don't know.... Because attacks multiply tremendously, and today, for instance, I found only one solution, which was to stay lying down: while it was going on, not to

May 25, 1966 (Regarding the conversation of May 18 in which Mother said that ninety percent of the visions and dreams in the vital, or even on the other, higher planes, are subjective.) All the same, there is something disturbing about that almost total subjectivity. Ah, why? You wonder what's true, what you really encounter. Isn't it all a figment of your imagination?... It's a bit disquieting. But when you have the positive experience of the sole and exclusive existence of the Supreme and that everything is just the play of the Supreme with Himself, instead of its being something disquieting or unpleasant or unsettling, it's on the contrary a sort of total security. Th